Eternal Party People

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September 2, 2018

My life is so strange… the things I experience in the “inner knowing” where I read into so much… just a glance can speak volumes. Is this real? Is it spiritual intuition? Or are these insights into other people part of the mental illness I struggle with? I seem to know so much about when a person is “good… themselves”. Or when they are “evil… not themselves”. This happens with most of the people I know and speak with. It is so tiresome, frustrating and it truly pisses me off (towards the enemy, not the person.) I try to ignore much of it and sometimes succeed. However, much of the time, it is so obvious all I can do is watch it happen in amazement. Every time. I don’t understand how this is all possible? Is the devil really taking over my friends and family? It is so bizarre! I can only shake my head in wonder and give it all over to you. The suffering I endure because of this madness makes my head spin. I give it all to you. Make something beautiful out of these ashes.

I will. I will make up for all that you’ve been though and all that the enemy has stolen from you. He’s stolen your relationships. Your joy has been dampened quite a bit. You have been struggling so long with this, your light is not so bright as before. I will restore!!! I say, mar, I will restore all that he took from you. Your reward is eternal. Your gift is manifesting in the natural realm as we speak. You won’t remember all this in eternity, but you will have joy unlike never seen before. Your reward for dedicating your life to serving me will be worth all you’ve been through. The crown you’ll receive is magnificent.

Thank you, Dad… I would love to receive the most beautiful crown ever imagined by you so that I can present it to the foot of the cross of my savior… Jesus Christ! I want to give it to him, so please don’t let me do anything that would diminish my crown. Help me not to sin. Help me do your will … and make sure to let me know what your will is… each and every hour. Let me be in your will and my joy will be complete. I love you and your ways are higher than the stars, stranger than fiction… better than anything I’ve ever tasted… better than anything I could ever imagine. Your ways are amazing! Your time is eternal, so I must be patient! For you, a thousand years are like a day and a day is as if a thousand years. You aren’t slow in coming- You’re on a different time clock!!! Lol. Come, Lord Jesus! Your brothers and sisters are down here in utter darkness, waiting for you to save us from ourselves. Help me help you save souls! Let me work in your family business? I promise to do whatever I can from this day forward to make your will my food… your will from now on is my priority. Help me walk this path. Show me the way. I’ll follow! I promise, with your help, I can do it.   I love you!

 

September 1, 2018

I made it… on a Saturday night after home from Street Fest. This is a very bizarre world I live in… my life is odd. It is wonderful. It is full of wonder and amazing people. Will this tree sing along with me? It sounds so wild… but isn’t it in the Bible somewhere that the trees will sing praises to God? That would be so cool to have in my office/podcast and boardroom!!!   A singing palm tree or rubber tree… what is this tree called? It was a gift from mom today because she is getting a different plant for that living room.  Hopefully I don’t kill it. (I am not a green thumb!)  Isn’t

it beautiful? So tall, green and it even has some new leaves growing on it…

Thanks, Mamma!

So, it was weird telling my dear friend tonight about my wild imaginations of Heaven coming down… I told her I thought Aretha F. And BB King would maybe come visit for a jam session/podcast and that she better be ready to come visit for some unique parties! I told her maybe her dad will come also, for a visit… (He’s in heaven now) Is this all too weird? I know, I know… it’s ok for me to think these things but people will probably try to get me committed (to the nut house) but that’s ok. I know I am in my right mind. I just have experience that no one else does that have made me come to the conclusion that this is truly going to happen one day… soon. I think that putting these board meetings on to the website must be done. It will help people get to know me. Maybe they will not be scared of the things that are going to happen ( I believe will happen) when it is totally bizarre and they will know I love God and have no intent on doing any evil. I try not to sin… it is hard. I have issues. . True. But I love Jesus. I love my Heavenly Father, Papacito! And I love the Holy Spirit you are three in one, one in three… my beloved trinity.

Mar, we love you, too! Thank you for the picture of your new addition to your podcast room. It adds a lot of character, color and yes, she will sing with you! Her name is Sheila! She likes it when you sing to her! Give her some water tomorrow and each Sunday when you water the other plants… that should be enough for the week; about two cups of water.

Yes, your next task for the time being… about 3 months is your goal to get all your edited and revised (ready for the public) board meetings uploaded to your website. You will need to figure out the tagging so that it is properly organized and you should have a back up ready for it. Your hubby can help you figure all this out. It will be a fun project and a vital next step for you and the beginnings of EPP, Inc. Investors want to make sure you are committed. (Namely, me… I am your investor! Lol ).   I know that you are not keen on the idea of people reading our discussions here at the Board Meetings. It is very personal, we know, but it is very key to the mission. Bite the bullet and commit to this process. People will want to know more about you. You will be a person that has much to offer the world: Jesus. Jesus will help your songs and miracles will break out. People will wonder what “magic” you have. They won’t understand that it is GOD…. Through Jesus… invading the earth with all kinds of wonderful things for the family of God. People will accuse you of devil worship…. If you can imagine that! (After all these years of trying to do the will of GOD) People will laugh at you. Call you crazy… psycho… nut job… fat… ugly…conceited… nasty… stinky…a whore… evil… wicked… and on and on. Do not listen to them! Tune the noise out. Think only on the lovely, peaceful, abundance of God’s blessings for the world. Remember you’re here to do this one job for me. Mar, thank you. I need to let you know how difficult it will be. Is this still ok with you to go forward?

I SAY YES, GOD!!! SEND ME!!! I DON’T WANT ANYONE TO LEAVE THIS EARTH WITHOUT KNOWING YOU FIRST HAND…. Come, visit your children and show them yourself! Let them know your power, love, peace, joy, and plans! Tell them how wonderful Heaven is going to be (if they say yes to Jesus and his Mercy & Forgiveness) and how they would not enjoy eternity in a lake of fire. (That doesn’t sound very fun). These people think they will be at some kind of party without you? Lucifer is not a very good host!!! To say the least… torturing his guests for eternity and forever. We Can NOT let this happen!!! My brothers and sisters must know you and your LOVE FOR THEM!!! I don’t want even one person to go to hell. Please help me know what to say, what do do, what to sing, what to pray, what not to say, do, sing, and what not to pray. I don’t know what I can do to help. I only know that you can do all things. Without you, I can do NOTHING!

Ok, mar… I’ll take that as a yes to my question – lol.   So, even though you know a small part of how hard this is going to be for you, you still want to go forward? This is important… you can still say no … you can still change your mind. It would be as if this whole thing never happened.

I have thought about it. I’ve thought about it for a decade. I know what’s involved. You know I don’t desire money, fame, etc. for myself… only if it is in your plan. I desire the freedom Money could bring… so I would have time to do this enterprise right and money to get it up and running… also the ability to have many good gifts to give to people… I am very content with my life the way I’m living… but I can’t stand disappointing you, or seeing people not be saved from their eternal poor decision and end up in that kind of place. You showed me a little of it… the tunnel going down and down and the panic I felt for that short few minutes… hell is real, I know, I remember… and I can’t bare to see anyone go there… Especially my friends who don’t know you. It’s not their fault, dad. This culture doesn’t help anyone know you. The ruler of this world has everyone (it seems) fooled into thinking Hell may be a party. That hell maybe doesn’t exist… lies from one end of society covering the whole world in deceit. You know. You know all things. That’s why you’re coming to turn everything back up from the upside down management. You’re going to CHANGE MANAGEMENT of the whole world!!! (I love that song… NB, Medicine for the People). Jesus, come and make us ready for you to rule with your love and Mercy! Jesus, forgive me my sins, and those of the whole world. Father, for the sake of Jesus’ sorrowful passion; have mercy on me, and on the WHOLE WORLD!!!

So, you’re saying you don’t want to change your mind… You’re still “All In”?

Yes, I say, YES!!! I can’t wait to start the next chapter and get this party going!!!

Send me, send me, send me- I pray!!!! Every day I look forward to one day getting started and so now, you are telling me this blog entries from our meetings must be published on EternalPartyPeople.Rocks website. So, that is what I will attempt to do!

YES!!!! YES!!! YES!!!

I sing a resounding YES!!! Please help me to do this job correctly and in a short amount of time… I feel that time is of the essence here. You are the author of time… So, please lead me in this project and stretch time in the day so I can get more done. And if you wish, please let me win the lottery so that I can have 100% dedication to you and your company, EPP, Inc. Please allow me to have the time to do all that you are asking of me. I love you.

Thank you. We are very happy that you cleared up things for the record. You say “yes” and that is what we needed to hear to move this project along. Kudos for your courage, tenacity in playing the lottery… thanks for playing! Kudos for sticking with it these last 10 years! You’re a champ. The funds are on the way. Patience is a virtue and in this one area, you are a seasoned expert!!! Lol. Thank you, mar… many people will be touched by your art, your life and your commitment to the family business of helping share God’s love… helping save souls is the only thing that you can take with you that matters the most in eternity. It is the highest calling a person can accomplish for me. You will help many. If you continue to come to board meetings for your marching orders! Lol… I know you will. I just wanted to stress the importance of this time. Ok? Now, get some sleep. Tomorrow you have a party to get ready for: Clean the house, grocery shop, and try to get some editing done for your first uploads of Board Meetings for your blog. Organize your files. Get ready to make a few adjustments to your website. Rest up and have fun after your cookout to sing!!! And you won’t need to worry about the volume! Freedom is in this place!!! Thank you for appreciating your new home and for giving me thanks every day! We love you and we bless you… you make me smile. You make me laugh. You also make me cry when I see some things you’ve had to go through… I cried with you all those days of distress. We got you through it all. The worst is over… next comes an incredibly wonderful life waiting for you… it will be something beautiful and OUT of THIS WORLD!!!

Nite! Love you!!! Thank you for talking with me, Dad. You’re the best and most Wonderful Father! Thanks for putting up with me all these years. I am so sorry for what I’ve done, what I’ve been and thank you for showing me where I need to improve and what needs to be changed. Help me, Holy Spirit, to not continue to sin, but to be lead by your Holy Spirit… help me not to sin. Amen. Love you guys!!!

August 31 2018

I am trying to keep my commitments to you… one being a 15 min or longer daily blog/journal/board meeting … or whatever they will call this. Tonight, I decided to “Press the Button” as Seth described (trivia questions games show) and to get my blog figured out how to organize the categories. DB said he would help me tomorrow afternoon. I have years of board meetings that I would like to edit out some stuff that is too personal and get it ready to post. I would like to post most of it. No one would probably read it, but it would be cool to have it there and add to it each day. Of course, I’d try my best to be anonymous. Only because I need clients to pay the bills we have and if they knew how much I loved God and how Crazy I get sometmes (clinically) and how crazy I am in love with you, Jesus, they may decide not to use me to work for them.

 

I’d really like and could use the investment funds you mentioned that you have for me. But your timing is best. Not mine, so you’ll do what is the right thing always. I trust in you! You have a process that I need to go through. I know. I hope this is in your agenda. Would you like me to gain some trust online before I win the lottery? All I know is that I need to keep moving towards the goal. I must follow my heart and your leading… you’re leading me to journey onward, aren’t you? I love & Trust you! I mean that I love you, God, and am trying to listen to you. Trying to obey you; although sin is always crouching at my door… seeking to slew me. Help me follow you and do your will… not mine!

 

Mar, once we get the website in order, uploading the files will be easy. It’s the editing that may take a lot of time. How about if we schedule your work over 3 months? If we plan it and if you work the plan- by your birthday the website will have all the work you’ve done uploaded and edited. This is a big project. You will need to work diligently every day on getting it all settled. Also, you must continue to do meetings of at least 15 minutes here with me for your marching orders. Okey? You know I love you so much, mar, and we are so thrilled that you said YES, and that you said SEND ME! And that you said YOUR WILL, NOT MINE… and that you said “I TRUST IN YOU”….

 

You make us very glad to be our dedicated living enterprise. With God, mar, you cannot fail!

 

 

 

 

 

August 28 2018

Hi Father God,

 

I am going to lie down and talk with you in a minute, but I wanted to write for a few minutes. I am trying to get into the daily habit of meeting you here. I am so tired, I am not sure why. Well, I did work over 5 hours and cleaned out my closet… and haven’t eaten anything today… thank you for helping me with my fasting days. I felt so regretful for binging yesterday. It feels good to empty out and pray for your Kingdom Come!

 

You are doing the right thing. Fill up on my love and my blessings will overcome you. Eat my word and think of my goodness. It will bless your days immensely. Thanks for focusing on me today. I have much for you to do but without a connection, there is not much we would be able to accomplish. You are MY loving and living enterprise… together… we cannot fail. Remember that even though you are waiting for a long time… my promises will not fall away. My will for your mission will not change and your assignment will be completely done in my time and for my glory for the sake of all people who come to the Holy Kingdom of God. You will help them choose wisely through the music I will give you. We have much to do, much to communicate and the message will resound throughout the world. You are not grandiose or sick mentally. No. This is my will. You have many people that will help you in this endeavor. Don’t worry; I have all you need lined up. You will soon have the investment funds that you are asking for. Yes, you will work in the family business… my living enterprise of saving souls. Eternal Party People, Inc. will be one of my favorite projects and I will bless it along with all people who help this message to get into the world. My message in music of love… your LaLaLove songs will be famous and your songs of Jesus’ Mercy will make records of all the records’ records. If that makes sense. Lol.   Go ahead and lie down now, I can tell you are sleepy and we can chat as you drift off for a short nap before your class.   I love you, mar.   See you here tomorrow. Ok?

 

 

August 27, 2018

I blew it today. Started off great… then got stressed and ate. Or rather binged, I should say. I ate everything in sight that was chocolate. I am so sorry, God! I was full and now I feel sick. I am so upset with myself. What shall I do? Fast for 3 days sound reasonable, or what do you recommend? 2 days? Several days with 1 small meal each day only?

 

Thank you for apologizing, but you are still learning. Don’t forget this feeling of guilt and sick to your stomach… you fell down but you can get back up again. Yes, I think a fast of some sort would be beneficial with prayers as your focus. Have a repentant attitude during the fast and you will benefit from it. Try to fast tomorrow until Friday 1 small meal each day around 3pm when you are finished with work. I will bless your fasting and together we will get this right. Ok? Don’t beat yourself up too much, because you are trying. That is the main thing… do not give up. Start doing your homework in the change series. And read your bible, pray the divine office, listen to the class recordings and music. You will be ok. I know you are disappointed in yourself. Turn that negative energy into positive change.

August 26, 2018

Hello, God! I am so incredibly amazed at your goodness!!! I still can’t believe I am living here in such an amazing home! Thank you for helping me set up my boardroom tonight… which is where I am coming from today! (As you can see, know and of course as you planned a long time ago!). I think you are the most awesome, amazing and lovingly kindhearted King of the Universe! Help me put my gratitude in songs for your Glory! Thank you so much for a relaxing and beautiful weekend full of music, relaxation, productivity (grocery shop, laundry, cleaning) and love from you! Thank you for My SWEET and loving husband! Thank you for picking DB for me! You are over the top generous! I don’t deserve him or all the many blessings you give me each and every day! Thank you for the gift of salvation, your love, the gifts of bestowing the most Blessed Mary as my heavenly mother, and all the saints to help intercede for me and my mission. Thank you for giving me angels to watch over me and for St. Michael to lead the great warriors against the enemy! Thank you so much for all the green healthy trees outside and for making sure they don’t fall onto the house. Thank you for protecting us here in CU from any natural disasters: No tornadoes, flooding, hail, deathly heat, sleet or snow that is too much for us to handle. Thank you for a wonderful summer (steamy, but still a great summer full of blessings!). Thank you that fall is just around the corner! Thank you for the crickets that sing to us and the cicadas that also chime in – a little louder than all the other insects, but just as lovely. Thank you for protecting my love and me, my parents and friends from any harm and that your angels watch over all of us.   Thank you that my dad’s back will be healed soon and that the pain will go away. Thank you for their good health and long life… may you bless us with the company for another 75 years! Let us all rule and reign with you, Jesus, for the 1000 years you promised us with all evil in chains. Thank you for answered prayers!

 

Help me always be faithful in serving you, your family and all who you ask of me to serve. Help me know your will and heed quickly to accomplish it, no matter the cost. I want to do your will. Please help me do just that in the big AND all the small things… down to when and what to eat. I give you my body as a living sacrifice. Help me learn to hear your voice at all times of the day and to look to you for help with all things. Help me never to ignore you or your wishes. Thank you for this beautiful boardroom. May it one day soon become a podcast studio also? Give me the daily duties you have for me to do to move closer to your will that you have for me to do. Help me know what needs to be done. Please, please, please bless my upcoming week with many appointments for my clients. I really need some for SV and also additional for all my other clients. Please bless their work and cause them all to prosper. In Jesus’ mighty name, I pray all these things.

 

Mar, you are moving towards your future in lightning speed, even though you think not. You think you are too late, too sinful, too proud, too stubborn, too unqualified. But I tell you no! You are right where I wanted you to be and you are even ahead of schedule with all things considered. Your smarter then they think. You know secrets no one else knows. You keep it to yourself, which is good. Only talk with me and together, we will make the difference in the world. Your light is so bright! You have not missed your destiny and I will make you who I call you to become… a servant of God, which is the best and highest place to live.

 

Your dedication to more prayers in your daily schedule is commendable. Just do your best, you will have good days and also not so good days, but just know you are always loved. Don’t be hard on yourself when you come up short in your plans for dedication. This is a journey, a long marathon. You have time. Don’t be rushed around, but take each day as slowly as possible. I will stretch the days for you so that you can accomplish all that you need to get done. Yes, please find the diving mercy and Blessed Mary pictures for your wall in the boardroom. This will bless your space immensely. This is your room to encounter God, your Father. This boardroom is a holy space, keeping all discord and strife away… come here often, we will have much to discuss. Especially soon, your investment money is on its way. In the spiritual, it is being held up by a battle like we haven’t seen in a long time. Just know that we are enjoying destroying the enemy on your behalf. Saint Michael wanted me to tell you that they are glad to help; they will win this so you don’t need to worry. Only have fun each day and keep praying. Your mother, Mary, is the queen of the angels and she wanted me to tell you that they love you and will always watch over you so that you will not see any harm come to you that you can’t handle. You have mighty warriors with you at all times. Have no fear. Yo mamma is here and she’s got on combat boots made for walkin’… all over the evil that has been rebuked by the power of God! Have a fun week; I will bless your work. You will only need to keep your focus UP! Remember that we love you, we are always with you, we will bless all that you do, and you need never worry about anything, but only come to me and pray. Talk with me about all things. Board meetings each day, with time throughout the day to pray the Divine Office with the saints. I will bless your efforts to wait on my signal for hunger/growl. GS is my daughter sent out for the world to hear and be convicted of sin and to come to me for new life in Jesus Christ redemption! You are in good hands with her classes. Only know that We are Three in One…. Father, Son and the Holy Spirit. Other than that, she is correct in mercy that we give and that we need the people on Earth to make more of an effort to know us, to follow us, and to obey our leading. Keep praying for the world and for Jesus to return. He is coming soon for his Bride… the church.   And for you, mar. He is coming for your eternal life with him… we can’t wait for the wedding banquet but there is much work to do before then. My people are not ready for me yet.

 

Your music will help stir people’s hearts. I will give you the words to sing, the Holy Spirit will move mountains for your ministry. You will have all the people you need to help you. You will have all the right musicians working with you and you will have heavenly downloads of talent that has never been seen before in the history of the world! You will have guests on your podcast that are going to star-stun the town, the united states and the world… people that have “moved to heaven” will come visit for podcasts/and performances to be broadcasted throughout the world for all people.   They will know that heaven is real and we will tell the world all about heaven from first hand heavenly citizens. Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin, Prince, BB King, Frank Sinatra, John Lennon, so many amazing artists who are even more incredible when they come back for a visit to ShamRock Studio for your parties. We will need to get you a sign for ShamRock Studios and also a sign for ETERNAL PARTY PEOPLE, Inc. ~ Board Room

 

Thank you so much, God, I really needed to hear this tonight. I really thought it was in my imagination – all these wonderful promises, but maybe you don’t think I’m too far-gone. With God, all things are possible! Your Mercy endures forever! You have great plans for the world! Help me not to mess this up! You are in control… please remind me whenever it is needed!!! Please know that I never gave up. I just sort of forgot how awesome it will be. I think I really needed this meeting tonight! Yes, I will definitely come here every day for our talks and I look forward to getting the podcasts started. I also need to work on EternalPartyPeople.Rocks website. Please invest at your perfect timing for the next chapter to start. Thank you for getting me this far and for the house you chose for it all to happen in. Please help me bless MG and J. with work to do for Your Kingdom. Help me be generous in giving where you see fit. Please bless us with investment funds in your timing. In case you needed to be reminded- that I know you don’t need any help remembering the numbers you have given me. Birthdates and your mighty number 7!   I love you! Please bless my time in the basement with many surprises. Please bless my time in the board meeting/podcast room and have your work for me to do in your will. Help me always see your will and then DO IT!

 

I love you, mar. Have fun in the basement and know that you make me smile every time you sing. Every time you play the guitar. Every time you think of me and every time you remember how much you are loved.

 

 

 

 

August 24, 2018

Holy God, Holy Mighty one… Holy Immortal one… have mercy on me and on the whole world.

Thank you for my family, friends, our jobs, good health of body, mind and spirit, thank you for my faith. Thank you that you have forgiven my sins. Thank you for the gift of the Holy Spirit! Thank you for making a way for your children to come home to be with you for eternity. Thank you that the heaven that awaits us is so amazingly wonderful that is indescribable! Thank you that I couldn’t even imagine how wonderful it is going to be once we get to move into our mansions, life without fear or strife, life without evil! I can’t wait! Thank you that I am a citizen of Heaven and don’t need to worry about this world and all its darkness. That I may shine a small light to those around me… that I may be used to help spread your love. Help me be more like Jesus. Move me into your love, peace and kindness. Help me be more like Jesus. I am so sorry for my anger, swearing and cursing at the devil. Please help me overlook his attacks and to remain in peace through it all. Help me continue to give the fallen angels migraines! Help me take back your territory for the good of your Kingdom, God! Thank you for your protection, and for the gift of singing in your supernatural language. What shall I call it? Do you have any suggestions?

 

How about if you call it… “LaLaLove”. LaLaLove Language! Do you like that? Lalalalalalala!!!

 

Yes, I do! La-La-Love. Sounds great!

 

I like it as “LaLaLove”. Better…   yes, that is what I will call this language you’ve given me. Thank you, God! Please bless it so that’s only sharing your love. Don’t let the enemy hijack this beautiful new language of love that you’ve given me. Please protect it from the devil and his demons… don’t allow anything evil to be sung in the LaLaLove language. Please put your hedge of protection around it so that nothing evil can ever touch it. Please, God? I really don’t want to be used by the enemy to advance any Kingdom that is not of you.

 

(Laughter). …

Mar, you don’t need to worry about so many things. I am in control… right? Right. So you need to give it all to me to handle for you. I have all things under my watchful eye and nothing will happen that I don’t first screen. You are protected and your LaLaLove language will only be used for my purposes. Thank you for asking for my protection. We (all the angels and the triune God) will be watching over and protecting and guiding the entire show. (The world is a play, ya know)

 

Ok, thank you!

 

Thank you for weekends!!! Please bless this weekend with good times, rest, relaxation… enjoying time with DB and friends. Thank you for the cool weather! Thank you for holding off the rain until after the music downtown (outside shows).

 

NP, mar. I do all kinds of good things for my friends… and it’s a place that is tops on my list of friends! Have a great night! Love ya!

 

 

I love you, too- God. Please watch over my family and friends and don’t let anything bad happen to them, I pray. Thank you.

 

August 23, 2018

Today was the first guitar lesson with DC… super nice guy and great guitarist. He will be helping me put guitar tracks onto my hubby’s music. I am Uber Stoked! It was so good to be back to lessons again. It teaches me so much, I get to jam with another person for a little while, and it inspires me to work on guitar between lessons. This week, I’d like to learn Major Tom and write some lyrics for a new song of DB.   Will you help me with it? I know you have some surprises for me, don’t you? To the basement people… to the basement! Many surprises await you! So, I am trying this new timer type hour… I set the stopwatch/alarm so I will be writing until 7:50 pm (or later).

 

Do you have plans for what I can do to get some love into the world through music with a message of love? Plans for me and plans for music with Eternal Party People? I am willing… I don’t know how to do it, but I’ll sure try! I know I may be laughed at, but I don’t care; as long as you’re not ashamed of me. I’m not ashamed of you! Maybe you could give me some talent to perhaps download some melodies, rhythm, chords… the ability to sing along without destroying it completely.   Lol.   I only want to make you happy… to sing to you and take other people with me to love you and sing to you… to heal people of their illnesses, have you heal their broken hearts…. We need you to come in a powerful way!

 

Mar, mar, mar… you have such big plans and guess what… I put those dreams into your heart. Have no fear…Yo daddy is here! Lol. Yes, you will have all that you need for this eternal party planning to get started up! I will provide all that you will need. You will have the songs, the ability… talent, the right people, the venues to play at, the courage to sing out for God’s people to receive my love, and all the funding you may be interested in receiving to help things move along nicely, and you will have your family with you. Don’t believe the enemy’s lie that you will lose you loved ones. They are not going anywhere. So, quit worrying about that! It is not helping anything. Just do your best to feed DB with healthy food, pray for your old dad and loving mother… you won’t be alone. I promise. You will always have them, but don’t take it for granted, and take care of your family. They are there for you even when you think they are “evil” just know that …that is all in your head. It is not true. The only thing that is true is God, God’s love and the love of your family.

You don’t need to be sad or lonely. You are loved dearly. You are not in this alone, as you sometimes feel. DB will always love you and he is not going anywhere. I promise. You will be fine as long as you think of the lovely, good, and helpful things in your life and life with God. Forget the enemy. In your mind, it’s best for you to think nothing of him. He is only out to destroy and tell lies. Ignore all that he taunts you with, all the depressing and dark thoughts he puts into your mind—— rebuke it in Jesus’ name and think of the good things.   Talk with me. Tell Lucy to shut up and go to hell. That’s where he’s going and that’s where he’ll stay. He has no power over you. Only you with me is where you’ll be. Don’t believe the lie that you may go to hell. Mar, BELIEVE ME, you will not go there. You have Jesus’ love and you will never be apart from God. We live inside you. We love you! We will NEVER leave you or forsake you. Jesus paid your entire penalty from your sin. He did it once and for all people who will receive his love and are grateful in accepting his death on the cross for them. You have asked us to live in you.   You have received the Holy Spirit at Confirmation. You receive Holy Communion… you are physically a part of Jesus as his body and blood have nourished you since you were 7 Years old. It is true nourishment and true life. You only recently in the last few years understood that and accepted that. And so, now when you partake of communion, its benefits are even more powerful in your spiritual body, your physical body and your mind. Go as often as you can. Try to go 3-4 times a week to mass… you will benefit greatly and it will affect all aspects of your life. Go in the mornings before work if you can. They have communion service on some days where the mass is shortened to just communion and that would be a great addition to your weekdays if you can make it!

 

Getting up early will be a fantastic game plan and battle enhancing opportunity. Would you please set your alarm for 5:30 and get into the habit of journaling, playing guitar, writing songs/poetry and going to mass before starting work… it will be blessed immensely – the time spent with God, time with me, Mar- is time well spent. Believe me. I will bless you and your work and if you give me this time, I will give you much grace and blessings back. I am generous and I give back double or triple what my kids offer me. I love to bless others, but you must not be ungrateful… then my blessings go to other people who may be appreciative. You have always been very grateful, mar. Don’t get me wrong, I know you are very thankful… it just means that you are in a position of receiving even more, but the gratitude should also increase in worship. My favorite thing to hear is music of God’s goodness, love and blessings that he bestows on his children. So SING! I loved last week when you sang for a couple of hours on karaoke Christian songs… the whole heaven watched. It was your first performance for us. Keep having fun with it. I will help you improve and I will give you your own songs to sing. You make us smile, laugh and we also cry with you. We like to sing along and your Heavenly back up singers can’t wait for your first performance… practice! Make time for it! I will help you.

 

 

Thank you so much for all that you’ve told me tonight! I am so glad that you assure me I won’t be alone… that my family won’t go away and that they love me. Thank you so much for always watching over me, for living inside me, for helping me and showing me the way. Jesus, I love you! Dad- you are amazing and I am so in awe of your love. Thank you for sending your son to suffer and die for me so that I can enter heaven one day! Thank you for the incredible gift of sending the Holy Spirit to help me each day and to pray to you through me and for me. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for being my best friend. Help me love you more. Thank you for making it possible to speak with Father God, and to walk with Jesus in so close a manner that he shows me the way to go. I am sorry I don’t always follow or even hear your leading. Help me be a better person. Help me follow instructions! I am so forgetful and I need your reminders in which way to go. Every day I need you. Every minute of every day I need you. You are amazing, God! Three in one… the Holy One… Holy mighty one, Holy immortal One. Holy God, I love and adore you!!! This hour went so quickly. Help me make a daily habit of the hour with you. Help me remember to set the alarm for an hour, and to sit down and “Shut-Up and Write”… lol.. That is what the group calls their writing meet up group. Tonight I decided to do it here at home and it was a lovely hour.

 

Thank you, God, for this time! I love you! Thank you for this house you are allowing us to rent… it is an awesome home! We love it here and I pray that you bless MG, her family, and her companies… bless them abundantly with good health, prosperity, love, peace and joy that comes from heaven. Bless her children and her children’s children to come. Protect them all and show them your love and blessings.

 

Amen. I think you are the most creative, genius, loving, kind, caring, funniest and unimaginably wonderful dad, friend, and partner. Thank you for giving me the dreams you’ve given to me. Help me be who you want me to be. Help me be who you call me to be. Help me love you more and more each day! Help me sing for you. Help EPP, Inc. becomes a reality. Help me do my assignment, hear what you call me to do, and the courage and discipline to do exactly what you call me to do! I love you!

 

Good night, God! Help me wake up early tomorrow, please. I will set my alarm… no snooze button! Amen.

August 16, 2018

Ok, I’m back at the “Shut up and Write” group meet up! This week flew by and I don’t know what happened with the time! Last week flew by and I didn’t get any time here with you… I am sorry! I will definitely commit to waking up earlier for the morning pages. It will be a great goal to have a week of early morning creative time. I will set the alarm for 5am and start this tomorrow. I heard from L. that it helps with creativity and that she gets a lot of great ideas early mornings.

 

I would love to help you with this, mar. I have surprises in store for you with this new plan. Music, poetry, ideas, and some peaceful moments together, which will help you with your work, too.  Keep talking with me throughout the day. Try to include me in all you do, and I’ll bless your time. Your class will be the anchor for this new committed relationship walk we will have in this new beginning. I know you were very sleepy this week. You are almost completely recovered from the move and all that you went through. The stress was immense; you will feel much better starting tomorrow. Early morning routine will be a blessing for you.

 

Thank you, I’d like that. Would you help me come up with a song to work on this week? I would love to start something to work on with DC at my first lesson. Space Oddity will also be a song I’d like to work on some more.

 

Diamonds on the inside… the song playing I’ve never heard before. I haven’t written a song in a long time. Or a poem. Could you give me the ideas tomorrow morning and each day I wake up at 5? (As an incentive and reasons to awake before the sun…). I would love to start walking again, so when is fall coming? This summer is unending and I’m so done with the humidity & heat.

 

You will have the best fall you ever had in your life. Just a little promise for you, mar. You will shine. You will grow. You will have your dreams come true starting this fall. Do you receive it?

 

Yes, I receive it, in Jesus’ mighty name! I’ll be there… count me in! I can’t wait for each new day… with new surprises in store each new morning.

 

You don’t want to pick a fight with the enemy. Just remember to look towards me always. Try not to be on the offensive. That is for more trained warriors. Your job is to focus on me. My plans for you. Your creativity and taking care of your love. Nurture the relationships and work on having time for creative outlets. So what I’m saying is that you need to forget and try to overlook the fights that the advisory is trying to pick. Ignore it. Just pretend it isn’t happening and sing to me. Look to me, your father who takes good care of you. Ignoring is your best war tactic. He hates it when he can’t get you angry and disturbed. Just try to keep busy. You have much to do. You’ll for sure give him a migraine when he hits his head against the wall in frustration trying to get you angry – with no success. Try it. You’ll like the new approach. It will be fun!

 

Ok, thank you for the advice. I will try my best to overlook the attacks. It’s not worth giving any energy to something so futile.

 

Time is going by slowly. Are you warping time… making it go slower when I have a lot to do and faster when it’s work I’m doing but want to be done sooner…. If you are, I want to thank you! It is very helpful.

 

Ha-ha, you noticed! I especially enjoyed your morning time hitting snooze for 15 minutes and stretched it out to 30 minutes! Thank you for being so appreciative! I can do all things!

 

Could you do me a favor and help my numbers come up tomorrow night- I’d be much appreciative if you could give me a hand in that area! You said you like that I’m expectantly waiting… it’s been over 10 years now… well maybe 9 years and 10 months to be more accurate. Lol.

 

I know time is different for me. A thousand years is like a day and a day is as a thousand years. I haven’t forgotten you, mar. You’ve grown so much and learned so much… you would never have gotten this far if you would have won years ago. But your preparatory time is almost over. We’ve gotten a lot done and the plans have taken a detour. But, we haven’t forgotten or changed your plans. Only delayed a little. You reached for the secret too soon. You took the scenic route. Lol. That is ok. We can work with what we’ve got! Enjoy the basement… many surprises await you. Early mornings will be fruitful down there! You have much to do! Enjoy the process and enjoy the ride! Your life is like a roller coaster and you’re on the easy coasting part of it right now.

 

I am so excited for the next thrill… try to keep me seat belted inside when it flips upside down. Hold one to me. Don’t let me fall.

 

I won’t let you fall. You’ve in the shadow of my wings in the palm of my hand. I love you. You’ll be fine. You’ll be more than fine. You’re in good shape. You’re life is just about to begin anew. Thank you for being patient. You’ll be glad for the detours that we took.

August 9, 2018

I’m at at my first “Shut-Up and Write” meeting… super nice ladies and I am excited to get back into the habit of writing again. I am sorry that I haven’t made this time over the last year a priority. I think it is very important because I really miss journaling with your company, dad. Thanks for all your many blessings. I am amazed at all the grace and love you have shared with me throughout the move. It was quite a storm… an actual wild ride but you got me through it all. The move is a distant blur… it took 6 months of my life and I am finally done with it. We love the house! Thank you for seeing our close/sale of the condo finally. It was incredible how you sent the perfect people to buy.

 

Thank you for the new home… it is like a resort!   We love the quiet and we love the neighborhood… we love the basement and the ability to create music without bothering the neighbors. Thank you so much for our jobs! Thank you that we made it through this difficult time without too much stress on our marriage, health, and finances. Thank you for my parents, our friends and for giving me an awesome partner to go through life’s journey.

 

Thank you for blessing my work and allowing me to have appointments for my clients, new clients and the hope for the next chapter…. The one you keep hinting at with the lotto numbers coming up with secret coding!!! Haha, you are too funny – giving my birth date and your number 17!!! This past week you blessed me to hope and continue hoping for EPP to become a reality one day. Hopefully you will give me some downloads to create music with some sort of talent or creativity of some value for other people. Thank you for the gift of getting to record with DB.  His songs are really getting good and I’m excited to lay tracks down with his songs.

 

Thank you for my mom and her unconditional love along with my dad. Thank you for hearing my prayers to heal my dad’s back. He is really in a lot of pain. Please turn back time for him, heal his back and get rid of all the pain. I pray for his supernaturally losing weight, his diabetes to be healed along with all his health issues – that it will be a miracle healing that all will be amazed at his youthful vigor and long life into his 100s and beyond. I need a creative miracle for my dad… please help him. We all love him and want him well. Please help me pray with him soon… open a way for me to do that for him sometime when he won’t mind. If you would help me discuss prayer with him, maybe he will let me lay hands on his shoulder and pray with him. I don’t want to bother him, but I really want to pray for him in that manner. I think it would be more powerful than just praying for him from far away. Your thoughts?

 

 

Mar, you have only one thing that you need to remember… I can do all things for you. I control the universe, so don’t you think I can do this one small favor for you? Ask in Jesus’ name but you must believe! With the faith in the size of a mustard seed, I will accomplish the impossible for my children. You pray but you lack in believing for me to come through for you in this area. Talk with me and you will believe. Don’t leave me out of this area and most importantly, in all areas of you life!!! Please talk with me for all you needs, all you do and any decision you need to make, include me in all the little things, too! Talk with me because when you don’t talk with me (pray with me) you will become lost. It is true. You need me and I need you. I love you and I do indeed need you because with out you and your love, your friendship… I miss you and you always make me smile… make me laugh… when you don’t include me in your life; I am not completely happy. I am a little blue… it’s true. Without you, my heart is not complete. I long to talk with you all the time. I feel like you’re ignoring me and it makes me want to reach out to you but your distancing yourself in your difficulties instead of coming closer to me so I can help you. I can’t force you to give me your troubles. You have to let go of it so I can handle it all for you.

 

Keep asking for abundant grace for this day and when you accept it, I am able to help you. You need to turn the difficult crud in your life over to me. I will get you through each and every storm. I am glad you liked your prophetic message I gave Happy Leman to give to you! He said it perfectly: “God knows you are going through a very difficult time and he sees you and will get you through this storm”. My words for you will always be true. Any storm you will face, I will get you through it. I do have some surprises for you in the basement… many surprises await you. Don’t worry about the downloads… it will be like breathing… natural and you will love how much fun it will be! I have some surprise guests for you! Know that we need to talk and have board meetings every day in order for this plan to work. So you must know this one thing: WE NEED TO TALK! DAILY… hourly… every minute in every day… together we pray. We talk and will write down much of it. Your journal is key for much of the battle plans. Your marching orders: WRITE …. Board meetings, songs, poetry, journal, creative nonfiction, blog posts…. It will be fun and I will give you the time needed to do it. Start out with getting up early- around 5am. We will have much to do in the next couple of years. The pace is going to quicken a bit. I will be investing in EPP; you don’t need to worry about that. I have the game all lined up. Maybe Willy Wonka will be a fun game in Las Vegas to play? It’s like a gazillion dollars … a bazillion dollars… which is more? Do you even know? It’s a lot. You can do a lot with that! A lot of good things for my family. I want to gift you time, resources, people that will help you, and all kinds of songs, poetry, stories- I have many things for you to do for the Kingdom. Are you in?

 

Yes! You can count me in!!! Of course!

 

You know there will be struggles, persecution, you will be laughed at…

 

I know. It’s of no consequence as long as I can hear your voice and if you give me the grace, strength and courage to get through the storms. And I know you will! You always do. I can’t wait to be offering it all up for lost souls. Jesus, forgive me my sins, be my protection against the wiles and attacks of the devil…for the sake of your sorrowful passion, Jesus, have mercy on us- dad, have mercy on us all. It’s a dark world down here, as you know… I love you. Please show me the way to go and guide each step. I am in… count me “In”. !!!

 

 

I would like to tell you about your next job this weekend that I would like you to do:

  1. Your to do list
  2. Music
  3. Write
  4. Visit your dad… pray for your dad. I will allow your words to move mountains in the love of Jesus for healing for your dad. He really needs you to go over there this weekend.   Maybe call him tomorrow and see what time works for him. Ok?

Ok, I will put it on my calendar so I don’t forget.   Ok, done.

 

I like this song… It’s so sweet. Reminds me of my love …Love eternal. Love unending… helps me be kinder towards him when he gets on my nerves… I have a short fuse… help it be inflammable… help me overlook the attacks that the enemy is trying to do in our relationship to bring discord. I wish that I didn’t have the awareness of all these attacks and could just ignore it but I feel like I have to stick up for myself in these situations.

 

I will give you the grace to handle each situation. I will give you the words when words are needed, and I will give you grace to over look, and I will give you the grace to ignore, forget and forgive all things that occur. It will drive the enemy crazy – he won’t know what to do! You will give the accuser a massive headache! He is shaking in his boots thinking about our new company that is about to roll out… EPP, Inc. will shake the world to it’s senses reminding them all the God is in control… God has good plans for the world and his family… God is in control of everything and loves his children so much, that He is coming down off his throne to start the new management under Jesus Christ… the King of Kings… Lord of Lords! Friend of the people! He will join people for dinner… He will be KNOWN by all people. Who will be able to resist His goodness? Thank you for saying “Yes” to me and I will help you through it all. We have much to do! We will get started today!!! A new page in our book… a new chapter!   Let it begin… let there be peace on earth!

 

And… let it begin with me. (I love that song!)

Help me fight a good fight, God! Dad, help me know what to do! I get so lost without you! I need your assistance with all things. Help me hear your small soft and loving voice. Help me be who you want me to be. Help me do this and let’s get started soon! Please, in Jesus’ name… let this time, be the time… let August 2018 be the month of abundant grace my numbers… Or… Willy Wonka trip to LasVegas would be cool to do, also!!! I know I could do that – it would be fun! Your grace is enough. You’re in control. Whatever you want… I want. You do it, Father… you do it. (Use me if you think it’s a good idea… use me as your instrument of peace.)

 

The hour is almost over. It’s been a great hour of prayer. Help me do this daily. Help me find the time… make the time and value this time together. (On a regular basis). Help me be consistent in this practice! I love you!

Night.

 

 

 

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