Here is just a short time for a much needed chat with you, Dad. I am going to just tell you a few things that are on my heart tonight. It is 12:25 am (late Saturday Night) and I just got back from a night out with j, b & db. We went out to hear KF sing at FC. My heart is very heavy thinking of some confusion/words/thoughts about a year ago. Yes, it is hurting me to remember my callousness. Maybe it’s been 2 years now? I was watching Trump at election time and my feelings about illegal immigrants were clouded with all the hate surrounding FOX news that I was watching…. Confusion about what to do with the whole situation. I said some things I regret. I love all people, especially the Hispanic, and I never want to hurt anyone… especially those people who may be hurting. There is so much pain in this country… the news is tearing this country apart with all the hate spewing back and forth on all the news channels. Where is the hope, love, peace, and joy? We don’t get to see it on the news… at least I never did. Disconnecting cable was the BEST thing I ever did. I want no part of the downward spiral of human kindness. God, help me keep my eyes focused on the love you have for all your children. Me amo todos de las personas en la vida. Me amo mucha gentes que estan de Guatemala, Carlos, Claudia, Suzi, Tito, Roberto, Today de las amigos de la escuela ya fui en 1984. El primer Chico que me gusta mucha. The autocorrect keeps changing my Spanish to some other words is driving me crazy and no recuerdo mucho de mi espanol… anyways, tomorrow I need to chat with Carlos on Facebook and see how he is doing. I wonder how his job is going at Dole. I would like to send him a gift. Some dinero. God, how can I make it up to you for the dark and unloving words I think I may have said in my living room when the news was on – spewing hatred and changing my insides to darkness. Please forgive me, Lord. I love you and I love all my fellow sojourners on this planet. I am so sad that there is so much discourse on separation and violence being incited, pitting one group against another. And Lord, what is going on in our schools? How is it possible to even send your children to a place where a shooter may take your child’s life? The utter evil in the world. GOD, help us! What can be done? Only one thing… Jesus, please send your Holy Spirit to each hurting soul on Earth… give each one your personal touch… your love and forgiveness. Your mercy … let it wash over the face of the earth and renew each beating heart to see you… love you and turn from our wrong doing and Run into your arms.
What can I do? There is too much darkness to even imagine I could be a tiny spark that could ignite the world on fire for you… my light is too weak- it would be snuffed out if I even had a chance to talk with anyone – I don’t know what I am doing. But you do. You can have your way with me, if you think I can be of some assistance in sharing your love with people. I can’t even get it right when I speak one to one… I shy away from declaring your love and mercy. I think I would be able to do much better if I could sing about you, along with your help… your signs, miracles and wonders to touch people through music. Music is a universal language and if I sang in tongues, you could let people hear all about you in their native language. My imagination is not very good, but I bet you could do much better than I could ever dream of being able to do.
I only pray, Lord, please help me to be who you want me to be…. Help me be a better example. I pray that you use me in any way you like. I offer myself for your service. I don’t care what cost I must pay. I am willing to die to get this mission done successfully, but only if it would help move along the coming of your Kingdom and help the family business of saving souls. I don’t want anyone of my brothers or sisters to be lost to the enemy. The evil one is upset with me… that’s good, it only means that I am on the right track. Please protect me and the people I love so that the enemy will not gain any ground but be defeated by my warring angels. Thank you, St. Michael and your team… thank you so much for protecting my family/friends and me. I pray that I don’t let you down… even though I know I am not holding anyone up, especially not God… he doesn’t need me to hold him up… he doesn’t need anything I have to offer…. But Dad, I offer you my life in service to you. I love you, Holy Trinity, and I dedicate the rest of my life to attempt to be an instrument of love and peace… in your hands, mold me. Make me who you see me as. Forgive my many sins. Help me love every person… especially the people who I think hate me. Help me love any enemies that are against me.. May I only love them back in a powerful way so they see you in me. Help me see you in them. I love Muslims, even though I don’t understand much, I know they are all your children, too. I am one drop of water in your ocean of love. My fellow journeymen on earth today are all each drops of this same ocean that I am in. Sea of love… come with me, to the sea of love… let’s all walk hand in hand into eternity with God. To the eternal party! God, I don’t want anyone to miss out… I know it is going to be amazing. Help. Us all! Help us all join together, hand in hand… singing with ONE VOICE, about your love and unfathomable goodness, your divine mercy and see what you have in store for all who love you. Jesus, you are the way, the truth and the life! Jesus, I trust in you!!!
~Mar, thank you for your confession. I do forgive you. You will have many people hate you. Make fun of you. Some will want to kill you… you know all this. And you still say, “send me”. Yes, mar, I will send you. I will be with you and you will be protected by my warring army being led by St. Michael the Archangel. Don’t worry about anything. All will be taken care of, leading you on your journey with all you need to be successful. Only you MUST talk with me more. Like this tonight. We need to know what each other wants to know, do, and plan our strategies against evil. Mar, only do “what you see the Father do”. Walk with me. To the sea. The sea of love… I will bless the people that were hurt by your words. They were spoken in the “privacy” of your home. There is no such thing as privacy any longer. All the darkness will be revealed. Nothing is secret. All darkness will be made apparent in the light. Learn your lessons and hold tight to love. The enemy would like to turn every heart against another. Do not let it get your heart again. You are easily tricked. Keep a focus on me, mar… and I will guide you to where you must go.
Don’t let your spirit be pulled down to the pit of hell… keep your thoughts above… on love. On me. On the beauty that is soon to be revealed. Your life is about to change and the light about to dawn a new day. . Have hope and know that I am still on the throne, mar… I rule and so it is time for a change in management! Lucifer is very angry with us because he knows his time is very short and also that together, you and I have a plan to help the world escape his grip. He is very upset with you. Good. Let him be worried. He should be. I am with you. Keep your eyes on me, mar. Don’t worry what others think about you. Just you be you. You are love and your love will shine through. Your dream of ShamRock Studio and Eternal Party People, Inc. is not only your dream. It is what I put into your heart at the beginning of time. For exactly this time in history. You have millions of people who will be with you, fighting this battle. Christians across the world are hoping for God to make a move and rescue the world of darkness. They have no idea how great of a time in history this will be. The time of my power… not my wrath. Wrath comes later, after my kids come back to me… so that only those others who refuse my goodness will face the wrath by their own choice. Terminal stupidity. Who would choose hell over an eternal party? I will make it obvious. Over time, all will know the love, mercy and goodness of God in a personal and real way.
No one will be able to say that God doesn’t love them. Every person will know my heart for them. It will be beautiful. It will be marvelous. It will be powerful and better than you could ever imagine, mar. You are welcome. I am glad that you want in on this plan. You’re a special girl… apple of my eye. I love you, mar.
