Waiting… waiting… what am I doing wrong?
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Do I need to learn something? Do I need to prove my love, my work ethic, and my obedience? What should I say to you? Telling you how much I love you never seems enough. Death to my will… this may be the last thing needed. I pray you help me obey. Open my ears to your directions. Heed my thoughts and actions to your guidance. Show me what I need to do. Is the delay in anticipation to my complete surrender? I love your way. Your way is always so much better than anything I could ever plan or do. Help me keep the plans of the evil one behind me. Help me. Give me the weapons needed to do your will and to thwart the plans far away when those plans are against your will. I feel the struggle of evil vs. good within. It is clear what to do; yet to do it is near impossible many instances each day. The struggle is real. The war is real. You can do anything, Lord. Please help me when I need you. Help me learn to call out to you for help when I need it. Help me remember that you want to help me. Remind me constantly that you are with me. Talk with me and allow me to hear your whisper in this busy and loud world. Please help me get ready for your plans to manifest in the world.