This life is more than just a read through… Red Hot Chili Peppers.

I can’t wait for the next chapter to start. Moving is not an easy process. Please let us live in the house we’ll be renting for at least a few years. I don’t want to think about moving again for a while. Thank you for orchestrating everything for me. We appreciate your help.   Thank you that the floors will be done in plenty of time before we move in. Thank you that you will have the closing date and time be the perfect appointment where all the people, truck, etc. will be available. You will get me through it all. It is just a matter of time and checking off the items on my to do list as they come up. It is a lot, but I can do this with your help. You are my best friend, Holy Spirit. Help me hear your still small voice and help me converse with my Father, and trust in Jesus. You, my beautiful Holy Trinity, you are so amazing. Thank you for your love, friendship and support… guidance, protection and divine mercy. I am so sorry for being impatient and unkind at times. Help me find joy again. Help me relax and breathe. I wish I could go back in time, but that is not possible. So, I ask for your help going forward. Help me smile more, laugh and step back a bit, not being so controlling and angry. I am so sorry. Help me change. I want to slow down. Stop hurrying and interrupting people when they talk. I am not sure what has gotten into me. I don’t like it. I’m grumpy and serious all the time now days. I used to be so carefree, fun and relaxed. Dang it, I don’t know how I became such a tyrant and cold. My heart is hardened. My future is questionable in that what will I do if this keeps continuing? Life isn’t meant to be lived this way. I want to love better. Love more. Laugh more. Enjoy life more.

 

~mar… it’s good that you recognize what’s going on inside yourself. Now you can make the decision to change. Look towards Jesus. Ask him what you should do and say all throughout the day. I will help you. Peace be with you, mar. My peace is going to consume you. Begin to receive my Shalom. You are forgiven. You are loved. Don’t listen to the enemy’s lies. You are a kind and loving person. Never doubt that. You have been deceived. You are in a dark cloud right now and tomorrow will be a new day in your life. Slow down. Speak less and only speak after a pause to make sure what you are saying brings light and love. I will help you in this new lifestyle. Make it a point to go out of your way for others. Be a blessing to all you meet. Give yourself away. Make deeds of Mercy each day. Plan seeds of love in others. Smile. Enjoy life. You will have everything you need. Be at peace. We love you. Your mother in Heaven is looking over you and praying for you all the time. You should thank her. Mother Mary has powerful graces to give you if you only would ask her for the grace to love other people more and more each day. In life, love is the only thing that matters. Make the most of it. Pray for the enemies of Jesus and pray for the world that they know Jesus and find their way home, too. You are forgiven your sins… your mistakes are there to help make you a better person when you learn from them. Listen to good music, praise God and worship always. That pains the enemy more than you will ever know… so worship is your new weapon… Bringing light to the world… your world and all who meet you. Enjoy!