Tag: Healing

February 2, 2013

On February 2, 2013

2/2/13 OMG—— you. are. awesome!!!! Thank you, thank you, thanks, Jesus!!!! You brought my teeth back into an alignment so I can bite down without pain, they line up almost perfectly, the gap is gone – the one that yesterday the Dr. Collin said I’d need a $900.00 crown to fill the gap since the gums were getting ruined! I will go see him next week so they can take the “after Jesus” pictures! Friday they took pictures and so now he can compare and date it for me! No crown needed! THANK YOU, GOD!!! YOU ARE SOOOOOooooooooo amazing! Yes, I will sing and shout for you, because you are GOOD!

You healed me of bipolar… tonight is zyprexa free zone for me! NO more zyprexa! Thank you for your healing love! Thank you for healing my jaw, my mind, and for all you will do for me in the future! I will play your music and you and I will make my dreams come true… healings, miracles, sweeping across the USA, the world. You REIGN! Your love is too good for anyone to miss out and I would love to help spread the fire of your love. In you, Christ, anything is possible. If it is your will, I would love to be your instrument of peace.

Give me the boldnes, the courage, a voice that people enjoy, give me energy, health, complete wellness of body, mind and spirit. Please help me do everything in your will, divine and holy order. Please give me patience to become all that you desire me to be. Help me speak boldly of your great and generous love. Help me touch hearts, win them over to your friendship. People of all walks of life will be touched by your love and light, in Jesus’ name I pray that your Kingdom Come. I pray that your light overcome all darkness in this world. Use me, Lord. Have your way in me, with me, and through me. Let my voice join in and wake up the world to your light- your love and goodness.

Make Lucy GO AWAY and keep him from spoiling our party. Send him to his home in hell and shut him up. Lock him up and throw away the key! He’s spoiled too many lives. He’s had his fun, now it’s time for Lucy to pay the price for all the destruction he has done in this world since he rebelled. And don’t forget to take all his friends with him into the place designed only for him and his demons. Let your people go free. Let your people see your love and help your people be free to love. free to enjoy their lives and free to worship you whole heartedly with love for their neighbor. Let love reign. Come, Lord Jesus. Have your way in this world. Help me be all who you want me to be. It would be so fun if I could sing for you. Playing the guitar and ukelele with skill. Give me supernatural talent and equip me- your servant and friend. Help me lead the world into your eternal party! Help me open people’s eyes to your awesomeness. Thank you for healing my jaw and lining up my teeth. I will take this to mean that my dream is not just my imagination.

This dream is blessed by you, and I thank you for that! Please finish my jaw/teeth/gum restoration. Make it perfect for you are perfect. Please make my metal fillings turn to something non toxic- enamel or better yet, my own healthy teeth in whole and healthy form. Thank you that they are no longer sensitive. Thank you that I don’t need jaw surgery or braces, and pulled tooth to make them align.(as the orthodontist told me I’d need.) Thank you that I no longer need a crown to fill the gap. Thank you that Dr. Colin took before pictures and I ask that you bless him as my eye-witness to your healing miracle! Please finish what you started tonight. Please see that your will be done in me. And I thank you so much for your goodness. Thank you! I will sing of your goodness and I will walk by faith. I trust that you put dreams into my heart. I thank you for that. For, what is life without a dream??? I know It sounds grandiose not only to others, it sounds grandiose to me… but I guess if you’re going to dream, why not dream big?

I want to be like you in every way. I want to do all that you did and even more amazing things… if that is possible. (And you said it will be so!) I want to ascend like you… to be taken like Enoch because of my faith in you and because I try to obey and please you in every way. You have forgiven my sins and by Christ’s death on the cross, I died with Him. The old me is no longer. Help me grow in this truth and walk righteous in your loving forgiveness. Jesus died so I can be righteous, and I receive that! For I can’t do that on my own power. I did nothing to deserve it. It is only by grace and God’s love that I am made new, holy and righteous in his eyes. Thank you, God! I would like to have special supernatural powers from you, God. I would like to be able to walk holy and be used in any way that you see fit, Lord. It would be cool to help bring all 5 billion people in this world to know personally that you work miracles! Give me your blessing, Lord so together, we can Heal the masses through music, laughter, love, and light.

I would like to levitate in your love, fly up to the sky, have supernatural angelic protection at all times. It could be handy to become invisible when needed. I would like to be blessed supernaturally to be so creative and considered a genius musically and in all ways. You can do this for me! I know it. I believe it! You can do all things. (Grandiose, I know…) Please allow me to touch people in such a way that they forget their troubles. laughter abounds in a good way when they listen to my music or come to one of my concerts. Give me stage presence. Give me just the right words. I need your help!!! Use me in any way you want. I know it is for your glory. I love your ways. I love your Holy will. You are so good! Thank you for working your miracles in my life. Thank you for healing me of bi polar, of teeth and jaw, for my body returning to it’s right size, you healed my eyes TWICE- and for all you’ve done in my life. You saved me from evil in so many ways. You helped me find my way into your arms. Thank you for your incredible love. Help me be all who you want me to be and so I say good bye for now with big HUGS, -amen

November 13, 2012

By RSVP to the Eternal Party!

On November 13, 2012

In EPP Board Meetings

Ok, so it’s been almost a full week since I wrote. I am supposed to rededicate my journaling for the next 2 weeks per our small group (the Prophetic Encouragement group) I don’t know why I stopped writing, I only know that I feel lost with out it. I am feeling sad and to be honest, alone. I don’t feel your warmth, tingly touch on my forehead and hands and It makes me wonder if I messed up big time…. I know I’ve been impatient, rude, mean, swearing from time to time, and basically not a very good resemblance of you, Jesus. Help me be more like you. Please forgive me for my wrongs- my sins… my bad behavior. I think I just feel like you should be mad at me. I’ve been proud, conceited and unkind. Yes, you should be let down because of my behavior. You may wonder why you even put up with me at all. You may wonder why you love me so much. I know I am wondering that myself. Hummmm. What say you?

*** Oh, Mar. You still don’t get it, do you? You can not earn my love. You can not ever be good enough on your own. I died for you. I died so that you don’t need to feel ashamed. I carried your shame on the cross. You are righteous in my blood. My death on the cross actually cleared multitudes of sins for you and every person who ever asks for me to carry their sin to forgiveness. Every person who ever lived on Earth or ever will live – I died for all. I’m not picky. Anyone. I came for anyone and everyone. God wants you to not feel condemned. You asked for forgiveness when you felt sad, alone, and dirty. In your asking, you are forgiven. Accept it. Please accept it and live in my love. Love others. Be careful to not think you could ever do anything on your own to earn God’s love. God loves you, each of you, because you’re my kids. You’re my sister, and friend. Mar, please don’t sit in your sin… dust yourself off in my love, and shake off the dirt. I love you. As for your forehead, and hands- if you soak up my holy spirit, in time with Him, if you focus on love, you will feel it again. You will feel it anytime you think of God and His great love for you. Close your eyes and think on us, feel us – feel our love on your forehead and hands. Try it. Try it now.

I feel you. Thank you! I feel it on my hands especially and also somewhat on my forehead. What does it mean?

*** It is my spirit which will be for the masses. Your hands will spread my love through your music and when you pray for others with your hands outstretched or on their shoulder… you (and many others) have the ability to spread my healing spirit out into the world. You will one day, when the time is right, you will just lay your hands on a hospital, and all the patients inside (and any sick workers there) will be instantly healed. You’ll put the hospitals out of business, but that’s ok. It’s in the order of things to come when MY Kingdom comes. Sickness has no hold on your town. … also then for the world as cities darkness’ fall like dominoes so that one after another, each city will belong to me, (GOD). It will start with your town and You will help be the catalyst for the other cities to follow. Signs and miracles will be the norm. People will have food, shelter, clothes, health, anything they need or desire – if it is my will, they will have it. And believe me when I say, “I want that, I want that for everyone!” It is almost my time. Almost time for my Mighty and Holy Kingdom to come onto Earth. Are you glad you get to start up the party?

Oh, my G O D, yes! I don’t feel worthy or able in my weaknesses and no talent, to do this job. I think you may have got the wrong gal? I am willing. I guess that is all you needed was someone who is willing to appear crazy. Well, yep, I’m certified in that! So, no – I don’t care what people think. (Well, sometimes I do.) I just want to make you proud of me. I’d like to think I’m willing and able but know that it is all you. You will have to work through me and I trust that you will. I remember what you said to me:

“Mar, you are my living enterprise, and God can NOT fail!”

Well, I cling to that promise and will remember that . It is YOU who will accomplish everything. I just want to be willing to follow. Please help me follow. Please give me the courage, strength, mind, and heart for your assignments. I am trying to figure out what you want me to do each day. I just take it day by day because when I make my plans, I know you are laughing!!! I can hear you snickering right now! You are really getting a kick out of this, I can tell. Hopefully I’m doing an o.k. job. I am trying to not get stressed out over it. I had that horrible melt down a few days ago. I am sorry that I swore and I’m sorry for feeling so defeated. The fire darts that Lucy fired into my mind seemed to cause a melt down but I know it was not from you and that you got me through it pretty quickly. I do feel badly for letting Lucy win even that small battle. I am ready and roaring to go! Send me!!!! I’ll go!

*** Ok, you are ready, I can tell… you are doing so well, Mar. You are my golden boot warrior in this game of Love. You are going to win this game… “LOVE WINS!” (Will be the headlines) You are a key player in this game. And yes, it is a game. Don’t get too serious, that is a downfall to you and our assignment. Remember, nothing is too hard or impossible to me. God always wins in the end. I’m getting tired of Lucy though and it’s time for my team to win, to live, to love, to rule! Lucy’s time is almost up. Don’t worry about anything. Don’t worry about money. Don’t worry about time or not enough time. I am the author of Life, I am the controller of Time. If you need time, you will have it. If you need funds, you will have it. If you ask in Jesus’ name, you will have it if it is my will. Your life is in the palm of my hand and I will not let you fall. You are right where I want you to be.

Everything is unfolding just as it should, so have fun. Don’t stress over it. If you have fun, we win. It’s as simple as that. If you get too upset over this game, we may have to take a time out to regroup, but just know that there is no way that I won’t have my kids back. . … I know the outcome. I see it all at once. I know we will win because I know everything. So really- come on- believe me. I will not leave you alone. I am with you in all things. I will not let you fail. I thank you for your willingness. You are becoming everything we decided prior to your birth. You know you can do this. I have seen the future, and you better put on your shades, because the future is so bright… you’re gonna’ need shades!

I can ‘t wait to get to the party! I want to have it all done yesterday. I am sorry for my impatience. Please give me patience, love and kindness, compassion, strength, and courage for the ride. I love your ways. You make all things right. You are awesome. I love you! Help me see the ways you help me. You healed my disease, you strengthened my knees and made them new, you love me so much, you talk to me and give me your spirit. I thank you for your kindness to me. I don’t deserve it. Thank you for adopting me.

*** I didn’t adopt you- you are my daughter.

What? Are you sure?

*** Yes. Don’t ask.

Ok. I don’t understand and I don’t think I ever could. I just thank you and ask you to forgive me for my ungratefulness. I just can’t wrap my brain around that. That would mean that somehow, I am your daughter in a more real way? How is that possible?

*** don’t ask. You are special, though. Just know how much I love you. You and DB both. You are both my kids. I watch out for my kids and no one will mess with you. They know better than that. I also have St. Michael, the Arch Angel and a host of other angels watching out for you. You are well protected, but don’t do anything stupid, like walk in front of a car… Don’t test it. You have a responsibility for it, also. But yes – you are my daughter.

Ok, if you say so. I don’t really understand. That’s ok. I am just glad you aren’t mad at me for swearing like a sailor, and slamming things around in my silly anger… being unloving, impatient and ungrateful… I am a mess. I think If I would keep the journal going daily, I’d be in a much better situation. Right?

*** you got it, Mar. Even if it is for a short time – say 5 or 10 minutes, you will get so much out of it. Don’t go for days in sin. Come to me and ask me to help you restore yourself to me. I love you and when you sit in sin, you are not a good vessel for my spirit. I need a pure spirit to work with and all you need to do is come here at these pages and ask me to restore you to me. I am asking you to please use my forgiveness capabilities, and use them for your own good and for the good of the mission. You WILL slay the dragon. I have not doubts. You are the one for me. I will use you, I will enable you. I will help you in every way possible. I only ask 2 things: First, Come to Jesus for forgiveness when you make mistakes/sin. I need you to come here daily to chat. OK? And secondly, have fun. Simple? Yes, it is simple. I’ll do the heavy lifting,-you do the fun. Ok?

Yep! I can do that! I think I really make things more difficult than they need to be. I always do that. I am sorry. Please help me to see the fun in everything. To relax. To love. To be obedient to journal and spend time with you. I love you. Thank you for making me righteous in your eyes. Thank you for forgiving me of everything. Even for forgiving me for the things I don’t even remember doing. Thank you. I love you.

Oh say, Could you give me some dreams tonight that are FUN and dreams with a loving message for my weary soul… I need some laughter in my soul. Thx! I love you. Night.