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January 1, 2013

On January 1, 2013

Happy New Year! 2013

2013 is going to be stellar! I will be healed in Jesus’ name off all bipolar medicines! I’ll be cutting back starting tonight and going down slowly w/ Doctor W. Cutting in half until off completely in March. Tapering off is the way to go. I can’t wait to be off it completely! I just need to remember that by His stripes, I am healed. He took my disease when he died on the cross. I am relaxed and happy to be free! It is going to be a completely new life in You, God! Thank you for such a great 2012! Last year, I took up the ukelele, joined the VC, met tons of wonderful people, got baptized, and the healing began a new freedom in health, I lost 45 pounds, started running in April and started training for a 10 K in the Illinois Marathon coming in April. I started only able to run barely a minute to now up to 60 minutes. (a slow jog/shuffle- but it counts!)

I wrote a few songs, but in 2013 I plan to write many more with DK’s help. I will learn from M also, and I may also start a blog… not sure on what, but it will be fun. I also want to start cartooning again. I had fun with that and think it would be cool to do some more of that. I resolve 2013 will be blessed. I will pray for more patience, love, peace and joy. I resolve to wake up at 5a.m. for time with God, uke, journal, cartooning, reading and a peaceful time before I start my day. I also resolve to journal on a regular basis each day to just catch up and log what’s all going on in my life.

It is fun to look back and see how far I’ve gone. I am looking forward to training for the Care Ministry. I hope I can be an asset to the team. I got to play Christmas songs for 2 ladies at the nursing home. R and W were sweet to let me pray for them and play for them. I enjoyed that little time with them (on 2 occasions so far… I should stop by sometime today to wish them a Happy New Year. )

** Mar, just writing all this down, don’t you see all you’ve accomplished? You are so hard on yourself always questioning if you have let me down… you have made me very proud of you. You have come so far. You will be free from zyprexa and enjoy your life in a stable and sane peacefulness, joy, love, and laughter. You will be relaxed this year, as well as you will also lose the last 50 pounds. You will bless others through the C Ministry and through me, you will heal many people of their illnesses. You will continue to learn to play the uke and you will write many great songs with DK’s help. You will run the 10k in record time! In a year, you will be amazed again how far you have come. In a year from now, you will not believe how far you have come!!! And you have come so far already in 2012!

Thank you for that, God! I appreciate your help with all this… and it is so much fun, If I let it be fun… you want me to have more fun. Tonight is the mega millions and tomorrow is the powerball… which one should I win? tonight would be great. Ok, so i need to bend my reality and co create with you so that my numbers come up… humm. How exactly should I do that? Ok, … prayers…yes, i’ll declare that those are the numbers for tonight. I will thank you that you heard me. (thank you!) and let it go. I see our new home, home studio, home fitness room, guest rooms, lovely kitchen and living room. white with cathedral ceilings, contemporary feel of spaciousness. Piano in the great room for Andy. Lovely views of the lakes behind. yes, i am excited. the financial freedom to practice music, work creative in song writing, poetry, art, cartooning, uke, guitar, keyboards, singing. voice lessons, guitar lessons, uke lessons, keyboard lessons for andy, songwriting help. Starting a new band with some talent, (I’ll need all the help i can get 🙂 I can pay them well (when I win the lottery) and will be able to train for the CM and start the classes. I will help the community in many ways. Volunteering to visit hospitals through the care ministry and you will heal many people through me. You will use me to be your hands. I will Visit nursing homes and have my band play at the nursing homes with me. (may be towards late 2013-2014 for that, I have a long way to go and need much help/practice)

Many people in the nursing homes will be healed, joy will return to them. The roads will be paved in gold through our one voice of manifestation through God’s people. (we are all God’s people). Kewl King music will bring one voice to us here locally and will spread through VC then to the world, but we will not leave play far away. People will come here to hear! :0) If God asks me, I will go to Chicago, Indy, or St Louis to play, but I feel that Champaign Urbana will be anointed and holy. I feel in my heart that I will only play here. And that is what I want and feel comfortable, feels right in my heart. We many venues to play at here. How’s all this sound to you, God?

** mar, you are so right on. Just kick back and enjoy the ride! It looks like you are on the right “path” and you will be so glad to help out with this assignment, i know you’ve gone a long way to get here and you don’t need to worry that somehow you may mess it up. No, that is not going to happen. Right? Can’t you feel it? You and I will turn this town upside down and then around and out and then up and then you put your right foot in, you put your right foot out, you put your right foot in and you shake it all around!!! Let’s do the hokeypokey! 😉

You’re making me laugh, you silly goose! I luvz you! 1/19/13 quick note to update- Friday I went to SMC and prayed under my favorite baby Jesus / St Joseph statue: for a trip to Hawaii somehow made possible once I reach my goal of 145-155 (august this year)… i asked for help to guide me in the right decisions each day to get there. On my way out of the lot to go to see PE, I was behind at a light and the sticker on their back window read “Team Hawaii”!!!! OMG, how cool is that… not only that, but then on my way out of my appointment with PE, the car parked next to me had a license plate that read “DREAM”- can you believe that?!!! Yes, how cool!

September 21, 2012

By RSVP to the Eternal Party!

On September 21, 2012

In EPP Board Meetings

Sorry I didn’t get a chance to log yesterday, but man-o-man, what a wild day it was! I prayed for a priest for healing when I went there for healing and God used me to pray for him!!! Wow, that was exciting. He then anointed me for the sacrament of healing for the sick and I was also able to receive the holy communion which I haven’t been able to get for over 4 months! (I was very ill and too unstable mentally to go w/o crying.) I really missed that and plan on maybe bi monthly or weekly short mass on Wednesday morning mass. I think it will really grace my walk and help me in many ways.

I then went to Lenscrafters and found out that I will have 20/15 vision with my new glasses and that I do not need bifocals yet, YAY me!!! I then had a great time with visitors, H and his son D –we went to their favorite place to go when they come down from for a visit. I enjoyed pizza and their company… went for a tour of campus for D, he’s looking at coming down here for college. That would be awesome! He’s a great kid, H should be very proud. (I should tell him that!) Then the best part…. We walked around downtown and ran into DK of DofU – talked briefly. Turns out he did not move to New Orleans and would be glad to help me out with lessons and song writing assistance/ lessons. How cool is that?!!! I think he has a lot of talent in music and also artistically. He also seems like a lot of fun to hang out with, crazy kind of like me, He invited me to meet up with him any day 3-7 he’ll be at one of two café’s and told me to just message him on facebook the day before to set a meet-up for a lesson at a café! I think God really had a hand in perfect timing because I just got his latest cd from the library yesterday and had just finished listening to the entire cd! (literally about 3 hours before we ran into each other.) so, yes, I do believe there is no such thing as a coincidence… it’s more like a God-incidence! So, I’m really looking forward to learning with D and hope it all goes well.

In regard to today, I had an awesome time after the service at church tonight. I asked God to give a prophetic word to me through someone on the prayer team. told me that God is reaching down as I’m reaching up. That he loves me so much she felt an incredible warm feeling that she said He feels for me- it touched her so much she teared up as she told me about it. She also said that there is something like a pesky fly over her shoulder that can be flicked aside- that it was not a big huge scary thing. (my illness is what I heard is the fly) then she asked me what she needs to pray for and I felt ok to share. I told her chemical imbalance. She prayed a quick prayer and I said to her that I still feel the problem is so big and heavy that I need more faith that I can be healed. She prayed for me to have God show me this week in many instances how much he loves me. (more God-Incidences?) I’m excited to see what God has in store for me!!!

So, God, I thank you so much for an awesome weekend!!! And tomorrow is Sunday and am looking forward to another wonderful day with you. Please help me calm down and sleep well tonight. Last night I was so happy and filled with your love… I couldn’t sleep until 4:30 a.m. good thing you helped me sleep in until 10:30 so I enjoyed a good day w/o being too sleepy.

*** Mar, you know that I love you and I just wanted to make sure you remembered that I am with you and also that you will be taken care of. You don’t need to worry about the “fly”… just remember that I (God) am so much bigger than Satan and that we will heal you soon. Just hang in there. D will pray for you. Tell her your story about what happened in T. Tell her everything. Tell her about drugs, H and what happened there, tell her about Unity and the meditations – religious spirits??? What is that? (Dl was talking about that and I’m not sure about that!) And tell her especially about your trip to the retreat and how when you gave your life to me… tell her how mental illness overtook you and that you’ve struggled with it since then… 1989.-23 long years. It is time to let it go. It is time to be healed, Mar. D will know exactly what to do. You can trust her. Just ask her to please not announce it or talk about it. Tell her you feel very self-conscious about it and that you would really love it if she could keep it confidential.

Then, Mar- I would like you to send her flowers as a thank you with a nice note. I’ll help you write the note. You will be healed and free of your illness, but don’t stop taking the zyprexa for a year. You can lower it with Dr W… over time and then if all goes well, taper off it completely. This will take about a year. You have me in charge of your life. You asked me to manage your life on that day in 1989 and it may not seem like it, but I have been with you through your ups and downs. I helped get you through so many things and I ‘ve been with you in your pain. It saddened me to no end, and I just want you to know that I am soooooo proud of you. You have come such a long way. You really are a champion! I love you so much, kiddo…. and I thank you that you never forgot me. You never thought I didn’t love you and you never got mad at me. You are truly my beloved daughter, in whom I am well pleased. I love you, Mar.

Oh, my Lord, daddy, I love you so much and am so humbled that you would say those things. Who am I that you should love me that much? I feel so glad to hear you say that and thank you for verifying it tonight at church with the woman who had tears telling me how much you love me. Please help her know also how much you love her. Please reach out to her tonight in some way let her not be sad… I felt like she maybe wished that for her. I know you love her just as much if not more… all your children need to know how much you love them. Help me spread the word in some powerful way. Your children need to know first hand how much you love them. I trust and know in my heart that you will show them soon. May I be in any service to assist, please use me.

Ok, so, also I had this wonderful dream yesterday morning… after all that’s happened since then, I almost forgot to tell my morning pages… I don’t want to forget any of this! Ok, so I awoke from a dream. Mind you, I do not have any bible passages memorized with their chapter/verse with it. I had no idea what it said in John 16… so , in my dream, I was being interviewed on a radio station because of the miracles that were happening at our concerts and radio stations around the world. I was telling everyone how much Jesus loves them, died for them, and heals them. I was sharing that Jesus came for everyone. Whoever comes to him, he invited to relationship with him and the Father. Then, I saw a couple from China who had 4 girls dressed up in dresses. They were holding their parents hands and looked happy to be hearing the good news. Then in my dream, DB told me to read John 16. I said “What?” and he repeated John 16 again (with an exaggerated voice – to be sure that I read it) so, of course when I awoke right after that, I went to my bible and read: 1 John 16 “All this I have told you so that you will not fall away. 2 They will put you out of the synagogue; in fact, the time is coming when anyone who kills you will think they are offering a service to God. 3 They will do such things because they have not known the Father or me. 4 I have told you this, so that when their time comes you will remember that I warned you about them.”

Well, I read it, thought about it and said to my other journal in my Class notebook: Lord, if you can use me, then whatever you want- I want. No matter the cost. Please help me be who you want me to be. I offer my life to you in service to you and your children. Lord, I ask that you work great miracles and bring all of your children home to you… you amaze me! And I will not hold back because of John 16… you amaze me & I will shout it from the roof tops that you amaze me and that you alone are to be worshiped. May your Glory Reign!!! You are my King. I believe only in you! I offer my life to you… let’s ROCK this WORLD! It’s party time!!! :0) You are one Kewl King!!!!

Thank you for this weekend- so far it’s been a stellar weekend. The best I’ve ever had because you showed me so clearly your love for me, and you told me to have hope and be of good cheer! Jesus will heal me and my life is just going to be getting better and better each day. I am so in love with you and so in love with my divine mission. Help me be who you want me to be. Help me think what you want me to think, help me laugh at Satan, “the knat fly”. Please help me have enough time, energy, resources, love and compassion to do this work. Lord, I ask that you help me have a good night’s sleep. Protect me in my sleep and guide me into sweet dreams. Help me be refreshed and feel your presence again tomorrow as I’ve felt your loving warmth the last two days. I love feeling your love in my forehead and hands (where Fr. anointed me with oil) Please keep close to me and send your angels to be with me always. Guide my steps and keep watch over my mind, so that the deceiver is no longer welcome to confuse me and lead me astray or paranoid. Heal me, Lord. I love you so much! Thank you for your love. I really, really, really dig it!!! You are amazing and awesome! Amen, night God.