Today was the first guitar lesson with DC… super nice guy and great guitarist. He will be helping me put guitar tracks onto my hubby’s music. I am Uber Stoked! It was so good to be back to lessons again. It teaches me so much, I get to jam with another person for a little while, and it inspires me to work on guitar between lessons. This week, I’d like to learn Major Tom and write some lyrics for a new song of DB. Will you help me with it? I know you have some surprises for me, don’t you? To the basement people… to the basement! Many surprises await you! So, I am trying this new timer type hour… I set the stopwatch/alarm so I will be writing until 7:50 pm (or later).
Do you have plans for what I can do to get some love into the world through music with a message of love? Plans for me and plans for music with Eternal Party People? I am willing… I don’t know how to do it, but I’ll sure try! I know I may be laughed at, but I don’t care; as long as you’re not ashamed of me. I’m not ashamed of you! Maybe you could give me some talent to perhaps download some melodies, rhythm, chords… the ability to sing along without destroying it completely. Lol. I only want to make you happy… to sing to you and take other people with me to love you and sing to you… to heal people of their illnesses, have you heal their broken hearts…. We need you to come in a powerful way!
Mar, mar, mar… you have such big plans and guess what… I put those dreams into your heart. Have no fear…Yo daddy is here! Lol. Yes, you will have all that you need for this eternal party planning to get started up! I will provide all that you will need. You will have the songs, the ability… talent, the right people, the venues to play at, the courage to sing out for God’s people to receive my love, and all the funding you may be interested in receiving to help things move along nicely, and you will have your family with you. Don’t believe the enemy’s lie that you will lose you loved ones. They are not going anywhere. So, quit worrying about that! It is not helping anything. Just do your best to feed DB with healthy food, pray for your old dad and loving mother… you won’t be alone. I promise. You will always have them, but don’t take it for granted, and take care of your family. They are there for you even when you think they are “evil” just know that …that is all in your head. It is not true. The only thing that is true is God, God’s love and the love of your family.
You don’t need to be sad or lonely. You are loved dearly. You are not in this alone, as you sometimes feel. DB will always love you and he is not going anywhere. I promise. You will be fine as long as you think of the lovely, good, and helpful things in your life and life with God. Forget the enemy. In your mind, it’s best for you to think nothing of him. He is only out to destroy and tell lies. Ignore all that he taunts you with, all the depressing and dark thoughts he puts into your mind—— rebuke it in Jesus’ name and think of the good things. Talk with me. Tell Lucy to shut up and go to hell. That’s where he’s going and that’s where he’ll stay. He has no power over you. Only you with me is where you’ll be. Don’t believe the lie that you may go to hell. Mar, BELIEVE ME, you will not go there. You have Jesus’ love and you will never be apart from God. We live inside you. We love you! We will NEVER leave you or forsake you. Jesus paid your entire penalty from your sin. He did it once and for all people who will receive his love and are grateful in accepting his death on the cross for them. You have asked us to live in you. You have received the Holy Spirit at Confirmation. You receive Holy Communion… you are physically a part of Jesus as his body and blood have nourished you since you were 7 Years old. It is true nourishment and true life. You only recently in the last few years understood that and accepted that. And so, now when you partake of communion, its benefits are even more powerful in your spiritual body, your physical body and your mind. Go as often as you can. Try to go 3-4 times a week to mass… you will benefit greatly and it will affect all aspects of your life. Go in the mornings before work if you can. They have communion service on some days where the mass is shortened to just communion and that would be a great addition to your weekdays if you can make it!
Getting up early will be a fantastic game plan and battle enhancing opportunity. Would you please set your alarm for 5:30 and get into the habit of journaling, playing guitar, writing songs/poetry and going to mass before starting work… it will be blessed immensely – the time spent with God, time with me, Mar- is time well spent. Believe me. I will bless you and your work and if you give me this time, I will give you much grace and blessings back. I am generous and I give back double or triple what my kids offer me. I love to bless others, but you must not be ungrateful… then my blessings go to other people who may be appreciative. You have always been very grateful, mar. Don’t get me wrong, I know you are very thankful… it just means that you are in a position of receiving even more, but the gratitude should also increase in worship. My favorite thing to hear is music of God’s goodness, love and blessings that he bestows on his children. So SING! I loved last week when you sang for a couple of hours on karaoke Christian songs… the whole heaven watched. It was your first performance for us. Keep having fun with it. I will help you improve and I will give you your own songs to sing. You make us smile, laugh and we also cry with you. We like to sing along and your Heavenly back up singers can’t wait for your first performance… practice! Make time for it! I will help you.
Thank you so much for all that you’ve told me tonight! I am so glad that you assure me I won’t be alone… that my family won’t go away and that they love me. Thank you so much for always watching over me, for living inside me, for helping me and showing me the way. Jesus, I love you! Dad- you are amazing and I am so in awe of your love. Thank you for sending your son to suffer and die for me so that I can enter heaven one day! Thank you for the incredible gift of sending the Holy Spirit to help me each day and to pray to you through me and for me. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for being my best friend. Help me love you more. Thank you for making it possible to speak with Father God, and to walk with Jesus in so close a manner that he shows me the way to go. I am sorry I don’t always follow or even hear your leading. Help me be a better person. Help me follow instructions! I am so forgetful and I need your reminders in which way to go. Every day I need you. Every minute of every day I need you. You are amazing, God! Three in one… the Holy One… Holy mighty one, Holy immortal One. Holy God, I love and adore you!!! This hour went so quickly. Help me make a daily habit of the hour with you. Help me remember to set the alarm for an hour, and to sit down and “Shut-Up and Write”… lol.. That is what the group calls their writing meet up group. Tonight I decided to do it here at home and it was a lovely hour.
Thank you, God, for this time! I love you! Thank you for this house you are allowing us to rent… it is an awesome home! We love it here and I pray that you bless MG, her family, and her companies… bless them abundantly with good health, prosperity, love, peace and joy that comes from heaven. Bless her children and her children’s children to come. Protect them all and show them your love and blessings.
Amen. I think you are the most creative, genius, loving, kind, caring, funniest and unimaginably wonderful dad, friend, and partner. Thank you for giving me the dreams you’ve given to me. Help me be who you want me to be. Help me be who you call me to be. Help me love you more and more each day! Help me sing for you. Help EPP, Inc. becomes a reality. Help me do my assignment, hear what you call me to do, and the courage and discipline to do exactly what you call me to do! I love you!
Good night, God! Help me wake up early tomorrow, please. I will set my alarm… no snooze button! Amen.