Good morning, God. Thank you for waking me up this morning to get to boot camp. 5 a.m. came around quickly- but I felt rested. Thanks for letting me get to sleep last night w/o any sleeping medicine. I’m feeling more like myself finally. 6 weeks was a long time to be on double my normal stabilizing meds. Thank you for getting me thru the reunion weekend. I just wish I could have talked to more of the women in my class. I was so sensitive to the noise, it was difficult long weekend of events, but you got me through it! Thank you for letting me lose a little weight (well in the big picture it was actually a lot of weight—155 pounds to be exact.) but, I am struggling to lose the last 50 lbs. Thank you for boot camp… that should help. Thank you for the WD app – that will definitely also help. Please get me through my trials. Waiting for true physical hunger and stopping when full. Help me wait, Lord.
Please heal my dad of his cold and help me stay healthy. Please help me, DB, and dad lose our weight. Please help my dad with his diabetes/heart issues. I need my dad to stay on this earth to help me do my “mission” and keep making me laugh. Help me be a better daughter to my M&D. I love them but it can be a little difficult sometimes. I guess that’s probably true of most parent/child relationships? What should we talk about now?
***Love
ok, that’s a good subject. When I’m tired is the most difficult. It takes energy to love and be patient & kind. When I’m feeling unloving please help me lean on your Holy Spirit. Not just when I’m tired but especially then. You are the way, the lightener of my load. Your yoke is easy. You can do in me what I cannot do of my own strength. Help me remember to rely on you. I think we need a sign like clasped hands. Yes, that will be our sign to remind me that you promised to lighten my load and that you will help me… if only I ask. I need your help to love more and more deeply. I trust you will help me. Also when I get angry I will try to go on a short walk by the lake or in the park and pray to you. I definitely want to pray/converse with you more during the day. Help me remember that you are as close to me as my breath. Your love and protection always. I don’t need to worry or fear anything. You are in control and all is well. No worries. Everything is unfolding as it should.
***Mar, you are my “living enterprise” and I, God cannot fail. So, no worries, Mar. Please change your habit of worry. It is not necessary and it is stealing your energy that we need for loving others and following my lead.
The sun is shining through the clouds. The blessing this morning of the fog on the way to campus this morning was beautiful. Thank you for the fog/blessing. The call you made to me… what did you say? Oh, yeah, you said,
“It’s our turn”
I think that’s what you said… is it our turn yet? Could we win the lotto or did I blow it somehow? I know I need to kill my spirit of pride. Is that the reason why it’s not my turn it seems to me like a game: good vs. evil and somehow I’m the pawn of the game. I feel like there are points. Are we doing well right now? Did I play the game ok so far? How am I doing?
*** It’s not a matter of how you are doing- mar… it’s a matter of how “WE” are doing. You are not alone in this. You have millions of angels, saints and people on your side/my side. All you need to do is relax and have fun. You are doing my will most of the time when you hear me, but you are not listening enough because you need to quiet down to listen. These 30 min. morning pages is the key. Write and we will talk… ok? All you need to do here is be with me on these pages. You are doing a fabulous job and we are all so proud of you. – God.