Hey, ho there! Thank you, Dear God that I am not dizzy today! I am so happy that I feel so much better. Thank you for taking such good care of me! Thank you for spring to be just around the corner! Thank you that I have such a wonderful and loving family! I am so blessed, thank you, Father for everything you give to us. All good things come from you and the list of them would be endless. Thank you doesn’t say enough or even come close to the gratitude I have for my redemption by my Lord, Jesus Christ! This is such a precious gift! I don’t deserve your goodness! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your promise of heaven one day, please make me worthy to live eternity with you. By His blood-I am washed clean of my sin. Thank you, Lord!
Q1– Mom, Thank you for helping me pray. I don’t know how to pray but you come to the rescue and make my weak offerings beautiful in your loving prayer-boosting way. You make my prayers beautiful to Dad and take away my defects of perfect prayer. Thank you that you do this without my asking… being consecrated to Jesus through your heart is the most amazing transformation of prayer. What can I do to thank you and also what do I need to do to make sure you are still able to do this for me?
*** Mar, your consecration will never be revoked. I take all the prayers of my children who are consecrated to Jesus through me and make them perfect, beautiful and effective. All that you need to do is remember me. I am always here with you and I love to talk with you. When you pray the rosary or the Chaplet of Divine Mercy, I am with you in a special way during those times. During that time, I search your heart and pray for your needs to the Father. I also take that prayer offering for people you know and love. All those on your prayer list will always be prayed for in a special way during that time. If you want to thank me, all you need to do is smile and be happy. That helps me know that you are all right and on the path of the Father. We only want you to be joyful. All other things will come through once you relax and enjoy your life to the fullest.
If you are not joyful, how can you throw an eternal party that people would like to come to? If you have joy in your heart, the party would be a blast if given in that spirit. Don’t you see, dear Mar, that heaven will come down to bring love, light, laughter and peace? If you work against this, it is just not going to work. So, to make me happy, mar, Smile and be happy… We know you have this ability. We’ve watched it in you all your life. That’s one of the reasons why we trust you with EPP, Inc. And Holy Trinity App. Don’t fail us now! You are so close to a breakthrough- hang in there. Smile and laugh to see your destiny come to you one day, soon.
Q2-Dad, I love you! Thank you for giving me the Blessed Mother. She gives great warm hugs and endless help. What do you think I could do for mom (in addition to smiling and being happy) that would make her especially proud of me?
***As you grow into the virtues of kindness, patience and humility she will be even more proud of her work in you. She already is proud of your growth in many areas, but these three could be improved with her help. You know the reasons why you have a difficult time with these. Soon it will be easier for you. Keep praying to Mother and she will be able to help grow you in these areas- if you ask her.
Q3– Jesus, Help me be a better wife, please. I have much difficulty being kind and loving with the paranoia that I deal with on a daily basis. When I think DB is a “demon” or “evil” I understandably have issues with being kind in such a circumstance. I try to reason with myself that this is not the case, but it really and truly is tiring. Also, it is frustrating and makes me want to cry when I think of it. I know it is much better than it used to be, but I still need to be kinder to DB during those moments. Won’t you help me? He deserves so much better than this.
*** Mar, I love you and you need to know that you are doing a fantastic job with how far you have come. He loves you and really appreciates all you do for him. He understands. He knows. I will help you improve in this way: I will give you peace. Breathe in peace when you are having issues, and I will give you peace. Do your best and keep improving a little each day. Pray to your mother always for help. The paranoia will go away with a little higher dosage. Maybe you could talk with Dr. W on the 3rd and ask if 20 mg as a base would be beneficial. He will help you. Take it easy. Rest up. This new levl of zyprexa will help you deal with your difficulties in this area. Actually, it will help in many areas. Keep exercising, too. You’ll get to where you need to be. Just remain patient. We love you!
Q4-Holy Spirit, my Love… can I call you “Love”? I need a name that I can use when we speak to each other. Do you have a name? If you have one, I’d bet it would be “Love”.
*** You make me smile, mar. Yes, you can call me “Love” anytime. The more you speak with me in your heart, the more I will reveal to you about myself. I appreciate you giving me a name in addition to “Holy Spirit”. Also, in the past you have called me “Happy Spirit” which I liked a lot also. But, “Love” is a wonderful name.
Closing:
Love, Big hug and kiss to you. I need you more than ever. Help me come to know you more. Help me talk with you every day. Love, you’re amazing. You lift me up out of darkness and confusion. You light up my life. You calm me and give me peace. How did I live my life before knowing you? You held me up and saved me from myself. Thank you. XO, ~mar