Morning, God. I am so sleepy this morning. Not feeling up to a run, but maybe DB will want to go to the Arc for a workout later. It is a beautiful day, though… hummm, maybe I would really enjoy a short run outside? My foot hurts, could you please make the problem on the bottom of my left foot go away? Oh yeah… I need to buy some new tennis shoes today for my new inserts coming! I should do that this afternoon and go grocery shopping, too. Ok , then tonight we can go see “Fluffy” or RG at C&F. I think I’d rather go to AH for the comedy show, but DB said he would rather go listen to RG. I would like to hear/see Daniel and the Lion, though… decisions, decisions. I think I’ll leave it up to DB to decide. So, what else is new? Oh, well… I don’t know. What should we talk about?
*** love
Again? Ok, well let me see. I am having difficulty relating my diet with your will. Is is true that I’m disobedient to your will when I eat and am not hungry? Am I not loving you if I overeat?
*** I have great plans for you, Mar… but it is necessary for you to learn to follow my will. That is why you are struggling. You hear my will in your heart, but you say—“No, God” by turning around and doing your will – with food and sometimes with other things. You know my will for you (sometimes) and you need also to ask/listen for my will in all things. You have gotten better at it and it is a learning process. I will always love you. You just need to be closer to me in all aspects. If we are going to succeed in this dream/plan that we have, you need to try to hear my will for you always. For example, you didn’t want to give up your NutriBullet, but you listened to me and knew my will was for you to give it to M. You did it and I bless those who listen and heed/complete my will for them at that moment.
Ok, that makes total sense to me, now. It is a learning process and I will be blessed when I try to hear your will and then to follow your will. It is like you are my manager. Ok, I get that. I need to listen for your direction in all things, and food is just one of the main ways for the training. Also, you would like me to be healthier, more confident, happier with my body and free from the slavery/ listening to my “flesh” trying to ruin me by over eating. Of course, it is from the lies I listen to. The cravings are not of God but of the great deceiver. Satan would love to keep all people in slave to overeating, diabetes, heart disease, obesity, and just love the food, be addicted to the food and adore the lies of Satan- who says, “Just one bite, it won’t hurt you.” And also the lie that keeps me from even thinking if I am hungry before eating… I would like your help, Lord- please help me remember to think and pray/talk with you- before I eat something. I just eat without thinking! It would be good if I could train myself to pause, breathe and ask you what your will is for me before I eat. You have the best plan in store for me each day. Help me listen for that plan. I love not having to trust myself, count calories and it’s fun to see what all you want me to do.
*** Yes, and that is love. My love for you is for all good, the best of the best for my kiddo. It is your will that goes against my will for you. That is what we need to put to death. Your will is not really your will but that of the lies in your head by Satan. Listen for me and my good will for you and then together we can laugh at Satan! He is such a deceiver and so sneaky. And that is why I don’t completely fault people for their sins, they truly do not know what they are doing. They are being lied to through and through. But I am a just God also. I will help you discern my voice from Satan’s lies. Hang out with me, Mar, and we will have so much fun, you can’t even believe it. What is in store for you is greater than you could ever imagine, and I know you have been thinking about that. I know you have great, humongous dreams… well that is not even the tip of the iceberg. We are soooooo excited for your future…. and by “we” I mean me, God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit who will be instrumental in helping you, Mother Mary, all the Angels, all the saints, all your friends and family who have passed on and are in heaven right now, all of the universe’s good is routing for you. It’s not a problem for you to find favor with us. You do your best, and that is all you’ll need to do. So much is lined up for you. You feel it and know it in your heart that all you need to do is listen for God’s will. Have faith, have fun, have patience and all will work out. I love you! I love you so much! Thank you for saying “Yes” to this call in your life.