Thank you for a wonderful 2015 and for all your blessings! Thank you for saying that you have good plans for me in 2016 and that you will be able to use me. Thank you for helping me be who you want me to be. I have grown much in the last year. I pray that you continue your good work in me. Thank you that you are so amazing and love each one of us in a unique and incredible intimate way. Thank you for sending Jesus to redeem the world. Thank you that you will not lose even one of your children. Thank you for your unfathomable divine mercy! Thank you for our health and for the fun we have together. Thank you for sending me my angel-bud, DB. I love him so much. Thank you for all our good times together, please bless what you are doing in our marriage. Thank you for Sr. C, please hear her intentions and send her whatever she needs. Thank you for all the nurses and caregivers of the sick and elderly, please bless them in a special way today, especially the workers at R’s Nursing Home. Thank you that you are healing R please help him move back home and recover from the CP. Thank you for the beautiful sunset tonight!
Shortcomings/Mistakes in the last day or two: I have been a little short and controlling with DB on a few occasions today. I tried to tell him what I wanted done and got angry that he didn’t want to help me at that exact time. Very controlling. Also, I was rushed today when we went to visit R, I should have taken more time to visit with him. I also got controlling with DB trying to hurry him to get over there. Please forgive me, and help me to be more patient and less controlling. Mother, would you please help me with this? Thank you.
Q1-Dad, I would like to ask you if you could invest in EPP, Inc so that this dream of mine, which you have put into my heart, could be fulfilled. If you have another idea for me, then please lead me in that direction, but if you want me to start Trinity App, ShamRock Studio, and EPP band, then please take away this dream in my heart. I only want to be used and if I could help usher in your Holy and Amazing Kingdom, I would be very honored and glad to help out. I think you have a great plan for me, I only wish that it could be started. I wish that you could lead me in the direction you want me to go. Monday I start working again and I yearn with all my heart to work only and especially for you with EPP, Inc. Would you be able to hire me? I would love to do it for free, but the bills need to be paid. I need to focus on your will, but it is difficult to imagine starting another business right now. I tried it a few years ago, and it almost ruined my company. I am so burnt out, but you can give me the strength to endure it, if you are not ready to bless EPP, Inc. and invest. Help me be who you want me to be. Lead me, and guide me, Dad. I love you. Whatever you choose is the best in the long run. Help me look to your will and your guidance only, to stifle my will in your love and become who you want me to be.
*** Mar, you are doing a good job of compartmentalizing all that we are asking you to do. You keep your home in good shape, you treat DB well and you love him. I only ask that you don’t think too far in the future, focus on what you can do each day to grow in love. The rest will all work out in the end. I will use you in a big way. Just relax, and remember, I got this. You don’t need to worry about getting things done that are out of your capabilities. You are equipped to do what I am asking you to do. You will have everything you need, when you need it. Do not worry. Only hope and love, you will get there. Enjoy the ride.
Q2-Jesus, my beloved, I can’t thank you enough for coming to earth for us. Thank you for shedding your blood for my redemption. It makes me so sad when I think of my sins/mistakes, which have wounded your precious heart. Please forgive me, is all I can say. Over and again, I ask for your forgiveness, when you have forgiven and forgotten a long time ago from my confession and reconciliation. Yet, still I am so very sorry for hurting you. I love you. Help me be more like you. Help me not to wound you again. I am so wretched. I am so very sorry that I commit the same sins over and again. Give me the grace to change. Less Controlling, Less angry, less impatient, I ask for these graces, Lord. Would you help me?
*** Yes, Mar. You have come a long way. You still have a way to go, but the beautiful thing is that you have a long life and eternity to love me. You make me smile and you make me laugh. I have forgotten all things from your past. I have washed it all away from the cross. It is time for you to forgive yourself. Look ahead into the new day. We have much to celebrate! Get ready to party like it’s 1999! Hahahah, except it will be an eternal party with an amazing unending joyful celebration of love. The wedding banquet awaits the guests… the finishing touches are being made in heaven. We will have a wonderful and beautiful eternity together. I love you, my bride. I love you. NEVER forget that. Your past is wiped away. Live for today with hope in the future. You can’t go wrong if you love. Pray to grow in renewed love each day. Love is all that matters.
Q3-Holy Spirit, I need your help with this love thing. I am so hardened at times I wonder what I have gone through that hardened my heart so much. What do I need to do to grow in love for others? Will you help me grow in love for others?
***You have come a long way from the heartbreak you had when you lost yourself in the illness. It was a burden so heavy; the only way you could deal with it without me is in an addiction to food. You went to food for your comfort. Now, dear mar- please come to me. You are getting much better about not using food for comfort, but you still have much growth in this area to focus on. Use the TW class starting on Monday. It is going to help you grow and love better. You will become much closer to me and you will see a drastic change in your relationship with food. It will become fuel. Not a comforter. I am your comforter. You will learn much more about this in the next 3 months. Please try your best to find time each day to do the workbook. You are coming along nicely and will grow much in 2016. Enjoy! It will be a lot of fun! Don’t worry, just do your best.
Q4– Dear Mother, Would you please ask Jesus to send me the best person that I can share my ideas with and be guided by a spiritual director. Who would be the right person? Sr C, MP. or someone else? Could you talk with Jesus about this for me? Please intercede for me and ask the Holy Spirit to lead me in this important way.
*** I will, I always do intercede for you. I do so even in ways you could never imagine. I know what you need before you ever think of it. We are guiding you even though you don’t notice it or realize it. When you look back to 2012 don’t you see how far you have come? It’s hard to remember sometimes, but believe me, you are growing rapidly and becoming who God wants you to be- an answer to your prayers. I will set up your spiritual director in due time. Be sure of that. You will have all the people you need in your life; all lined up at the right time. You may want to consider meeting with P more frequently. I know it is costly, but if you use the hour in a more dedicated way, it would be worth the money. Soon you won’t need to worry about money. Soon the whole world won’t need to worry about money. 🙂
Closing:
Dear Jesus, I know that your Sacred Heart is sorrowful because so many people neither love you nor trust in you. Behold, Lord, here I am. Though weak and sinful, I love and I trust in you. I intend that all my actions this day be for the purpose of consoling you.
Heavenly Father, in union with all the masses being offered today, I give you praise and thanks for the any gifts you will send me, including the gift of my small sharing in the Cross. May this my prayer glorify you and console your Son. With the help of your grace, I resolve to remain all day in this prayerful spirit of praise and thanks and, further, to console Jesus by being merciful to my neighbor through my deeds, words, and prayers.
Mary, my mother, come with your spouse, the Spirit. Make my sacrifice of praise, thanks, and mercy a most pleasing consolation to your son. Behold, I present to you all I am and have. Take my offering so it may pass through your Immaculate Heart, To Jesus’ Sacred Heart, and on to the Father, for his greater glory. Amen.