Thank you that you are seeing to the healing of my jaw. I thank you, Jesus, for your healing power and your presence. Thank you that you make all things turn out for good. Thank you that I am feeling better and soon to be back down to a manageable level of zyprexa. Please help me know what to do about going to Florida. Thank you that I have understanding family and friends. Thank you for your love and protection. Thank you for the beautiful sunshine outside. I love you!

 

Q1-Dad, Almighty Father, Abba, I love you. What will you be able to do with this suffering? I offer it up to the foot of the cross with Jesus to be offered to you. Please don’t let my suffering be for nothing.

***You have been through a lot since you were diagnosed in 1989. You need to know that each and every ounce of pain you suffered has been offered as a sacrifice for the salvation of lost souls. Be glad that this is possible and rejoice that you are able to help other people in this eternal manner. Your consecration to Jesus through Mary has been instrumental in making this possible. You are very much appreciated and loved by Holy Trinity, Blessed Mother, the angels and saints. We are routing for you and want you to know that you are doing a great job. You will get through this illness in a little while, you will see. I can make good even out of this. You will soon see and agree that much good comes from offering up pain.

 

Q2-Mom, Thank you for helping me pray and offer up pain and sorrow to God. What do I need to do going forward that could help move along the process of redeeming lost souls? I want to do whatever I can to help you and Jesus save lost souls. Out of my love for you guys, I offer myself as a living sacrifice to help out and do my part. What more should I do this lent?

*** The consecration to Divine Mercy will be instrumental in this process. Please take your time each day on these 33 days from March 1st to the feast day of Divine Mercy. Do the readings, but also journal here and in the book on what you learn and how you feel about what you’re studying. Also, please take time to be in the Presence of God. Rest in the arms of Jesus. Read your books on St. Teresa of Avila to learn why this is so important and how to best go about doing this.

 

Q3-Jesus, thank you for being my hero. I love you so much! What do I need to learn about this process of my assignment, that will speed up the process or at least get me to where you want me to be in the timeframe you need. I feel as if I am so far behind. I wish I had more preparations musically than I have done so far.

***First of all, never try to speed up the things of God. You must flow with us, not against us. It is easy if you do this. Slow down, Mar. You will get to where we want you to be in the timeframe appointed by God. You haven’t missed anything. You are not far behind. You’re JIT… Just in time. Perfect. No worries. Hang in there. We got this. God has everything planned out. God cannot fail. Just cooperate and you always do, so don’t worry. And also don’t hurry. No Hurry. No worry. 2 things you need to remember. Ok? 🙂

 

Q4-Holy Spirit, I love you. Thank you for giving me peace. I am so glad that you are with me. You know what I’m going through. This jaw pain and emotional pain from this dang mental illness- you know all that I’m dealing with right now. You see me though everything. Could you talk with me more starting this Lenten season? I want to hear your voice more clearly.

*** I am limited due to the fact that if you hear my voice too distinctly, you may be afraid that it is mental illness symptoms. I work best for you in a quiet manner. Here in the meetings and then also in your heart spoken softly to you. I am sorry it has to be this way for now. Soon you will have your light body and everything will be amazing. Don’t worry; you won’t die to receive your light body. No, you will evolve into it and the process has already started. It will take a few years. I know you think this is crazy talk right now… don’t worry. Everything is unfolding as it should. You will be so thrilled at the difference you will feel when this completes the process. All you need to do is take every day one day at a time. You’ll get there. We love you. Keep coming back to Board Meetings… much work is being done in you while we all meet here. Smile. You’re in good hands.

 

Closing:

Thank you for all your help. Please don’t give up on me, because I will never give up on you. Give me the grace to have the best lent ever. Help me get back to a lower dosage of Zyprexa so that I am no longer dizzy. Please pray that I have no more issues with paranoia. Love you, you guys are awesome! I don’t know how people can live in today’s darkness without your light and love. Help me share your light with others. Amen. xo, ~mar