My life is so strange… the things I experience in the “inner knowing” where I read into so much… just a glance can speak volumes. Is this real? Is it spiritual intuition? Or are these insights into other people part of the mental illness I struggle with? I seem to know so much about when a person is “good… themselves”. Or when they are “evil… not themselves”. This happens with most of the people I know and speak with. It is so tiresome, frustrating and it truly pisses me off (towards the enemy, not the person.) I try to ignore much of it and sometimes succeed. However, much of the time, it is so obvious all I can do is watch it happen in amazement. Every time. I don’t understand how this is all possible? Is the devil really taking over my friends and family? It is so bizarre! I can only shake my head in wonder and give it all over to you. The suffering I endure because of this madness makes my head spin. I give it all to you. Make something beautiful out of these ashes.
I will. I will make up for all that you’ve been though and all that the enemy has stolen from you. He’s stolen your relationships. Your joy has been dampened quite a bit. You have been struggling so long with this, your light is not so bright as before. I will restore!!! I say, mar, I will restore all that he took from you. Your reward is eternal. Your gift is manifesting in the natural realm as we speak. You won’t remember all this in eternity, but you will have joy unlike never seen before. Your reward for dedicating your life to serving me will be worth all you’ve been through. The crown you’ll receive is magnificent.
Thank you, Dad… I would love to receive the most beautiful crown ever imagined by you so that I can present it to the foot of the cross of my savior… Jesus Christ! I want to give it to him, so please don’t let me do anything that would diminish my crown. Help me not to sin. Help me do your will … and make sure to let me know what your will is… each and every hour. Let me be in your will and my joy will be complete. I love you and your ways are higher than the stars, stranger than fiction… better than anything I’ve ever tasted… better than anything I could ever imagine. Your ways are amazing! Your time is eternal, so I must be patient! For you, a thousand years are like a day and a day is as if a thousand years. You aren’t slow in coming- You’re on a different time clock!!! Lol. Come, Lord Jesus! Your brothers and sisters are down here in utter darkness, waiting for you to save us from ourselves. Help me help you save souls! Let me work in your family business? I promise to do whatever I can from this day forward to make your will my food… your will from now on is my priority. Help me walk this path. Show me the way. I’ll follow! I promise, with your help, I can do it. I love you!