Appreciation & Gratitude: Thank you, for DB, even though he drives me nutzo most days… thank you for allowing me to have him in my life. Thank you for our jobs, even though I am so burnt out I’d like to pluck my eyes out in frustration trying to get an appointment… sorry, I am in a horrible mood. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for allowing me to have a home, food, clothing, technology, flowers, air conditioning & heat when I need it. Thank you for so many things. Thank you for forgiving me for being in a bad mood for no real apparent reason. Thank you that you will help me lose weight and eat healthily and get regular exercise.
Q1– Dad, why am I still not moving forward in this process? I mean, what am I doing wrong or what am I not doing that I should be doing? What do I need to pray or what how should I feel about this? Is there anything I can do to persuade you to invest in EPP, Inc/ ShamRock Studios? I don’t want to give up playing but for some reason this is almost the hardest endeavor I have ever had to do. For the last 8 years I have been told to play… told I’d win… believed that I would win… and every time (4 times every week) I had the let down of not winning. I believed it every time. You said I would win… soon. Every time you tell me I’d win, keep playing, hang on… yadayadayada… ok, so I’m complaining. I’m sorry. I just want to be real with you, Dad. I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I have put in so much energy into this. I have grown in this process. I am stronger because of it, but I would really and truly like to get on to the next chapter of this story. My life is going by and I’m getting older. Do you still have good plans for me with EPP? Have I ruined your plans? You are on the throne. Your will be done. You Kingdom Come! I love you and you have the best plans lined up. Please give me the patience and long suffering to get through it all the way to the finish line. What do you want me to know? (Please don’t tell me I will win if I’m not going to. Let me know how much longer… I can handle the truth.) Please have your way with me. You can string me along if that is necessary. Whatever you want… I want. I love you. I can’t wait for the new day to start and to turn the page off of this chapter… it’s gotten very old and all the pages are tattered.
***I am sorry, I don’t mean to hurt you. I am taking the best care of you. One day you will see. It is like a doctor that has to work surgery to fix something that went wrong. It hurts, but it saves lives. Please think of this time like surgery that is going to make all things better and you will feel wonderful when it’s over. This “surgery” saves not only your life but eternal life for multitudes. Yes, many upon many people will benefit from your suffering. Offer it up to me at the foot of Jesus along with His suffering. I know you don’t want to be compared to Jesus… that’s not what I am saying at all. What I am trying to tell you is that when anyone offers up any suffering of any kind (even as little as a painful paper cut) when it is offered up to me through Jesus, I can use that for saving souls. Pray for lost souls and offer up your suffering, it makes a huge difference for many. Yes, it does also make you feel better, doesn’t it? It’s like a mother that kisses a “boo-boo” when a child is hurt… the child feels better. In the same way, when you offer up your pain for lost souls, I kiss you with love and grace to endure any hardship.
I know you feel silly about being hurt because you didn’t win the lottery… it’s not about that, I know. You feel like you have done something wrong. You feel like a failure because your prayers don’t seem to be answered. I am sorry for “Stringing” you along. You will one day understand all that I have been able to accomplish in the last 8 years. You have grown exponentially, haven’t you, Mar? You will be fine. Do me a favor and just keep playing. You make me smile when your faith is so strong. I know you’re feeling weak. I will hold you up. You are in the palm of my hand. I love you.
Q2-Jesus, What do you think is needed to get done this weekend? I have time that I would like to offer up to God but don’t know what would be best to do. I could dedicate 2 hours tomorrow for this.
***What we would like very much is for you to spend this time with God in the word and in silence. Talk with us and we will give you all that you need to know for the next chapter to begin. You need your sleep. You need to fill up with Love’s perfect spirit. It will feel so peaceful, loving and energizing to your soul. You will love it.
Q3-Love, Holy Spirit, my best friend… you are always with me. You are always guiding me and helping me in this thing called “life”. When will we all start to live as intended… with no pain, struggles, fear or disobedience… when will we be in paradise? When will the enemy leave us alone?
***I know you are dealing with a lot of attacks from the enemy. You are handling them well and we are very pleased that you don’t engage in any of the fights he is trying to start with you. Keep ignoring it and laugh instead. You are doing great. He doesn’t know what to do with you; he is flabbergasted that he can’t defeat you even in little tiny battles he’s trying to wage against you. You make us laugh because if you could only see how badly you’re beating him without even hardly trying… half the time you don’t even recognize that a battle that he is trying to irritate you just goes nowhere! You’ve got this thing in the bag… He will leave you alone not until the last day. But it will get easier and easier for you as time goes on. He won’t quit trying to attack you, but you should know that you have a lot of help from the angels, the saints are praying for you, Mother is with you always and the Holy Trinity, God Almighty is fighting with you- we are all on your side. You cannot fail to win all that is lined up ahead of you. Just know that you need patience, love and faith that could move mountains. You’ve got this. Paradise will be well worth the wait.
Q4-Mom, I hope you have a wonderful Mother’s day Weekend. You are the most loving mother who cares so much for each of us. I love you! Big hug and kiss. Please forgive me for not praying the rosary lately. I will try to get back into the habit. I know I would feel better if I started praying it! Oh, mom- Could you please pray with me to the Father… you know, for the jackpot this weekend…
***Yes, I always do pray for you. Your Father and I love you very much. Only good things are from God. When you win, you should know that it will be for your own good but especially for other people’s eternal future. This money will give you a studio and time to work on this new business: EPP, Inc. This is a real responsibility that you must take seriously. You will need to dedicate many long hours and consult with many people to get where you need to be. Marketing, Blogging, recording, working with musicians (alive and previously deceased) you will have a blast, but it will be true hard work that will need dedication. We know you are up for this endeavor! Keep dedicated to this good work. We will be with you. I will pray for you. I think it may be time for your new day, but that is up to the Father. He knows when the perfect timing will be.
Actions Requested:
Offer up any suffering for lost souls… it will help them and also make me feel better.
2 hours in the word/silence on Saturday. I need rest for the journey. Paradise will be well worth the wait.
Patience, love and faith that could move mountains- that’s all I need.
Get back into the habit of praying the rosary.
Closing Remarks: Thank you for turning my mood around. I feel much better. I feel relieved and relaxed. Please bless our weekend with love and fun. Amen! Xo, ~Mar