Hi Ya! Thank you so much for the gift of laughter! You crack me up endlessly. Thank you for giving me family that love to laugh and have a good time. Thank you that you have plans to make all humanity laugh, love and enjoy your Holy Presence. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for helping me get back to some kind of mental health again. Please let Dr. W tell me how long I need to take this medicine and please let it be the perfect advise for my situation. Thank you for zyprexa and that it works so well for me. Thank you for music… for all the music that makes me feel happy. You are awesome for creating a universe of sound waves… eternal music of love. Help me to always tap into that music.
Q1- Dad, I still feel like things are going fast around me… a little dizzy and still feel rushed. A tad bit revved up, perhaps. How long do you say I should keep on the increased level of zyprexa? I haven’t heard back from Dr. W yet…
*** If you don’t hear back from him today, then for the weekend stay on 30 mg. and go ahead and Sunday night keep on 30 mg until you hear back. This is the wise choice, Mar. You want to be healthy for the trip to Florida, so let’s tackle this completely so you can enjoy your time without paranoia. I know you hate this- but believe me- it is the best option. Otherwise, you will just fall back and lose even more time down with the increased meds. We’re really proud of you for catching the symptoms and the initiative you took on Wednesday to manage this illness. You feel a little dizzy right now, so why don’t you get a drink of water, rest a bit and come back after awhile later this afternoon. Ok?
2/12/16 3:40pm
Thank you, Dad. I feel better now… less dizzy.
Q2-Jesus, I love you! What do you think I should do about the trip to Florida in 2 weeks?
*** If you have any doubts about going, your health comes first. You will know a week before how you are doing. To heal the fastest, try to slow down and avoid as much stimulation as possible (movies, being around other people, etc.) Take the next week to really focus on healing: quiet. No pressure. Nothing needs to be done. You will be able to work and that will be relaxing/good for your brain. Try not to make any decisions about Florida until next weekend. ok?
Q3-Holy Spirit, will you please guide me and be close to me? Could you make yourself known to me; speak a tad bit louder for me? I will try to listen more.
*** Right now, it’s best for us to try not to talk too loudly; it may cause you undue instability. Try to nap a lot- don’t worry about anything. I have it all covered. Everyone understands and will help you in the next 3 weeks. Rest up. Take whatever med dosage your doctor tells you to do and take it as long as he says to take it. You’ll be fine. This too shall pass. You won’t need to go to the hospital if you follow Dr.W.
Q4-Mom, thank you for always being with me, even when I don’t think of you or talk with you. I appreciate all that you are doing for me. Thank you for sending your angels to help me. Was that man in front of me at Ash Wednesday mass… was he an angel? Or was that my illness? Also, did he put a bubble of protection around me? It felt like he did once I asked him to. The man to my left seemed evil with bad intentions for me… was all this paranoia on my end?
*** You do have many angels around you. You are protected. The illness and paranoia are more amplified when you are not level on the meds. So, you feel all that is going on around you and detect the spiritual realm more strongly when you need to increase your medicine. Try not to think about this. Just take your meds, rest, follow the Dr. directions. You will be fine. I will pray for you and your healing. Don’t worry about Florida this week. You can decide later (7 days prior to your trip)
Thank you. I appreciate your help, your prayers and your protection. I know there is nothing to worry about in regards to my safety, because I trust in you!
xo, Amen! ~Mar