Yesterday was a long day -… Holy Spirit Day retreat. It was interesting and I was able to meet a lot of new people. K was cool to meet- a Hindu from Bombay. It was interesting to see him take it all in and I’m hoping he felt comfortable and that he was blessed by the day. I gave him a Holy Spirit “coin” which had scripture on the back. He was funny. I enjoyed meeting him. Hopefully sometime he will come back and try a service some upcoming Sunday. I told him about the healing rooms and prophetic word that the Vineyard always shares after services. At our small group in the afternoon we shared prayer for each other and I was led to sing in tongues. It was actually really fun. The group prayed for courage for me to sing out loud and for the right people to come into my life to help. Actually right now, I’m waiting for D at E Cafe to help me with my recording of “We Made it Through”. I made it with the chord progression D suggested. It turned out ok, I think. Except that I sing out of key on half of it. It was fun to do in Garage Band. It took me about 7 or 8 hours just to get it all down on tracks. I had a blast doing it!

 

Today I had an appointment before the 11:00 service for prophetic word. It was super duper cool… here’s some of the notes I took down while they spoke to me. (It is so awesome, i don’t know why more people don’t make use of the appointments. They had a lot of open slots.)

 

OK, so there were 4 people in chairs across from me and another girl. They took turns talking rotating between her and myself. Here is what they said, and ALL OF IT MADE SENCE to me. I know God was talking to them because I had never met any of these people.

 

The following are comments they expressed/ I took notes: “Joy, Hope is overflowing from you in a different way. That hope is meant to be given away and as it is given away, it doubles- energizing as you give it away”. The word “Solutions”, Insight, wisdom and it looks like you solve the conflict…a system that is not tangled to you. Order- about me, I have a lot of questions sorted out. You apply yourself for God and that is a good place to be… Boldness and -You Live Outloud… In relation to your personality. you are comfortable expressing yourself. “New Horizons”- You may want to ask God what that might mean… I have an image of a vast plain. You are getting ready to take off on a horse. You travel to a new plane quickly in a new direction and God is ready to take you there… You are very adoptable- that’s good! You are “Content” easily and God enjoys that – you can move with Him. God gives you future options and you see developments which you will in time go down those paths… you express your heart to God and He Likes That! You hear God’s Voice.”

 

So for without a doubt, since I never met any of these people, they really got it on the mark! WOW! These people at the VC never cease to amaze me! Love it! I met RM who is in charge of the Pastoral Care (nursing home and hospital visits for prayer requests.) I really am torn because I want to do that in such a bad way. DB is really irritated that I am so busy and need the car so much. I don’t really know if I should maybe wait until next spring to take the classes to train for the P. Care. They are half way through the training and I am so busy with Discover, Friday small group, Healing conference, ukelele practice and recording, exercising, laundry, and not to mention work. I could fit it in somehow, but DB and P were both concerned that I may make myself sick with too much out of balance. I can see that and I respect that. I just so badly want to start up the Pastoral Care visits. I do think that I need to be committed to the time… R said about 2 or 3 hours a week after the training. I could swing that. If it were up to me only, I would jump at the chance, but I think i should maybe listen to DB, P and also M . What do you say, God?

 

*** I think you should take it easy and plan on the full training in the spring. You can wait, it is not going anywhere with out you. In stead, you can read the material before hand. You have the healing conference (3 days) in two weeks, you also can take the training for prophetic word instead. That is just 2 hours and no major commitment- right? You also can practice ukelele more. That is where your real focus needs to be right now. Ok? How does that sound?

 

Good, I appreciate that. I really didn’t know what to do. I want to please you and i want to do your will. I am glad that you don’t want me to burn out and I’m glad there is not a hurry to do all this. I am also relieved that you think I should take the Prophetic training. I would love to be used in that way, also. I am glad you want me to practice the Uke. I know with your blessing on that – i am doing the right thing by going the uke route instead of Guitar. (or other creative outlet) The ukelele really relaxes me and is a kind of strength and power giving me energy! I’ll go ahead and email R and tell that I prayed about it and that you said I should wait. Sounds crazy, but he’ll understand. I appreciate you helping me in everything – when I ask and listen. Please remind me to pray about everything, and to get quiet or journal. I think journaling is the best. I need to take more time here with you. I love you, God. Thank you for sending me your kids so we can all help each other. Help me be of service for you and share all the love you have given to me. love you!