I know it’s been a few days. I’ve been feeling very much out of shape and have been binging on sugar stuff. So, DB and I decided to do a raw diet for 30 days starting today. I think I’ll just try to do it until my birthday (Dec 2nd)which will total 36 days. I am pretty sure I can do it. It will be tough, though! I also am pretty sure I’m going to go ahead and get baptized at VC on Dec 2nd (my birthday). They offer baptisms twice a year and it just “happens” to be on my birthday!
At first when I came to VC, I thought I’d not get baptized but that it is a possible option. Now, I think I want to. I don’t remember my baptism as a baby and I want to do it now because I am the one making the choice. If it weren’t on my birthday, I think I would still be undecided, but I’m taking it as a sign that it is right and that God would be happy if I did it. So, It would be nice to lose some weight before then, too!
*** Yes, I am glad you decided to go ahead and do it, you are making me very happy. I know it takes courage and that you don’t like to be in the spotlight or be videotaped. Don’t worry about that. I know you want to lose weight and I will help you with your raw food weight loss journey. You will love it and feel so great! Your energy will skyrocket and your skin will be beautiful – like when you were 16!
Awesome, thanks for offering to help me out with it. I went to the College kid’s party/worship at VC on Thursday. It was great. Wish I could have stayed until the end, but DB was picking me up at 9:30 and it was not over until 11. We are thinking about getting a scooter so I can use the car without having to arrange rides w/ sharing the car. It doesn’t make sense to get a second car but maybe a scooter? I’ve in the past said, No – because it is way too dangerous. Dad has been encouraging me to let DB get a scooter. Dad and C both have one. So, I told DB if he wants to get one, he can. I think he is unsure because it’ll be getting cold soon. Maybe in the Spring, then. I don’t want anything to happen to him, but I think he would be a good driver. I worry mainly that he would get somewhere and then it rains/freezes and then that it would be especially dangerous. I don’t know. What do you say, daddy?
*** He will be fine. If he wants to get one, go ahead. I’ll protect him and give him good judgment on when not to ride it and he will get a helmet. He’ll love it. It will bring much freedom for you and for him. He won’t need to drive you everywhere.
… yes, that would be great to have freedom to get around when I need to. You say that he’ll be fine, so Yes, I’ll leave it up to him to decide. Thanks. I have a question for you… Why do I not have the ability to put a picture in my mind and imagine things? Why am I wired differently? I can’t smell, imagine, taste… and I have suffered mental illness. So, why? What is the purpose? I have only been able to imagine something twice. Really. It only happened once the second was real faint. It was about 2 or 3 weeks ago and when I closed my eyes, I saw a crane flying across my mind’s eye. I guess that was my first imagination ever. Should I talk to a doctor or what? The second was a real faint imagination of a field with Cat’s tails – it was the vision I saw at Holy Spirit Day. (The vision was for R)
***ok, Mar- here’s the deal. You have not imagined anything before now because I want to give you pictures where you will know that they are only from me. I will talk with you through pictures in your mind. Try it. Close your eyes and I will right now show you something. Ok?
I closed my eyes for a few minutes. Nothing. I saw nothing. I tried to envision a crane and then I tried to envision a butterfly.
*** That is my point. I want to give you a picture. Don’t try to imagine anything. Let me do the picture for you. Try again.
Nothing. I guess you proved to me that I can’t put pictures in my mind and I trust that you will show me what you want to show me when you need to show me. Should I try it again?
***No, I just wanted to show you that for sure, when you see something, it will be from me and not you. Ok? Look for a vision sometime this week. I’ll show you a beautiful picture. You will love it!
Ok, thanks! I’ll “look” forward to it! So, I’ve been reading about astral projection. Could you tell me if you want to take me some place through leaving my body? I’m a little afraid that it will make me sick if I try it. Something like I may have a problem of staying in my body… and pop out when I don’t want to…. Sounds crazy right there, but I think a real possibility. I would love to learn skills and visit heaven or go into the past or future. I believe it is possible. A real possibility. I’d love to try it. Would you be my guide?
*** How about it we wait until next summer. That way, if you are stable until summer, then we can go down on your medicine. After we go down and then eventually go off it- then we can talk to Dr. W about it. Baby steps. There is plenty of time. You don’t need to worry about running out of time. I know you want to try it. I’ll just say that if it happens naturally with out your trying to do it, then it will be ok. I will be with you. Don’t force it. If it comes naturally, then you will be protected on your trip. You won’t have a problem of popping out when you don’t want to. I myself will take you on historical tours of heaven!
Ok, so, I may be in for a surprise trip somewhere?!!! That’s sounds great. I am looking forward to seeing your visions, too. And I am excited about “new Horizons”. … is that what you were talking about last week at the prophetic word appointment I had… you mentioned “New Horizons”… that should be a great experience. You are ready to take me! Wow! How fun is that?!!
*** Just trust in me. I will take care of you. I love you.
Love you, too!!! Thank you