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Q1-Dad, I don’t know what to ask you today. Could you just talk with me about maybe where you see me and where you would like me to be eventually?

*** Sure. I see you as my precious daughter, my sweet little girl who is always trying her best to please me. I see you struggling to spend quiet time with me so I can bless and heal your soul. I see your love for Jesus, and I will continue to bless your relationship with Him. I see you starting to get acquainted with “Love” the Holy Spirit. I would like to see you eventually to be home with me, but you have much to learn and share with the world. So, eventually, you will be running a business for me… yes, EPP, Inc. is a real business beginning to form through the blessings I will send you to share with them. Love will guide you and show you each step. Keep close to us, Holy Trinity, and you will be amazed at what you can do with our help and guidance.

 Eventually all things will be lined up for you. Soon you will be amazed at what I have done for you and for the world. You could never imagine the blessings that are in store for those who Love and cherish God’s word, Jesus. We will get you to where you need to be. I’ve got this. Keep playing the lotto, don’t give up… that is how I choose to bless you to invest in EPP, Inc. Keep tenacious, remain in Love, practice charity and patience every day. It will come more easily to you in the future. I will heal your illness in time. I have you in the palm of my hand.

Q2– Jesus, I want to console you and tend to your sacred heart. Your mercy is endless. What can I do for you? I want to be with you in your passion and be with you in spirit during that horrible time in your life. Will you show me or tell me what I could do this lent that would console your precious heart?

*** Yes, thank you for asking. I would like you to pray the Stations of the Cross each day. Use the metal Stations of the Cross that you had blessed last week. Use it with love and for the intention of consoling me and in a special way, you will be with me back in time at the foot of the cross. You will be very comforting to me in a way only possible through this Lenten season in an incredible mystical manner. It is true that you will be with me back in time, so please take special remembrance in prayer to console my precious sacred heart.

Q3-Love, you are so patient with me. I am sorry that I am so lacking in my prayer life. Please help me learn to spend precious time with you in my interior castle. Show me how you intend to be with me in this special way through the book “Interior Castle”. Help me find time to read it so I can soon put it into practice.

*** Yes, I will read the book with you and show you all that you will need to know to get started. Your prayer life will take on a whole new meaning. You will become a great profit and know more fully God’s will. Spending time with God in this way will bless not only you, but also the whole world. I know you think this is your illness- speaking grandiose thoughts, but Mar, mark my words, it will all come true. You are in a tough position with all the thoughts and symptoms of paranoia, but soon you will see. It will all come true. Bless you, Mar. Bless you. We love you. Take heed, read the book; you will not regret it.

Q4-Mom, thank you for your love. I don’t deserve it. I have been so distant from you all my life… I am so happy that I finally found you. Your patience with me and unconditional love amazes me. Thank you for interceding for me and for your protection all these years. How many angels does it take to protect someone as reckless as me? A legion of angels? 🙂

***Haha, you have always cracked us up. All of heaven is with you and has been with you all your life. Many saints and angels have been working, praying and protecting you all these years. As regards to how many angels… I lost track of counting a long time ago. lol, you have really tested and tried them in years past. You need to be more grateful for your angels. They love you very much and are constantly helping you out. What you can do is each day; say a short prayer of gratitude for them. They would love that. Their job is serious and important; they have always been faithful to do their work in your lifetime. Make it a habit when you pray the Chaplet of Divine Mercy and Stations of the Cross, to add a prayer of thanks to your warring and guardian angels.

Closing: Thank you, my precious angels! I am so sorry for my ingratitude and for taking you for granted. I am alive now because of your love and protection. Thank you for putting up with me and for being so dedicated to my cause. Thank you is such a weak word of gratitude… how can I thank you enough? I can only say thank you and maybe try to share your love with others. If only I had started thanking you years ago! Tell me what I can do for you and I will try my best to do it. Thank you for leading me and helping me all these years. I love you, guys! Edwina, you are the funniest and most loving angel – my guardian angel, I love you. Thank you for your protection and coordinating all the warring angels on my behalf. I owe a special thank you to you! Help me not to forget you and all of your assistance, love and for protecting my life so many times. I trust that you will see me through my assignments and keep me safe from all harm. Thank you!!! 🙂

xo,

~Mar

Q1- Dad, Thank you for giving me my life. I don’t think I have ever thanked you for that. Life is a precious gift that I sometimes don’t appreciate very much. It can be very difficult, but mostly it is a wonderful blessing. Life. With all that I’ve been through, I would do it again if it means that one day I will be with you in your heavenly home. I know that I came here to learn about love. I feel like I haven’t made much progress. I am so self focused and proud. I lack the ability to love as you call me to love. I pray to Mother that she will help me create a pure heart. A loving and kind heart. So, I just wanted to thank you for giving me this opportunity in this life to learn how to love. I am so sorry that I haven’t gotten very far in my 47 years of life. The life you give is precious. Help me make a better more loving next 47 years. Please give me a chance to do better. Guide me, Love.

*** Mar, we have been hoping that you could come to this conclusion and recommitment to love better. You are very welcome and I am glad to give my children life. I know it is difficult. You are not so far behind the love schedule… You’ve come a long way and your heart is in the right place. You desire to love better and you are now asking for help. We will gladly give you the help and grace you need to progress. Keep learning by giving yourself a review at the end of each day. See what you did wrong, what you could have done better, and what you neglected to do. The review will help you in a miraculous way. Also, the book you are reading now, Interior Castle, (St. Teresa of Avila) will help you in your prayers. In addition to the board meetings, I am calling you to spend time with me in a more intimate way… internally. You will learn how best to do this in that book; St. Teresa will help you also if you ask her to help you. She can be your guide. Yes, she is nodding and offering to be with you to help you in this area. She has been praying for you along with all the other Saints. You are very lucky and blessed.

Q2-Jesus, Thank you for being so patient with me. I know I have been taking one step forward and two steps back. I’ve stumbled along the path and gone in circles. I don’t know what to say except, thank you for not giving up on me. Will you one day get me to where I need to be? I’m depending on you to get me there. Just tell me what I need to do and give me the strength, courage and will to do it. I am sorry that I am such a difficult person to deal with. I go in so many different directions; I don’t know where I’m going half the time. I don’t know what needs to be my focus. Could you help me?

***Cha-cha-cha… we’re dancing… one-step forward, two back. Cha, cha-cha… I love you, Mar! Don’t worry. Have fun! All the things that you are doing is getting you somewhere we need to be… even if it’s not in a fast straight lined destination. Nope. We have a few circles that we’ve gone through… but only know that it was 40 years for Israelites to get to the promise land… you’re ahead of that schedule! I am the author of time… Holy Trinity is in control. God is on your side, so who can be against? You are our living enterprise… and you know that God cannot fail! Just remain open to our lead. You’re doing great. Don’t worry. Have fun. Take it one day at a time. (One day at the time… as was written on the wall… 🙂

Q3-Love, you are my guide through all this. Help me hear you and help me to follow your lead more closely. What do I need to do to improve this relationship between us? How much time should I dedicate to quiet “Interior Castle” prayer time?

*** Once you read that book, you will understand so much more clearly how this works. Prayer can be the most powerful thing anyone can do to get results. People just don’t do it. Why? Because they don’t know how to pray to see powerful change occur in the natural. It all starts interiorly. That is what I would like you to do… read the book, take the time to converse with us in this powerful way. It would not take that much time, but you will love it so much, you will have a hard time to do anything other than pray with us in this new way. It will be a turning point for the mission. A whole new world will open up for you. For us, actually. It will be powerful. A game changer. This is how important it will be for you. Please read the book(s) of St. Teresa that you bought and put them into practice. You will be so glad if you follow this request.

Q4-Mom, would you please pray for me that I can embark on this new prayer life with hope, dedication, resolve, courage, discipline and love. Pray for the Holy Spirit to lead me and give me the blessed hope of success in my prayer life. I feel so inadequate in this area. Help me to make time for this. Help me get up earlier and have dedicated time each morning for this important request from my Love.

***Mar, I will help you but you need to put this appointment on your calendar and treat it as if it was an important meeting that you could never miss… if it was an appointment for your business, you would not miss it. Please give this as much and more- importance on your calendar. Go to bed earlier so you can wake in time to have this quality time with Holy Trinity. You will be so blessed and grateful if you do this. I know you’re not a morning person, but with my help, you can be. The rest will take care of itself in due time, once you dedicate 30-60 minutes in the morning for this time together.

Thank you, you always amaze me… your help is very very very much appreciated! Thank you for your prayers, guidance, love, and patience. I am sorry that I have not been as serious about this progress needed for this important assignment. In my defense, I am not sure half the time if I am just being crazy with ideas spinning round my head. Of if maybe there is some truth in what I’ve been thinking and planning for all these years. Help me be who you want me to be. Love, equip and empower me to be all that you know I can be and lighten my load by always leading me to where I need to be. Don’t leave me on my own. I need your help. I need your guidance, and I need your love. All the world badly needs your love. Please don’t let me let you down. Please give me all that I need to do this. Show me what “this” actually is and what it should look like. I’m all about the “this” and feel like it’s the blind person trying to find her way around the world in the darkness. A little light for my journey is always appreciated. Help me do what you lead me to do. Give me the fortitude, courage, love, strength, willpower, dedication, and help me be a good soldier. Help me run this race and not give up. I love you; you guys are the most excellent peeps ever! Your love knows no bounds. You rock!  xo . ~Mar

Thank you, God that you are in control. Thank you that you will not let anything happen to me without your approval. Thank you that you take all bad things and make them cause goodness. Thank you that you will not leave me by myself. Thank you that you will heal my back and all the evil spells on me will come to nothing. Thank you for your protection. Thank you that you guide me on the right paths. Thank you, Dad, that you see all things and know my heart. Thank you for your forgiveness and love. Thank you for absolving me of my sins through good priests. Thank you that you will bless the priests and nuns with pure hearts. Thank you that you are making a mighty work in my soul, spirit, body and mind. Thank you for all your good blessings. Thank you, Dad, for sending your only son, Jesus, to heal our souls and make us worthy to one day come home to you. I miss you.

Q1-Dad, Am I imagining this evil spell on my back or is it normally so hunched? I think M.P. made an evil hex and caused my back to hunch somewhat… or is this only my imagination? It looks hunched to me. Help!

***Mar, don’t worry, your prayers are heard in heaven and you will be healed one day soon, you will have your light body. Yes, it is a little hunched now. Keep praying for it to return to normal and in time, it will be gone. Eat your fruits and vegetables… your path to all healing. No more hugging M, if you feel fear, you will fall.

Q2-Mom, please protect me from the evil in the world that wants to harm me. I need your angels to watch over me and save me from such attacks. Could you commit a gathering of angels to walk with me wherever I go? I feel so vulnerable out here in this evil world.

*** Mar, you have an army of warring angels protecting you at all times. The Father allows some bad things to occur due to legalistic reasons. The devil is very upset with us… he is really trying to defeat good. No worries, evil loses, we know that this is true. Have Faith; you will be well taken care of. Your back will be returned straight. It is not going to remain that way so keep in faith and pray for your healing.

Q3-Jesus, the spirit of fear is trying to push me down. I won’t get into agreement with the spirit of fear; with your help- I will overcome this fear. I know you have a plan for me… good plans with much love and prosperity in health, finances, love, and spirit. Can you help me get up higher into the right frequency- the frequency of God?

*** You only need to look towards me. Ask for prayer. Have faith and look at all that I have done for you. You know I am with you. If I am for you, who can be against? Your crown is getting bedazzled with your sufferings. Mother and you are offering it all up for the salvation of lost souls. You are able to free multitudes from hell by your sufferings when offered up for them. Be glad that you are able to offer this great favor to the people in hell. Many are being redeemed and many more to come when you share the word of offering all suffering up for the lost souls. Many people have family members who need their prayers and offerings of suffering.

Q4-Love, I need you. Oh, Happy Spirit, be near me. I love you. Help me love you more. Show me what I can do for you… What could I do that would please you?

***We have complete control. Earth is being awakened to the Holy Trinity’s love, goodness and glory that is coming in waves to the people living now. It seems like the worst of days. Look towards God. We are in control. Drill this into all minds, including yours… as you see darkness growing, know that WE are in total control and goodness wins. Love wins. What you can do to please me is to believe this… in your heart you need to know this truth and declare it to all the world.

 Love Wins.

Tell the world to look to God for their lives in everything they need. All tears will be wiped away. Good will overcome evil. Proclamation of all things of God. Fear is trying to take away our children’s future. WE have a plan. An amazing plan of goodness… proclaim God’s goodness. It will increase and glorify God as it is shared with the world. Many miracles will soon break out. Get ready for God’s goodness; it will wash over all the earth. Jesus is coming soon. Proclaim His return. Holy Trinity App is going to be an awesome tool for God to use to reach his children. None will be lost. We have an amazing plan. Thank you that you want to take part in this plan. We will show you more little by little. Get ready for an awesome ride… hold on tight!

Closing:

Thank you, God, for your plans for goodness. Thank you that you will not destroy us; that you have a great plan. We are ready for a revival. We need to shake up the world. Please let America return to you. Protect us. Give us the leadership we need. Hear my prayers for the people on my prayer list, please hear and answer their needs. Your glory is what we want. Love, thank you for your help, your peace, love, and mercy. I love you. Thank you, saints and angels for your prayers and love. I feel your assistance and know that you are doing many things on my behalf for my good. Thank you, Mom, for interceding for my needs. Thank you that you are so good to me. I love you all. xo,

~Mar

Today I want to talk about a few things I have the Siri microphone taking notes for me. I’m finally feeling back to normal and was able to go to my dads drum gig to help him set it up and take down. I felt great so I went to church and reconciliation, it felt fabulous! I don’t know if this is going to be my new base at 30 mg Zyprexa, but it’s working well so I may only go down a little bit more and stay at 20. Now my big decision is whether not I should go to Florida as planned. In one way it would be very relaxing as well as In a way very stressful. Any suggestion on your end as far as what I should do?

Another thing I have questions about – why do I feel like this world and its entire darkness getting even stronger darkness each day I feel like it’s getting worse and worse. Is there something that I can do to help out with this? If there is I have no idea what I can do on my own there’s nothing I can do. Only with you is anything possible.

Dad I feel like the entire plan of bringing light back in to cover the world like it depends on me and I know that’s wrong -that’s my illness, but that’s how I feel like it’s all on me and it’s kind of a big burden if you can imagine. I keep forgetting to put in punctuation. I am rambling on I know but I feel like there’s something I need to get off my chest. I can’t handle this on my own. There’s something anything I can do then just please lead me there. I am lost. I feel so alone. And I don’t know what else I can do. I feel like I’ve blown it. I feel like there’s something I was supposed to do somehow and I have not done it! I thought it was on the right track but now I feel like I’m just so far gone and out of the game.

I really need your help God- if there something you want me to do I need your help I can’t do this on my own. And then on top of all this I’ve got to deal with paranoia… and anxiety so whatever I can do I offer it up but you’re in a have to do something some strong miracle works within me to get me to where I need to be. I pray that you get me to where you want me to be so I can do this thing. Whatever this thing is that we have in mind. If it is eternal party people, Inc. Or holy trinity app or if you still can use ShamRock studios, I’m all for it so let’s maybe get me to where I need to be for this, I’m just getting older, more stressed thinking about this.

I know you’re in control and that you’ve got this. But I feel like I’ve let you down, dad. I really feel like time is running out. But I know you are the author of time, father God, I pray your kingdom come your will be done on earth as it is in heaven, amen!

The darkness is so great, dad. Dad, you have to help us! You have to come for us dad we love you and we want to share your love with the world. Let your light shine strongly on us, all us in the world here are lonely souls morning & weeping in this valley of tears. All the hunger, evil, darkness, hatred, violence, ingratitude of your love and spitting in the eye of God, they don’t know what they’re doing. They just do what they see around them and there’s only evil all around. I don’t know how much darker the darkness can get dad. The media music and entertainment in United States is brainwashing the kids and I feel so sorry for them because they don’t know what they’re doing. They are being led by blind darkness. It’s time for your light to shine. It’s time for Jesus and his love to overcome the world! If I may be so bold as to declare that. Come Lord Jesus and save us, mother Mary, save us. Jesus and Mary save souls. Jesus and Mary help me help you to save souls. Please lead me in the right way. The way to go. Show me what I need to do. Love, equip and empower me to do my dad’s will. Love, Holy Spirit, empower & equip me to always do what you want me to do and to do it powerfully, bravely & with courage and love.

Mother, I pray that you give me a pure heart. Please always be with me and guide me lead me in the way of Christ perfection. I pray that you help me be a better person and I strive to be more like Christ. Mother please please please please please help me live with a pure heart. Show me the way to go in all things. I love you mom.

Love, thank you for getting me through each day. You give me the strength to go on. You help me overlook the hurt and pain that I go through. You give me the boldness courageous and strong will tenacious and ready to go and charge onward in my mission for God and for his children. They don’t even know how much he loves them. That breaks my heart. I want everyone to know how much dad loves them. There is so much hurt and need for God right now. Help me invite them to the eternal party. I can’t stand the thought of them going to hell. I know it’s none of my business what other people do, but I’m forcing goodness upon them I suppose by my wishing them well. I only wish well for all people. And what in my mind is good and well and right and just is for all God’s children to come home and be with their father for eternity. Not in some dark torturous dank foul-smelling pit of hell for eternity. No that’s for the demons only and Lucifer. And I know that Christ died on the cross for all of us. And I know that the cross was a huge success. If only people would open their eyes and except it, dear God, that is my prayer.

Mother, help me get this message across to people. Mother would you please pray for miracles to happen so that people can see God -Jesus, King Jesus…alive in their lives reaching each one of them in a personal and real and powerful way. I think a phone app could put that in the palm of their hand and lead them in the way to pray and a fun inactive and powerful miraculous way. JC care instead of Obama Care where they go to the app and pray along with the app and Jesus will show up for all their needs!

I love you guys, thank you for listening to me. I need to go now, Please pray for me, all you wonderful Saints and Angels… Please don’t forget I need your help! Mom, Dad, Jesus, Love, I want to tell you guys that I’m still in this game. Don’t give up on me. I won’t quit! I hope I am not too late for the victory bash! Count me in; I’d love to kick some Lucy booty with you, Mom! Please help me do your will, lead me on. Show me the way… I’ll follow. Love you guys. Gotta go, DB just came home so I need to chat with him. I think we’re going to the Grocery store.

Nite, Love you!

xo,

Hey, ho there! Thank you, Dear God that I am not dizzy today! I am so happy that I feel so much better. Thank you for taking such good care of me! Thank you for spring to be just around the corner! Thank you that I have such a wonderful and loving family! I am so blessed, thank you, Father for everything you give to us. All good things come from you and the list of them would be endless. Thank you doesn’t say enough or even come close to the gratitude I have for my redemption by my Lord, Jesus Christ! This is such a precious gift! I don’t deserve your goodness! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your promise of heaven one day, please make me worthy to live eternity with you. By His blood-I am washed clean of my sin. Thank you, Lord!

Q1– Mom, Thank you for helping me pray. I don’t know how to pray but you come to the rescue and make my weak offerings beautiful in your loving prayer-boosting way. You make my prayers beautiful to Dad and take away my defects of perfect prayer. Thank you that you do this without my asking… being consecrated to Jesus through your heart is the most amazing transformation of prayer. What can I do to thank you and also what do I need to do to make sure you are still able to do this for me?

*** Mar, your consecration will never be revoked. I take all the prayers of my children who are consecrated to Jesus through me and make them perfect, beautiful and effective. All that you need to do is remember me. I am always here with you and I love to talk with you. When you pray the rosary or the Chaplet of Divine Mercy, I am with you in a special way during those times. During that time, I search your heart and pray for your needs to the Father. I also take that prayer offering for people you know and love. All those on your prayer list will always be prayed for in a special way during that time. If you want to thank me, all you need to do is smile and be happy. That helps me know that you are all right and on the path of the Father. We only want you to be joyful. All other things will come through once you relax and enjoy your life to the fullest.

 If you are not joyful, how can you throw an eternal party that people would like to come to? If you have joy in your heart, the party would be a blast if given in that spirit. Don’t you see, dear Mar, that heaven will come down to bring love, light, laughter and peace? If you work against this, it is just not going to work. So, to make me happy, mar, Smile and be happy… We know you have this ability. We’ve watched it in you all your life. That’s one of the reasons why we trust you with EPP, Inc. And Holy Trinity App. Don’t fail us now! You are so close to a breakthrough- hang in there.   Smile and laugh to see your destiny come to you one day, soon.

Q2-Dad, I love you! Thank you for giving me the Blessed Mother. She gives great warm hugs and endless help. What do you think I could do for mom (in addition to smiling and being happy) that would make her especially proud of me?

***As you grow into the virtues of kindness, patience and humility she will be even more proud of her work in you. She already is proud of your growth in many areas, but these three could be improved with her help. You know the reasons why you have a difficult time with these. Soon it will be easier for you. Keep praying to Mother and she will be able to help grow you in these areas- if you ask her.

Q3– Jesus, Help me be a better wife, please. I have much difficulty being kind and loving with the paranoia that I deal with on a daily basis. When I think DB is a “demon” or “evil” I understandably have issues with being kind in such a circumstance. I try to reason with myself that this is not the case, but it really and truly is tiring. Also, it is frustrating and makes me want to cry when I think of it. I know it is much better than it used to be, but I still need to be kinder to DB during those moments. Won’t you help me? He deserves so much better than this.

*** Mar, I love you and you need to know that you are doing a fantastic job with how far you have come. He loves you and really appreciates all you do for him. He understands. He knows. I will help you improve in this way: I will give you peace. Breathe in peace when you are having issues, and I will give you peace.   Do your best and keep improving a little each day. Pray to your mother always for help. The paranoia will go away with a little higher dosage. Maybe you could talk with Dr. W on the 3^rd and ask if 20 mg as a base would be beneficial. He will help you. Take it easy. Rest up. This new levl of zyprexa will help you deal with your difficulties in this area. Actually, it will help in many areas. Keep exercising, too. You’ll get to where you need to be. Just remain patient. We love you!

Q4-Holy Spirit, my Love… can I call you “Love”? I need a name that I can use when we speak to each other. Do you have a name? If you have one, I’d bet it would be “Love”.

*** You make me smile, mar. Yes, you can call me “Love” anytime. The more you speak with me in your heart, the more I will reveal to you about myself. I appreciate you giving me a name in addition to “Holy Spirit”. Also, in the past you have called me “Happy Spirit” which I liked a lot also. But, “Love” is a wonderful name.

Closing:

Love, Big hug and kiss to you. I need you more than ever. Help me come to know you more. Help me talk with you every day. Love, you’re amazing. You lift me up out of darkness and confusion. You light up my life. You calm me and give me peace. How did I live my life before knowing you? You held me up and saved me from myself. Thank you.   XO, ~mar

Thank you that you are seeing to the healing of my jaw. I thank you, Jesus, for your healing power and your presence. Thank you that you make all things turn out for good. Thank you that I am feeling better and soon to be back down to a manageable level of zyprexa. Please help me know what to do about going to Florida. Thank you that I have understanding family and friends. Thank you for your love and protection. Thank you for the beautiful sunshine outside. I love you!

Q1-Dad, Almighty Father, Abba, I love you. What will you be able to do with this suffering? I offer it up to the foot of the cross with Jesus to be offered to you. Please don’t let my suffering be for nothing.

***You have been through a lot since you were diagnosed in 1989. You need to know that each and every ounce of pain you suffered has been offered as a sacrifice for the salvation of lost souls. Be glad that this is possible and rejoice that you are able to help other people in this eternal manner. Your consecration to Jesus through Mary has been instrumental in making this possible. You are very much appreciated and loved by Holy Trinity, Blessed Mother, the angels and saints. We are routing for you and want you to know that you are doing a great job. You will get through this illness in a little while, you will see. I can make good even out of this. You will soon see and agree that much good comes from offering up pain.

Q2-Mom, Thank you for helping me pray and offer up pain and sorrow to God. What do I need to do going forward that could help move along the process of redeeming lost souls? I want to do whatever I can to help you and Jesus save lost souls. Out of my love for you guys, I offer myself as a living sacrifice to help out and do my part. What more should I do this lent?

*** The consecration to Divine Mercy will be instrumental in this process. Please take your time each day on these 33 days from March 1st to the feast day of Divine Mercy. Do the readings, but also journal here and in the book on what you learn and how you feel about what you’re studying. Also, please take time to be in the Presence of God. Rest in the arms of Jesus. Read your books on St. Teresa of Avila to learn why this is so important and how to best go about doing this.

Q3-Jesus, thank you for being my hero. I love you so much! What do I need to learn about this process of my assignment, that will speed up the process or at least get me to where you want me to be in the timeframe you need. I feel as if I am so far behind. I wish I had more preparations musically than I have done so far.

***First of all, never try to speed up the things of God. You must flow with us, not against us. It is easy if you do this. Slow down, Mar. You will get to where we want you to be in the timeframe appointed by God. You haven’t missed anything. You are not far behind. You’re JIT… Just in time. Perfect. No worries. Hang in there. We got this. God has everything planned out. God cannot fail. Just cooperate and you always do, so don’t worry. And also don’t hurry. No Hurry. No worry. 2 things you need to remember. Ok? 🙂

Q4-Holy Spirit, I love you. Thank you for giving me peace. I am so glad that you are with me. You know what I’m going through. This jaw pain and emotional pain from this dang mental illness- you know all that I’m dealing with right now. You see me though everything. Could you talk with me more starting this Lenten season? I want to hear your voice more clearly.

*** I am limited due to the fact that if you hear my voice too distinctly, you may be afraid that it is mental illness symptoms. I work best for you in a quiet manner. Here in the meetings and then also in your heart spoken softly to you. I am sorry it has to be this way for now. Soon you will have your light body and everything will be amazing. Don’t worry; you won’t die to receive your light body. No, you will evolve into it and the process has already started. It will take a few years. I know you think this is crazy talk right now… don’t worry. Everything is unfolding as it should. You will be so thrilled at the difference you will feel when this completes the process. All you need to do is take every day one day at a time. You’ll get there. We love you. Keep coming back to Board Meetings… much work is being done in you while we all meet here. Smile. You’re in good hands.

Closing:

Thank you for all your help. Please don’t give up on me, because I will never give up on you. Give me the grace to have the best lent ever. Help me get back to a lower dosage of Zyprexa so that I am no longer dizzy. Please pray that I have no more issues with paranoia. Love you, you guys are awesome! I don’t know how people can live in today’s darkness without your light and love. Help me share your light with others. Amen. xo, ~mar

Thank you for an understanding family and unconditional love. Thank you that even when I am a grump, they all still love me. Thank you for your unfathomable love and divine mercy. Thank you for the Catholic Church and the communion of saints. Thank you for giving me the Blessed Mother Mary as my own mother. Pray for me. Help me get well soon. Thank you that I was able to catch this episode before it got too scary and down the road into full-blown paranoia and mania. I feel much better already. Thank you for medicine that works so well. Thank you for Dr. W and all doctors that are doing a good job for their patients. Thank you for nurses, too! Thank you for your forgiveness for my selfishness and mean spirit while dealing with this illness… I am having a difficult time being nice right now… I hope I can snap out of this funk soon.

Q1-Dad, when did this illness start revving up? As I look back, I had some great days and I’m wondering if this is when it started. How long have I been sick? My life is a blur. Time is going by so quickly and I don’t know where I am going. I feel like my head is swimming.

***Mar, don’t worry about when you started getting manic. You caught it quickly and that’s all that matters. It took a couple 2 or 3 paranoia instances to get your attention, but you got it right away. Great job! Also, time is seeming to quicken for everyone, but for you, it is magnified. Just try to slow yourself down. You are a hard worker, but you need to slow down and take your time in all things. Impatience will lead you to sin. Love is patient. Love is kind (which requires patience) don’t burn your bridges. Be kind to all but especially to the people you love and who love you.

Q2-Jesus, I feel so completely unworthy of you. My soul must be very dirty and ugly to you. I am so sorry for my sins. Don’t you get tired of people expecting forgiveness and then doing the same sin over and over again? Your patience and love is amazing. Your mercy endures forever. Blessed be God forever!

*** What burdens me is when people don’t come to me for forgiveness. I have all these treasures stored up to give to people that come to me. My mercy is like flames of love that burn me because so many won’t come to me to wipe their slate clean for the Father. Especially when Catholics have the sacrament of reconciliation available to them, and they don’t take the opportunity with happiness but with dread. It should bring them to rejoice in my forgiveness and the graces that come with that. The freedom from sin through repentance is an enormous gift. When people ignore and decline my gift of love and redemption, my heart burns hot in sorrow. Especially when people come with the same sins over and again, I know that they are trying to change. When you come next time to the confessional, why don’t you ask the priest what to do for sins that reoccur? He will have good news for you. Your soul is beautiful, especially after all your sins are forgiven in confessional. Keep coming back. It makes me very happy. I love you, Mar.

Q3-Holy Spirit, I don’t feel like doing anything… this med increase has me slowed down, dizzy, grumpy and mean. I am so upset that I may need to skip my trip to Florida because of this. I am pissed, if you will excuse my language. How can I do anything for God when I feel like this? Why is this so difficult?

***Go to your mother… peaceful dove, she will teach you wisdom… teach you love. Relax- you will be fine. This is just a short delay and blip in your life that you won’t remember in two months. You will be running, playing tennis, and living a great life again once you return to health. It will be soon. You will enjoy the spring. Don’t worry about the trip. You will be where you need to be. I will lead you to the right decision about Florida and in all things with love. Hang in there. You’re doing great.

Q4- Mom, help. What can I do for relief?

*** Spend time with your father in quiet adoration. Talk with him. He has much to share with you. Close your eyes and converse in peace with him. That will give you peace, wisdom and love. This is the key. You are tired. Go ahead and rest in Him.

Ok, thank you for your help. I will go try to relax. Sorry that this meeting is so short. I don’t have much energy, patience or peace right now. I hope this funk goes past soon.  Love you, xo, ~Mar

Happy Valentines Day!  Thank you, God, for giving me a wonderful family that puts up with me! They are so understanding and have true unconditional love towards me. I feel sorry for people that don’t have anyone who love them. The homeless and elderly in nursing homes that have no one to visit them. Thank you for my health. Even though I have difficulties with mental illness, I am blessed with the physical health that can walk, run, laugh, I can work, I am able to love, to think, and to converse with you, Holy Trinity. Thank you for giving me my beloved, DB, who is my best friend. Thank you for Jesus; that he came to heal our soul, body, and spirit. Thank you for not leaving me to myself. Thank you that you guide me and love me. I love you!

Q1-Dad, I need to hear from you. I don’t know what I should do about Florida.

*** Don’t make any decisions now. Rest. See Dr. W. Get in to talk with him next week. He will have a good plan for your recovery. You will be ok. Don’t worry about it. You’re in good shape. You caught it early. We love you. You’re in good hands.

Q2-Jesus, I feel like I’m letting you and everyone else down by not progressing with my assignment. You told me I haven’t lost yet. You told me not to give up. But what should my priority be to get done during this illness and then after?

*** Your number 1 priority right now is to rest, heal your brain, and do what you enjoy. Also, you will need to get your hours in for February. You can do this if you take your time and take breaks. Next week will be a relaxing week if you choose to make it so. Please do. Take your time in all things. The dizzy feelings mean that you need to slow down and stop what you’re doing and relax. Close your eyes and be in my presence. I will heal you if you let me. (Keep taking your medicine of course, but I will help you heal quickly.)

Q3-Holy Spirit, Please help me get through this.

*** Don’t think so much about the future, dear Mar. Keep focused on today. Don’t worry about tomorrow, because today is where you need to be. You feel overwhelmed, I know. It will be ok. Your brain is trying to slow down. Allow it.

Q4- Mom, I love you. Please pray for me.

*** I will, I always do. You will be fine and soon this will just be a distant memory that you will soon forget. Learn from this lesson, though… if you forget to take your medicine, take it as soon as you think of it, no matter what you may need to skip in order to rest. You will be fine. Dr. W will give you a great game plan. You will see him next week. We love you.

Thank you for your love, your assistance, and your prayers.  Xo,  ~mar

Q1-Dad, thank you for giving me DB to love on this journey called life. What plans do you have for us with regard to creating music?

***You will be able to create powerful messages to the listeners. You will have many followers, and also haters. Remember the hate is not for you to take personally. They will hate you because of Jesus. As your dad always said, no good deed is left unpunished. So, prepare yourself. You will be protected; you will receive death threats. Only know that this means you are on the right track (making the right tracks…) and that your suffering should be lifted up to the cross to offer to me along with Jesus’ passion. Many lost souls will be saved. You also will have a blast creating the songs. You will bring much laughter to the world. Many miracles will occur worldwide from the effects of people singing your songs of praise and call for miracles. It will be a revival like none other. It will usher in my Holy Kingdom. You were chosen for this assignment. The only thing you need to remember is this: 1-Love DB more each day as you Enjoy creating music with DB (and soon after many other famous musicians) 2- keep laughing and enjoying this process. 3- Work at it in play and joy while dedicating time to this process each day. 4- most of all, remember “I’ve Got This!” (God’s got this, so I don’t need to worry!)

Q2-Jesus, I adore you! Could you help me love DB more… when I see him as evil (from my illness). It is so hard to be kind, loving, gracious, and joyful when I am feeling that He hates me (symptom of illness). I know it’s in my mind, but what should I do to make this a better situation when it happens. It happens every day. Day in and day out. I’m frustrated with this illness and getting weary.

*** The medicine you are taking will help you with this. Don’t think that these instances of “evil perception” are real. I know that is easier said than done. Have mercy on yourself. We have much mercy and grace for you. We see your struggle. Don’t cry, Mar, because if you only knew how far you’ve come you would know that you are a victor! DB understands. It’s hard on him, too. Try to love him in the little things. Do little things with great love. (Mother Teresa) Each day pray for him. Do favors and surprises for him often. You will feel better on a higher dose of zyprexa. Don’t worry about anything right now, just try to recover from this latest episode and enjoy your downtime with resting in God’s light and love.

Q3-Holy Spirit, you are welcome here. Come flood my home with your presence and love, I beg. I am not worthy of your to come under my roof with your unfathomable Divine Mercy, but only say the word, and my soul will be healed.

***Your soul is healed, Mar. Go with God in peace throughout your week with much grace for loving others. I will guide you. I love you, Mar, and we know your struggles that you’re going through. You’re still on track for the win. You’re playing a rough sport, high contact sport, and this battle you’re facing this month will soon be over. Hang in there. You have much assistance. The saints are praying for you. Angels are protecting you. I am guiding you. Jesus loves you and is running this race right along side you. Mother Mary is giving you the grace to get through this. And Father God is very proud of you, your efforts, your stamina, and your attitude. You will come out of this even stronger, Mar. Your meds may be adjusted up for awhile; we will get you through this. You will be able to go to Tennis lessons on Monday. Don’t worry about anything. Your work will be blessed with many appointments if you pray while working. Try it. It works!!! We love you and appreciate your dedication and efforts. It won’t be wasted.

Thank you! I am so glad that you have got this battle under control. Thank you for allowing me to catch this before it got out of hand. Please let me know next week if I should cancel my trip in March. I would like to go. xo, ~Mar

Hi Ya! Thank you so much for the gift of laughter! You crack me up endlessly. Thank you for giving me family that love to laugh and have a good time. Thank you that you have plans to make all humanity laugh, love and enjoy your Holy Presence. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for helping me get back to some kind of mental health again. Please let Dr. W tell me how long I need to take this medicine and please let it be the perfect advise for my situation. Thank you for zyprexa and that it works so well for me. Thank you for music… for all the music that makes me feel happy. You are awesome for creating a universe of sound waves… eternal music of love. Help me to always tap into that music.

Q1- Dad, I still feel like things are going fast around me… a little dizzy and still feel rushed. A tad bit revved up, perhaps. How long do you say I should keep on the increased level of zyprexa? I haven’t heard back from Dr. W yet…

*** If you don’t hear back from him today, then for the weekend stay on 30 mg. and go ahead and Sunday night keep on 30 mg until you hear back. This is the wise choice, Mar. You want to be healthy for the trip to Florida, so let’s tackle this completely so you can enjoy your time without paranoia. I know you hate this- but believe me- it is the best option. Otherwise, you will just fall back and lose even more time down with the increased meds. We’re really proud of you for catching the symptoms and the initiative you took on Wednesday to manage this illness. You feel a little dizzy right now, so why don’t you get a drink of water, rest a bit and come back after awhile later this afternoon. Ok?

2/12/16   3:40pm

Thank you, Dad. I feel better now… less dizzy.

Q2-Jesus, I love you! What do you think I should do about the trip to Florida in 2 weeks?

*** If you have any doubts about going, your health comes first. You will know a week before how you are doing. To heal the fastest, try to slow down and avoid as much stimulation as possible (movies, being around other people, etc.) Take the next week to really focus on healing: quiet. No pressure. Nothing needs to be done. You will be able to work and that will be relaxing/good for your brain. Try not to make any decisions about Florida until next weekend. ok?

Q3-Holy Spirit, will you please guide me and be close to me? Could you make yourself known to me; speak a tad bit louder for me? I will try to listen more.

*** Right now, it’s best for us to try not to talk too loudly; it may cause you undue instability. Try to nap a lot- don’t worry about anything. I have it all covered. Everyone understands and will help you in the next 3 weeks. Rest up. Take whatever med dosage your doctor tells you to do and take it as long as he says to take it. You’ll be fine. This too shall pass. You won’t need to go to the hospital if you follow Dr.W.

Q4-Mom, thank you for always being with me, even when I don’t think of you or talk with you. I appreciate all that you are doing for me. Thank you for sending your angels to help me. Was that man in front of me at Ash Wednesday mass… was he an angel? Or was that my illness? Also, did he put a bubble of protection around me? It felt like he did once I asked him to. The man to my left seemed evil with bad intentions for me… was all this paranoia on my end?

*** You do have many angels around you. You are protected. The illness and paranoia are more amplified when you are not level on the meds. So, you feel all that is going on around you and detect the spiritual realm more strongly when you need to increase your medicine. Try not to think about this. Just take your meds, rest, follow the Dr. directions. You will be fine. I will pray for you and your healing. Don’t worry about Florida this week. You can decide later (7 days prior to your trip)

Thank you. I appreciate your help, your prayers and your protection. I know there is nothing to worry about in regards to my safety, because I trust in you!

xo, Amen! ~Mar