Q1- Dad, Thank you for giving me my life. I don’t think I have ever thanked you for that. Life is a precious gift that I sometimes don’t appreciate very much. It can be very difficult, but mostly it is a wonderful blessing. Life. With all that I’ve been through, I would do it again if it means that one day I will be with you in your heavenly home. I know that I came here to learn about love. I feel like I haven’t made much progress. I am so self focused and proud. I lack the ability to love as you call me to love. I pray to Mother that she will help me create a pure heart. A loving and kind heart. So, I just wanted to thank you for giving me this opportunity in this life to learn how to love. I am so sorry that I haven’t gotten very far in my 47 years of life. The life you give is precious. Help me make a better more loving next 47 years. Please give me a chance to do better. Guide me, Love.

*** Mar, we have been hoping that you could come to this conclusion and recommitment to love better. You are very welcome and I am glad to give my children life. I know it is difficult. You are not so far behind the love schedule… You’ve come a long way and your heart is in the right place. You desire to love better and you are now asking for help. We will gladly give you the help and grace you need to progress. Keep learning by giving yourself a review at the end of each day. See what you did wrong, what you could have done better, and what you neglected to do. The review will help you in a miraculous way. Also, the book you are reading now, Interior Castle, (St. Teresa of Avila) will help you in your prayers. In addition to the board meetings, I am calling you to spend time with me in a more intimate way… internally. You will learn how best to do this in that book; St. Teresa will help you also if you ask her to help you. She can be your guide. Yes, she is nodding and offering to be with you to help you in this area. She has been praying for you along with all the other Saints. You are very lucky and blessed.

 

Q2-Jesus, Thank you for being so patient with me. I know I have been taking one step forward and two steps back. I’ve stumbled along the path and gone in circles. I don’t know what to say except, thank you for not giving up on me. Will you one day get me to where I need to be? I’m depending on you to get me there. Just tell me what I need to do and give me the strength, courage and will to do it. I am sorry that I am such a difficult person to deal with. I go in so many different directions; I don’t know where I’m going half the time. I don’t know what needs to be my focus. Could you help me?

***Cha-cha-cha… we’re dancing… one-step forward, two back. Cha, cha-cha… I love you, Mar! Don’t worry. Have fun! All the things that you are doing is getting you somewhere we need to be… even if it’s not in a fast straight lined destination. Nope. We have a few circles that we’ve gone through… but only know that it was 40 years for Israelites to get to the promise land… you’re ahead of that schedule! I am the author of time… Holy Trinity is in control. God is on your side, so who can be against? You are our living enterprise… and you know that God cannot fail! Just remain open to our lead. You’re doing great. Don’t worry. Have fun. Take it one day at a time. (One day at the time… as was written on the wall… 🙂

 

Q3-Love, you are my guide through all this. Help me hear you and help me to follow your lead more closely. What do I need to do to improve this relationship between us? How much time should I dedicate to quiet “Interior Castle” prayer time?

*** Once you read that book, you will understand so much more clearly how this works. Prayer can be the most powerful thing anyone can do to get results. People just don’t do it. Why? Because they don’t know how to pray to see powerful change occur in the natural. It all starts interiorly. That is what I would like you to do… read the book, take the time to converse with us in this powerful way. It would not take that much time, but you will love it so much, you will have a hard time to do anything other than pray with us in this new way. It will be a turning point for the mission. A whole new world will open up for you. For us, actually. It will be powerful. A game changer. This is how important it will be for you. Please read the book(s) of St. Teresa that you bought and put them into practice. You will be so glad if you follow this request.

 

Q4-Mom, would you please pray for me that I can embark on this new prayer life with hope, dedication, resolve, courage, discipline and love. Pray for the Holy Spirit to lead me and give me the blessed hope of success in my prayer life. I feel so inadequate in this area. Help me to make time for this. Help me get up earlier and have dedicated time each morning for this important request from my Love.

***Mar, I will help you but you need to put this appointment on your calendar and treat it as if it was an important meeting that you could never miss… if it was an appointment for your business, you would not miss it. Please give this as much and more- importance on your calendar. Go to bed earlier so you can wake in time to have this quality time with Holy Trinity. You will be so blessed and grateful if you do this. I know you’re not a morning person, but with my help, you can be. The rest will take care of itself in due time, once you dedicate 30-60 minutes in the morning for this time together.

 

Thank you, you always amaze me… your help is very very very much appreciated! Thank you for your prayers, guidance, love, and patience. I am sorry that I have not been as serious about this progress needed for this important assignment. In my defense, I am not sure half the time if I am just being crazy with ideas spinning round my head. Of if maybe there is some truth in what I’ve been thinking and planning for all these years. Help me be who you want me to be. Love, equip and empower me to be all that you know I can be and lighten my load by always leading me to where I need to be. Don’t leave me on my own. I need your help. I need your guidance, and I need your love. All the world badly needs your love. Please don’t let me let you down. Please give me all that I need to do this. Show me what “this” actually is and what it should look like. I’m all about the “this” and feel like it’s the blind person trying to find her way around the world in the darkness. A little light for my journey is always appreciated. Help me do what you lead me to do. Give me the fortitude, courage, love, strength, willpower, dedication, and help me be a good soldier. Help me run this race and not give up. I love you; you guys are the most excellent peeps ever! Your love knows no bounds. You rock!  xo . ~Mar