Q1– I love you, Dad! Where am I mistaken in my thinking? Let me know what I need to change.
*** How about this, Mar- Take it easy on yourself. You have just listed your questions for this meeting and you should know that you are perfect just as you are. Don’t be so down on yourself and so harsh in judging yourself. You are tougher on yourself than I would ever be. It’s ok if you get irritated with others and if they are irritated with you. People are weird and to get along with people is not an easy task. Only love as best as you can. You will never be “perfect” and shouldn’t try to be someone you aren’t. You will never get along with everyone but you try and that is all that is required. Remember to pray for your enemies, and hold no grudge.
Q2– I love you, Mom! Will you please help me love people and not be a pain to the people around me. I know I can be very difficult sometimes. I seem to be very irritating to the people closest to me. I too, am very irritated by them… easily. Suggestions?
*** Maybe you could talk with the people that are irritating you and clear the air? Some people are just going to be so different than you, that you may want to distance yourself a bit? You were thinking about simplifying your schedule. Be choosey what you schedule and make sure you will enjoy the company of the people you go out with. Life is too short to do things that don’t suit your needs or irritate you. You don’t owe anyone anything, so don’t feel committed to do things that you don’t have time for. Feel free to say “no, thanks but I can’t go.” Also, don’t make plans or commitments without thinking carefully about it. God has been asking you for your time… why don’t you plan to set aside time for Him to rest and converse with Him? {I know, I am sorry to Him for that… I have a problem getting quiet. I think I need to really try to slow down.} I can help you with that. Tomorrow we will have time for that in the morning. Ok? {– ok, I’d love that. Thanks.}
Q3- Jesus, would you lend me your heart so I can learn how to love? I want to be a blessing to others, yet I seem to be more of a controlling and feel like a somewhat uncompassionate person at times.
***Who, you- controlling? Never! Lol… That’s ok, Mar. We love you anyways! I’m just kidding… you are just a person that likes to get things done! That’s why we chose you to run EPP, Inc. You will never give up, you are tough and can put up with a lot of difficult situations, persecutions, and naysayers. You are a person that makes a plan and then works until that plan is done. You are a skillful time manager and don’t procrastinate or put things off indefinitely.
You are not an uncompassionate person! You have a heart of gold it is just displayed in a more interior and behind the scenes manner. You deal with an illness that gives you difficulties in seeing the reality… thinking people are evil (illness) it is very difficult to be loving and compassionate. Just hang in there. It will get easier for you soon. You are getting much better already, we have been working behind the scene to help in this area. {I can tell, thank you!}
Q4- Love, I love you! You are so amazing and I love your company. You are hilarious. I think you are so fun to hang out with, I want to be more aware of your presence when I am going through my day. I need your guidance and friendship through all of this. How do I get a deeper connection with you all throughout the day?
***I am always with you, always loving you, always guiding you, always talking with you… only look towards my love and you will find me. Always. I am so glad that you want to be closer to me. We can work on this. It’s simple. Slow down. Breathe. Do everything 50% slower. Make fewer plans. Be choosey what you spend your time on. Spend time with me. I love you and want to give you more of my heart. You need to rest to receive it. Slow down and breathe deeply… feel my presence, it is always with you. You are my heart. I love you, Mar.
Actions Requested:
Take it easy on myself.
Clear the air where you need to express your thoughts and feelings where needed.
Slow down and breathe. Do everything 50% slower and feel the Holy Spirit’s presence.
Closing Comments & Petitions: Thank you for your unconditional love! I love you guys. Thank you for giving me the feedback and advise. Please help my family and friends with all our needs and prayer requests. Please hear my long list of prayer intentions and come victorious in all those situations. My list is very long… about 20 or 30 requests and the list is growing. Thank you for working on that list and for your loving guidance each day. Help me live a good life and please help me grow to become more loving and kind. Thank you for your help! Amen! Xo ~Mar