Dec 25 2012
Merry Christmas!!! Happy Birthday, Jesus! You rock! I had a fantastic time with everyone! I am so blessed to have such a great family. Thank you for giving me all these wonderful people to be in my life. Help me remember to be more appreciative going forward and to truly enjoy my time with each of them whenever I can! So, after dinner, the tour of lights, dessert, opening/giving presents and more deserts… DB and I went to 10pm mass and I got to sit in my favorite pew- right under the statue of YOU! Baby Jesus in His daddy’s arms (St. Joseph) You look just as I remember you looked when you came to visit me … I will always remember you and Blessed Mary’s visit to me when I was sick. I don’t understand why you would come to visit me after all I’ve done wrong. I love you and am grateful for your saving grace on me and my life.
I enjoyed remembering 2006′ visit from you both. I told DB about this tonight at church and he seems like he may believe me, he didn’t laugh and didn’t tell me that I’m lying. I just never had the nerve to tell him about it before. I know that I am not special. (Even though my illness makes me think I am… in my times of grandeur!) I am just very humbled that you would visit me, call me (you said: “It’s definitely our turn” ) And since then, I’ve heard that you “really like that I am expectantly waiting.” I know it’s your birthday, and I’m loving the season… you’re the reason… I would be surprised if I actually won- what I’ve been expectantly waiting for– still, I’d be so surprised.
Well, thank you for all our blessings. So many to name only a few: Your love and grace, Our love for each other, my awesome family, our condo, jobs, your guidance, your peace, your many blessings upon blessings. Thank you for the new Dr Dre headphones, new purse, towels, books, clothes, shoes, music, couches, new cool wall hangings, good healthy food, clean water, our lake views, computers, wonderful technology on our phones, YouTube videos, good friends, organizational skills, attention to detail, my mind is clear, my mind is healed of bipolar with medicine and soon to be off it with your healing love and power… Please guide me along the path of reducing meds with Doc. … just to name a few things I’m so grateful for! I love you, Jesus. Thank you for all you went through to redeem the entire world from the grubby grips of Lucy. You are leading the way, by your stripes, we are healed and can do “all this, and more you will do…. if I say to the mountain “move” … it WILL! In your power and goodness, all will be revealed.” We just need to step into it, right!? I should try to get some sleep now, it’s 2a.m. and I need to go be with some lovely strangers at the Nursing home tomorrow and make some new friends with some bribes of Chocolates and Ukelele playing.
Please be with me, and help me sing/play the Christmas songs. Please help me pray with them, get to know them a little, and bring some cheer to them. Please lead me to the people that you most want me to visit with – I’ll send them your love and blessings. Nite, God.
** Good Night, mar. You are really a good kid. I love you. Thank you for visiting me at SM, even though I’m always with you, it was good to see you back there with DB for this special occasion. If you want to try to come once a week during the week to receive the Holy Eucharist, you are always welcome. I will bless that if you will come. I really would like you to come at least once a week. Maybe you could plan Wednesday 7a.m. mass? You will really enjoy our time together at that time. Thank you for being so loyal to me. I know it’s not easy with some of your friends- the ones that may judge you because of me. I know you feel rejected by them because of me. Please don’t worry about pleasing anyone but me. Just shine with the light I give you and darkness disappears in the light. Easy as that. You will be repaid a hundredfold, your crown is awaiting you. Your persecutions are not going to be unnoticed- you are adding to your glory in heaven and just know you take all the love you give with you wherever you go in this world and into the next. You will be with me in heaven. You will be one of the greats. Don’t roll your eyes and shake your head. You need to step into this, Mar… Step up and get your groove on! YOU ROCK, mar, … I love you! Now, just lie down and think on that as you drift to sleep. I will give you a wonderful dream to wake to in the morning- write it down so you remember! I will show you what I am talking about…. good nite!
Oh, you are too fun! Ok, good night, God. I love you back!