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January 23, 2018

Hi, thank you, God, for showing me some interesting insights to your triune love relationship as one love. So, when I talk with you, Lovie, I am actually conversing completely with God the Father and Jesus…. So I can address you while actually not leaving out Dad or Jesus- right?

 

~Mar you are correct. You don’t need to worry about leaving out any part of God when you talk with one; you get all three… three in one. We are inseparable. We are distinct yet we are one. You glorify God when you speak with one of us; we love to talk with our family.

 

What could you tell me about tonight… going to M&D house?

 

~ I know what you are thinking… you are expecting a test. That is good, because it is all a test. You only need to do what God wants in each moment. That makes it simple. You don’t need to worry about pleasing anyone but God. It is very nice of you to bring them flowers. They will love the kind thought. But as far as eating, you won’t be hungry since you had a late lunch/early supper at 2pm. That is no problem. Just tell you mom, no thank you, I’m not hungry- tell her you came to visit and DB loves her cooking!

 

I get stressed, it seems like the people I love are “evil” at times… paranoia in a sense. Not a scary way but in a trickery way- trying to accuse me or make me stumble. The paranoia comes cyclically from Good to Evil. Like, Mom would be Mother Mary then later Satan himself/herself… Dad would be God one minute, then Satan rotating in a nonsensically manner. DB would be Jesus, then Satan’s Nephew on mission to mess me up. It is all very sick. I am tired of this game. Schizoaffective Disorder is what it’s called. Chemical but it seems so real. I hate when the stress is on when I am dealing with this problem. I try to space my visits and time spent with people because of this issue. It is very exhausting. It is hard to be nice when I feel I’m being attacked by the enemy and that person(s) are family. It seems so lonely, like I have no one who actually is for me 100% of the time… no unconditional love… only love/then hate towards me. It is so sad. I try not to think about it. I try to focus on you, God. But sometimes, I just think it would be easier to become a hermit/monk and go live in a hut in the desert somewhere. Lol. Not really, but I would like to see this problem go away. Will I ever be free of this illness in my lifetime, or will I always have to deal with spiritual battles of this chemical sort? It is so hard to be loving when at that moment, it seems as if I am looking evil in the eye. What should I do?

 

~ 3 things: First, don’t make visits when you are tired. This takes a lot of energy. It is good for strengthening your spiritual muscles. Loving in this kind of atmosphere will gain many graces for you and for lost souls. This kind of suffering is powerful. We can use it for much good when you offer it up for souls. So, go when rested and make the visits shorter if possible. Second, don’t take it personally. Go into the situation with an attitude of not caring if the person is upset with you. That is the energy you get when you win your battles with love towards them… but not caring if they are angry with you. It only seems they are angry with the energy you feel, but this is not real. So don’t take it personally. Just tell yourself, they must be hangry or in a bad mood not caused by you. Love them more. Love will conquer this kind of evil/spiritual battle. And Lastly, just look to God for what he would like you to do in each moment and ask Him to help you not get upset or angry. God will work miracles for you as a reward for passing these battles! We love you, Mar. You can do this. 1,2,3!

January 22, 2018

I am upset with myself for not journaling here with you much so far this year. It always makes my day when we meet on these pages. I don’t understand myself… why would I not come here? This is the most insightful and fun place to be…. Maybe I doubt that this is real. Do you really speak to me when I type your words or is this imaginations, mental illness or fantasy?

 

~ Mar, you know that I am always with you. Please know that I long to talk with you and when we write down conversations, you can read them later and see how far you’ve come. You can get inspiration and love from me. Maybe not all things written are 100% from me, but that does not mean that there is not truth being said here. I suggest that you don’t worry so much about it but instead, just have fun with the process. Make this a hobby and focus on conversing with God as something fun to do. No one needs to read this. No one will judge you. If for some reason, these writings are made public, people will know that this is not taken as 100% gospel. No, this is a journal with your creator and you… sometimes you are talking for me, so it is fluid. We are hashing things out on these pages. We are thinking together and having support in your mission is critical. I want to help you each step of the way.

 

~ Yesterday when you were talking with DB, you told him you were not sure what you should do “when” you win the lottery. You mentioned that while you guys are building the studio, you may be interested in renting the old PS so you can get an insight for what you like and don’t like about studios for your design plans. You don’t need to worry about people laughing at you. God has all your connections in place. There will always be mockers, but focus instead on the people that are supporting you in your artistic style…Your unique artistic style. Focus on being yourself and don’t apologize for being yourself. You are very multi faceted and a wonderful mix of silly, serious, and spiritual… you should not take yourself seriously to a fault. Laughing at yourself helps and being outgoing naturally are your gifts. I like that you want to start a podcast with Eternal Party People, Inc. You will have so many famous guests. Musicians and famous people on it that you will wonder why you ever feared what other people thought of you. I know no one likes being laughed at, but you will be having so much fun, you’ll be laughing all the way to the charity-giving bank with the proceeds…

 

movement worldwide. ~ You will be able to make a difference in the world… a mark on it like you could never imagine. The golden rule tokens will take off and help change the world for the better. The token could say, “The Golden Rule- pass it on, please”. (On the flip side EternalPartyPeople.Rocks and logo). People will be given a token when someone does something nice for another and they pass it on to someone – a stranger or friend will benefit from a kind deed.  

 

~ I like that you want to pay for meals in advance to be given out to people with a token for them to do something nice for another. (“Pay it forward” is copyrighted?) That will “Stoke the fire of love”… get the new token currency into the world. Start small but it will spread quickly. People will be able to order the tokens for the cost of making them plus shipping. (Basically near nothing- don’t make money off of them). Businesses can also use them when they give out free items of their products. The idea will spread; God Inspired and it will become a new movement – world-wide.

 

 

Do you think a purple coin with gold lettering?

 

~ I think it would be better, Mar, if it were a Golden token with Purple lettering. Good Quality and long lasting coins would be better. You could put them in gift bags, magazines, direct mail, paid coffee shops/gifted drinks, restaurants/food trucks- prepaid meals, etc. Gift bags with coins inside along with small gifts – hidden around town for people to find.

 

 

 

January 16, 2018

Hi, I am excited to start back with guitar lessons. Thank you for reserving the last open time slot that worked perfectly with my schedule. You are so good to me! Thank you for the kind women at the History of the One True God Class I started yesterday. Please be with me as I try to learn to wait for a growl and stop when satisfied/not stuffed. I don’t know why it is so difficult. It appears true that I have a “relationship” with food – using it for many other reasons other than for fuel. Please help me rely on your help, God, to learn these boundaries (hunger/fullness) so I can get down to a healthy BMI.

 

~ I will help you. Please come here, into the office, when you are tempted and know that is a great time for us to chat. I will give you the grace and strength to overcome and “fly above the pull of the food”. I really can help you, but you need to first come to me. Focus on my presence and we can talk about it. Anytime. I am here for you. Don’t beat yourself up over not being perfect with this. It will take a little getting used to and before you know it, it will be the natural thing to do… just wait. I am with you in each wait and I love when you thank me, love me, follow me and talk with me.

 

 

Lovie, I wanted to thank you! And is it too much of me to ask you for a favor? Well, really what I want to ask you is for a miracle. Tonight, In about an hour, is a drawing Mega Millions… now, you know my heart and that I want to start EPP, Inc. and Open ShamRock Studios… with you help in the talent department, ha-ha… to extend God’s invitation to the Eternal Party! I want to help all my brothers and sisters here on Earth so that they will remember you and the love you have for them. I want to work in the family business of “spreading the good news” of Jesus Christ and all He has done for us. I don’t want people to miss out, and take a trip somewhere eternally that they don’t think would ever happen, so that they know the decision is theirs to say “Yes” to God’s invitation.

 

Help me be a better person and please equip me to be suited for evangelism. I need to clean up areas in my life like: Control, pride and help me become more humble, loving, patient and caring. Help me slow down and love people without being so pushy. I just would like to get to the next chapter. I will continue working on myself throughout the year to come. It will be wonderful to see a change for the better, just know I strive to improve my heart for God. But, if I could please see the numbers tonight… today is the day? I feel it is time. Is it, God?

 

Today, I pray, together we come into the next season of my mission. I want all the world to know how much you love them. Miracles, signs, wonders in ShamRock Studio productions… let God’s love cover the earth! Father, Your Kingdom Come, YOUR Will be done. . On Earth as it is in Heaven. You are in faraway places and so you have a good vantage point to see all that is going on. You have the evidence. You know me better than I know myself. Am I missing something important? What have I done wrong … I thought you said I’d win last year… and the year before… all the way back to 2008. I really feel like I’m letting you down. I have been accused of something, but I don’t know what I’m doing that needs to be corrected. Do I have to lose a certain amount of weight before I can go to the next chapter (lotto win, home studio, work 100% for God) and if that is the case, help me, please!

 

~ Mar, you are doing fine. It is just a long process. Lucifer is accusing you of all kinds of things. I know you are tired, but just enjoy the journey. You will get there, I promise. It is my job to get you where you need to be. Hang on. We feel for you, but the wait will be worth all these years of struggle you have endured. Jesus is really working on your side. Don’t feel as if you are letting us down. We see all that you are going through. You can do this. Just spend time with me, wait for a growl and remember less is more. As for tonight’s drawing, we shall see. The warring angels are pushing back darkness as we speak… you are very close. Pray for a win “today” don’t be two sided or wishy washy – no.   Pray for tonight’s drawing. Take time with Father-God. He needs your time, too. Focus. Tell him your heart. In silence. Be with Abba, Daddy. He loves you!

January 14, 2018

Hi Lovie, I am sorry I haven’t been on these pages the last couple of days. I have been trying to chat with you throughout the day, and need to focus more on your presence and talk with you more in all situations!

 

~ That’s ok that you didn’t come here, we don’t have any rules, only do what feels best. Thank you for including me more in your day and as time goes this year, you will find that you depend more and more on God and conversing with me/us on a regular basis all throughout every day!

 

We are excited for you to get your studio going! I would like you to start back up with the guitar lessons and eventually also voice lessons. Don’t worry about lost time. I can make it up for you. It was good that you took writing classes, but now I’d like you to start writing songs and recording more. You won’t need a studio space; you can work in your bedroom studio just fine. You should talk with DB about that. Call SPD tomorrow and see if JM still has a time slot available on Monday nights. You will have a lot of fun getting back into making music. Don’t worry about doing the right creative outlet… you are always where you need to be. We won’t let you get too off course and the writing you did last year was so much fun, you really have talent. Try to keep up the writing, but focus on making music. Write more poetry/lyrics. I will guide you. Have a great week!

January 9, 2018

I really want to change. I need your help. What should I do to become more like Jesus? I think I need to drop pride as if it was a hot flame burning my hands… I mean I want to really change my whole persona for the better. I want to quit being so self-focused, less impatient and stop being greedy with food. I don’t want to be prideful, gluttonous, or impatient. I need your help with this… I can’t do it by myself. I want to take of this old nasty cloak and put on a new life of righteousness and live like Jesus. I know I can’t be perfect, by you said “Be holy as God is holy” 1 Peter 1:16. So, it must be possible somehow. Help me do what God wants… all the time. I want to kill my own will and live for God according to your leading. I want to get this right. I want to go all the way in this pursuit. What do I need to do?

 

~ Mar 2018 is the year of great renewals for the world. My spirit will be convicting many people to come to know God personally and to want to make him happy because of their growth in holiness. You will benefit greatly in your pursuits of becoming more Godly in the fruits of the Spirit which I will be giving you this year in full measure over the next 12 months. What are the fruits of the spirit?

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Gratitude, Kindness, Goodness, Gentleness, Self Control

 

You know patience; self-control and gentleness aren’t your strong points, right? Humility will help all three. The class you are starting next week, The History of the One True God will crack open your pride and humble you in a gentle and lasting manner. Stay in classes this year and see how you like the improvements I will make in you each month. You will grow even more beautifully in your spirit and physically you will get to your God-given goal weight. You will be healthy in body, mind, and spirit. You really are lucky to have found your way back to Weigh Down. We are very happy you humbled yourself enough to rejoin the classes/truth stream recordings. I know you think it may not be correct in all Gwen says, but this program will improve your life in so many ways, especially the afterlife. Your eternity is going to be upgraded with all the treasures you will store up for yourself in heaven. You will live longer and fulfill your mission. God will be so happy to have you more Christ-Like. You will like your new self, also, and many will wonder what you have done to change so much in one year. It will be noticeable not only for you, but the people you meet will see Christ in you. That should be the goal of each and every person on Earth, but sadly, this is not the case. You have a higher standard placed before you because you have been given so much. You have been given many people to help guide you and you have a loving family. You are very blessed. Your heart is a little calcified… hardened over the years in your troubles. But no longer will this be your predicament. I will personally chip away at the pride and self-focus. You will love your new heart and your mind, soul, body and spirit will thank you for your efforts. But know that it is not you who will do this. God will do the heavy lifting. Only be a willing vessel. Do the homework. Stay in a class. Get an accountability partner. Apologize to everyone you’ve offended. I love you, Mar. You can be free. You will be brand new. And you will be blessed because of it. Your prayers will be answered. Good Night. Sleep tight and get up early for Curves at 6:30. You have a big day ahead. I am always with you. Thank you for going to the Divine Mercy group meeting today. We are so happy you enjoyed yourself and learning about what Sr. Faustian wrote in her journal is also key to your progress. I know it seems conflicting with Weigh Down, but don’t worry. It is all for you but not for everyone. Not all people could understand, but you do. You know that one is for your progress in holiness//doing God’s will more and more each day (Weigh Down) and the other (Divine Mercy) is for you to know and believe is for the whole world.

 

It is a lot of work, but don’t worry. I will make time for you to do all you need to do. Getting up early is key. I will wake you up at 4:30 as I have been doing the last 3 days. Please get up. I will give you the rest you need so don’t worry. Just follow my lead. I will show you what to do and I will let you rest if needed later in the day. These morning hours are precious and vital for your mission. If I don’t wake you up at 4:30, that is what I need you to do… so sleeping in some days will be ok, other times, I will wake you up earlier than your alarm. It will be fun and you will love it. The hard part is just the first 5 minutes out of bed. Ask for my help and drink a big jug of water then a glass of iced coffee… you will be wide-awake after that. Then we will have some beautiful time together before you start your day. God first in all things… even if that means getting up earlier. Naps will be a blessed break in the afternoon because you may need one. That is perfect. It will slow you down a little so you don’t rush around all the time. Remember: rushing is violence to the soul.

 

See you in the morning….   Xo, Lovie.

 

January 6, 2018

Hey hey, Lovie! Hello there… how are you doing? I hope you had a good day and that you enjoyed yourself in all that you did today. I tried to include you in my day-to-day shenanigans and need to learn to do that on a regular basis. I hate to think of myself ignoring you! You are always with me, but I need to learn to remember that always and interact with you in all I do. I really need to start this new way of living with you in that way. Could you please help me make the transition? I think I only look inward towards you maybe once an hour? Less? I am so sorry!

 

~Mar, you don’t need to apologize. I know it is a difficult thing for you. I realize that the mental illness is a large reason why you doubt it is really me and not your mind playing tricks on you. Your inner promptings are not to be trusted, you say to yourself… I know. I hear your heart-thoughts. I know you better than you know yourself and so I understand. I will help you know it is truly me in outward signs and miracles. Just you wait! You will love it! Yes, I will help you prepare your mind for more continual conversations with my heart. Mar, you are cherished. Don’t ever feel like you are letting us down. You do your best and that is enough. You always give 100% with your spiritual life and you have grown so much over the years. You don’t even realize how far you have come. You don’t remember what you were like when you moved here in 2006. You are a completely new and different woman who has been to hell and back, and your spirit is renewed along with your body, mind and soul. You don’t give yourself enough credit but always look to what you lack. Please stop doing that! It is lies from the enemy trying to bring you down. Focus and think about things that are going right in your life. You are a daughter of the most HIGH! You are POWERFUL! You are a bright and shining light to the nations. I am WITH. You! You have all you need and more, you WILL Accomplish all we have planned for you to do! If you only knew what is in store for you, you would be … ever joyful and free. Receive it now, Mar. Receive all we have for you to do. We love you.

 

 

 

 

 

January 5, 2018

Hi, Lovie! I have about 15 minutes and wanted to check in with you real quick before I need to serve dinner to DB.   Could you please tell me something I need to hear? Do you have anything you would like me to know?

 

~ Mar, you are welcome to meet here anytime for as much or as little time that you have available. Thank you for meeting with God in the Adoration chapel this afternoon. We are very happy that you enjoy your visits and soon you will have much more free time for such blessed hours many days a week instead of only on Fridays. You know what I’m getting at, don’t you? You will be able to have about 5 or 6 more hours each day available when you are finally able to get to the “Next Chapter” as you call it… yes, you will be closing your current business and working 100% For God, as your heart has been pleading with us for so long now. We can’t wait for you to create Eternal Party People, Inc. – officially. It will be a great accomplishment that you will one day soon be taking the next steps in this process… the process of all processes, am I right? Ha-ha! Yes, you my dear mar, you will finally be free of your worldly pursuits and be able to dedicate all your time and effort on EPP, Inc. With the Father’s blessing, you will prosper many nations.

 

Yes, wow, that is right, Mar… many nations will be blessed from your work that will be established soon. The world will be awakened to the Love of the Father in many profound new and glorious ways. The world will no longer be able to say, “God- do you exist? Or God, do you love me?” The love of God will be strong in a personal way to each person in the world through the music and writings that come to EternalPartyPeople.rocks. You will be used greatly. Your prayer, “send me, Dad!!!” has been heard and heard loudly for many years now. We love you and will honor and bless that desire you have, Mar. Enjoy the ride. You will fly and be on a journey that will blow your imaginations to nothing. You could never imagine what is in store for you, Mar. You have many ideas and imaginations, but that is only a shadow of the reality that lies before you. Yes, that is right, Mar- smile. Laugh. And be thrilled, for you have found favor with God. He hears your cry and all the cries of God’s people- for Mercy on the whole world and My Love is coming in a powerful way to the Earth. Every man, woman, child and baby will feel his presence, joy, love and desires for only good things for each person.

 

Music is the key that will reach mankind. You will be my instrument of peace. (One of many) but you must know that it will all be accomplished through my strength. Through my Holy Spirit empowering you. Know that it is all for God’s Glory. Not yours, as you well know, but need to be reminded every now and then. Do not worry; we will keep you on the path of love and humility. You will be laughed at and many will love you. Don’t let either extreme sway you one inch. Remain grounded in our love. The triune God is your rock. Live according to our guidance, and you will not fail. I am with you always. I will be your “everything”. Don’t neglect your time with me, please. We must meet and talk often; daily would be ideal. I give you much strength and will be your captain of this mighty ship you are to sail. Please take the Legend of the treasure after you finish the class on the “One True God” class. These classes will teach you survival with God’s loving leading. We are so happy that you came back to truth in denying yourself. God’s love will bless your time spent in classes and your time focusing onto God.

 

Enjoy your dinner. Have a great weekend and try to come back here tomorrow, ok? Maybe put it on your calendar or reminder for a daily check-in with me?

January 4, 2018

It’s a new year! Yeah!!! I want to try a different format of the board meetings. I have not had an official meeting in so long, it is true, but I have decided that it is vital to my mission. I am sorry that I have not been faithful to meet officially. I am so happy that you and I chat all the time, but it helps me to write down conversations so I can read them later for inspiration and support for my journey. I don’t know what format these meetings will take; I will see how it goes.

What would you like to tell me tonight? I am listening and will type it as it comes. Please let your Holy Spirit come within me to share some of what you would like to discuss.

Lovie (My new name for the 3rd person of the Holy Trinity, the Holy Spirit- Love itself.)

~ Mar, I like that you call med Lovie, and it’s a powerful name you have given me. It shows how much we love each other. I would like you to know that you are on the right track. Keep playing the lottery. I know you sometimes feel ashamed of trying to win an investment fund from God through this means. Do you not know that God has led you on this path? This inclination is from us. Do not be ashamed but glad that you are doing as we ask of you. You will feed many people with this money coming to you at the perfect timing. Your patience and tenacity is noticed and will be blessed. Keep playing. You are really battering up the other side- the dark side is losing ground each day and the light is shining brighter already. Your light is blinding. You don’t see it now, but your heart is so full of God’s love that you will not be able to hide the light, or the love of God.

 

Do not be ashamed of your light but put it out where all can see some of this light and love. Agape love may cause you to say things or do things (like hug someone) where in the “world” it may seem like flirting. Do not worry what other people think. Your love for people is amazing and your heart is so full for the hurting people in the world. DB understands. Tell DB how much you love him every day. He knows it, but needs to hear it also. You do a great job of loving him, but you could use improvement on patience and longsuffering. You will grow a lot in the upcoming year.   I am working in your spirit and you will continue on the path set out for you with joy and dedication. I love you. Keep going strong. You are running a great race and this is not a sprint, it is a marathon. (As you already experienced and know full well.)

 

Keep doing the classes I have set up for you. WD is not perfect in theory (Jesus IS God as you know so well.) The holy trinity is a difficult stumbling block for many, but you know the reality of the triune God. Don’t let that mistake of G discourage you from the classes. Your whole life is about to change this year. You will reach your goal weight and your patience, love, longsuffering, humility and grace will increase seven fold each month.

 

Rapid changes for a rapidly changing world is what is needed. God is in complete control and has every last little detail laid out for you and each person in the world. Down to the miniscule details. Down to the last bite, down to every word that should be spoken, even where to turn for the next surprise we have planned for you. You will live each day brand new with wonder and miracles. Many lives will be blessed because of your obedience. Don’t worry about ”not enough” time in the day. God is in control of all time eternal and you need to not hurry. Rushing around is violence to the soul- I mean that. It is true. Your soul, spirit, mind and body all suffer when you hurry and rush around. Peace, be still. I love you.

June 30, 2017 Looking for a Studio Practice Space

Ok, here’s the situation, Dad:
I have no place to sing out loud of your unbelievable goodness.  I have everything I need to fulfill your leading in music.  Except a place to practice.  Oh, yeah… and talent.  Haha.  Yeah, one small detail, there.

June 6, 2017

2017-06-06 07:50pm

Looking forward… not behind!

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Thank you so much for always giving me hope and the imagination to think of the many amazing and wonderful things that lie ahead for me, for us, for the entire world. I wonder what it will be like and I know nothing I could ever imagine would hold a candle to what’s in store! You are amazing and your ways are so strange, so wonderful, so amazing… it makes me smile just to think about it! I laugh when we chat… you are so fun, so warm and loving. I can’t tell you how grateful I am for your love and protection. I am elated when I think of what you may have in mind for me to do for you and the Kingdom. I offer you my little measly life for what you have for me to do. I am your living enterprise… and YOU cannot fail. Help me to always hear your lead and to follow faithfully into whatever you have for me.

 

Mother Mary, please protect me from whatever lies ahead in my life of wonderment… doing God’s will in all things. Pick me up when I fail. I know I will – especially if I take my eyes off what the Father has for me to do. Thank you for your warring angels and their vigilance protection on my family, friends, and my hometown. It is reassuring to know you are looking after us. I know people will talk and spread rumors about me. I know people will laugh at me. I know people will call me crazy and insane. I only want to do your will, Father. Take my will and mold it into your will. I want to always be under your umbrella of activities approved by you.

 

I don’t want to stray. I want to know your will and I pray that you give me the power to do it. God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the WISDOM to know the difference. Help me in my journey with OA. I want to be under your will and follow your lead. God, help me be the person you want me to be. You know what needs to be done… I am more than willing to do it…. to the death if needed.

 

Jesus, Mary… help me help you save souls. I want to be in the family business of saving lost souls. I don’t want anyone to be lost to the enemy and suffer eternally. No! I want everyone to come to your Eternal Party! Thank you for giving me this honor of inviting anyone that will listen to me. (In song). Please give me a voice that is not so terrible and melodies that soothe, intrigue, and motivate people to think about where they want to be and how to get there. Please give me talent, ideas, beauty, the right people, the right circumstances and all that I will need to get this job done! I am here… your soldier in waiting. Help me prepare my self and the world for your Mighty Holy Kingdom, which is to come… Soon, I pray. We need you so much!

 

Thank you for giving me the blessing and curse of an impaired memory. Thank you that I don’t remember all the bad things that have happened to me, and that are happening now. I am so appreciative that I don’t think of all the harm that has been in my life and that I don’t dwell on all that I’ve been through. I am very glad that I don’t remember (without much effort) the painful times in my life. Thank you, God, that you got me thorough it all! I look forward to living in your Spirit 24/7. I don’t think I will need memory as I pray the Holy Spirit will take my life, each moment, and live through me. May your Holy Spirit use me as His own. I pray that you see to it that I have the mighty loving Sprit make me an instrument of your peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love. Make me a complete loving being, and show me where I need to change. Show me what needs to be done in my life to shine your love and light. I know I have a long ways to go. Please get me there asap- if possible. I want to be transformed.

 

I know I have many people to make amends to. Please give me the grace to make them to all the people I have hurt. I don’t know where to start or how to do this. It goes back years. They probably don’t even remember. They may not have even been hurt, and it may be in my memory only. I don’t want to be an a-hole anymore. I know I have much room to grow. Please guide me into where you want me to be. I want to look forward but always looking back; doubting, worrying, and wondering what I was thinking of when I did certain things.

 

Please don’t let me be misunderstood. I seem to always insert foot when opening my mouth. Why??? Help me express myself more clearly and fully. Many problems have occurred with my mouth spouting out whatever is in my heart and mind… and then being twisted and confused. Help! I look forward to the new beginning. Please give me supernatural help, love, and support to get this job in gear. I won’t look back anymore in sorrow. I will from now on look forward with joy, hope, love and laughter for all you have in mind for us. I love you, Dad! Father-God, thank you for adopting me into your family. Can I please start in the Family Business of saving souls? Eternal Party People, Inc. will soon please get started? I need your investment. Is it possible that I could win the lottery to get this off the ground? Tonight would be great…. lol! Mega millions is around 50M tonight. That would be plenty. I just want to give myself for your intention, your plans, and your amazing songs that you have for me to share. ShamRock Studios and EPP, Inc. are waiting for your sign to get started. I can’t wait and am so EXCITED! Again, the birthdays of me, DB and Jesus… would win and we are so close to winning… I can tell! I hope I have passed the multiple tests I feel I’ve been through. If I need more help, please give it to me so I can have the strength to endure more trials. I hope I make you proud. Love, Your loving daughter…mar.

 

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