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Thank you for your love, my beautiful Jesus! Holy Trinity, my heart belongs to you. Your love amazes me. You are mine. I am yours. Thank God for that! Thank you for the beautiful gift of faith. Thank you that you have good plans for me. Thank you that you can use a wretch like me. Thank you for your unfathomable Divine Mercy. You are calling us all by name for your great purposes. We are blessed to be in your family. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! Thank you that you are calling us to be a part of your great redemption. Thank you for a fun day of tennis, celebration at your Holy mass and please bless my visit with R. Please help me pray a powerful prayer with the Holy Spirit, we are beleiving for healing on the CP he struggles with. Thank you that R will be able to feed himself and drive his wheelchair. Thank you for your healing power through the Holy Spirit. Thank you that you hear our prayers. Thank you for everything. You are so good to me. I love you.

 

Scriptures Dec. 21st

Song of Songs 2:8-14

I love this passage. I love that Jesus is my beloved and I am His. Let me see you, let me hear your voice. Your voice is sweet. Your love is divine. You make me shine. The fig tree puts forth its figs, and the vines, in bloom, give forth fragrance. Yes, the time is near for your return. Arise, my beloved, my dove, my beautiful one, and come! Let the future begin! I am alive on God’s great dance floor. Let the party begin. Let the bridegroom come soon. Help me be ready for Him. I love you, Holy Trinity!

 

Zephaniah 3:14-18a

Thank you that you have removed the judgment against me. I know Lucy has accused me of many things, and I am sorry to have given him reason to bring such accusations against me. Thank you for your mercy, Dad. Thank you for sending Jesus to save me from these sins and many mistakes in my life. Thank you for sending the Holy Spirit to purify my soul and heal my wounds. Thank you for being so happy about my return home, that you sing joyfully because of me, and you sing as if at a festival. Help me sing along with you. (In tune please)

 

Psalm 33

Sing to him a new song… on the lyre I would like to skillfully chant for you praises, lifting up my heart in love and gratitude to you. You are my help and shield. For you my heart rejoices and in your holy name I trust! The plan of The Lord stands forever… blessed is the nation whose God is The Lord, the people he has chosen for his own inheritance! Lord, let the United States repent and turn to you. You have all good things in store for us if only we could turn back in love towards you and your will. Please make sure that the person that is voted into the Presidency will be true to your son and do the will of God in all things. I pray your will be done in this area.

 

Luke 1:39-45

From Elizabeth we get the Hail Mary prayer. Thank you that Elizabeth greeted the Blessed Mother, for in her example, we give Mary honor and praise.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with you. Blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of your womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for me, a sinner, now and at the hour of my death. Amen.

 

Q1-Father God, could you give me courage like none other and strength for the journey. The grace for long suffering in patience and with love…

Mar, you are fearless, what are you talking about? You have always been courageous. If you need a little more, you can count on me giving it to you. You have asked for a very beneficial grace. You will have all that you need for the mission. Thank you for asking; if you need more courage and boldness, I will be sure that you have it.

 

Q2-Mom, you are my momma in combat boots! Will you take it upon yourself to be sure I don’t get squashed in this battle? Protect me with your warring angels and allow me to feel their presence, to know I have nothing to fear. Your protection is priceless and I lean on your watchful guard. With you, I am secure in each footstep.

Yes, Mar, I will always be on watchful guard as I have since you were born. I will catch you if you fall and I will be sure to have Angels take over whenever you may need help. You can count on me, the angels who love you take good care of you. Your guardian angel loves you so much. Don’t forget to thank her! Her name is Edwina! Isn’t that a great name? lol! We thought you would get a smile on that one! You can ask her for assistance. She would really like that. She can help you when you pray for healing, as she can coordinate new body parts to be delivered to the sick when you lay your hands in prayer.

 

Q3-Holy Spirit, I love you. Could you create in me a spirit that can sing beautifully in tongues- a voice that shines like the sun with love for everyone. Could you give me the grace to sing new songs to Father God that will help move other people’s spirits when they hear it. I don’t naturally have a beautiful voice, rather an out of tune and unskilled voice. Please cause a creative miracle on my voice to transform it to what you have in mind for this mission/assignment. I need a lot of help!

Hahaha, ok, we’ll work on that. Keep praying for this. It is a miracle to press in on in prayer. You will be surprised at your own voice. For it shall praise God like none other in the history of the world. People will love the song/prayers and be moved to tears, laughter, joy and their regret for past sins will be turned to forgiveness from God. Many will be saved, Mar. Keep pressing in for this creative miracle to occur. It will in time, but only with much prayer and fasting.

 

 Q4-Jesus, You are last in line today, but I’ve saved the best question for last. Jesus, in today’s reading in Song of Songs, I really felt your love for me through the scripture. I wanted to thank you for the love you have for each one of us. It must be so sad to love your beloved so much only to get in return much indifference and even strong dislike for your most precious and holy name. I am so very sorry. I know at times in my life, I also have caused your heart wounds. How can I make it up for you? Is there anything I can do for you to help your tender heart heal from those wounds?

Thank you, Mar, for wanting to do something to help me heal my holy and loving heart. You can do 2 things: #1 know that my mercy is endless but that my beloved spouse, the church, needs to ask for forgiveness for their sins. Otherwise, I cannot redeem them from the evil one. I paid the price on Calvary, but many are not asking for the most necessary thing which is forgiveness– if they don’t ask for forgiveness, legally, then Lucy will have access to their souls for all eternity. It’s that serious. My heart is most wounded because many will not be with us eternally at the party; instead they will be apart from all that is good- in agony forever with Lucy. That breaks my heart. So, what I ask of you is to warn people in your music and in person when you can. Stand up for truth. Be courageous and bold. #2 The second thing you can do for me is to smile, love, be joyous, laugh and sing your songs. Enjoy yourself. Love much and offer it to everyone; love all people- especially your enemies- even if they want to kill you. There will be many Muslims that will not like you and what your singing about. Do not worry about your safety, but love them as I have loved my enemies. You can do this. I will give you the grace for it.

 

Closing Thoughts/Prayers: Thank you for your help and advice. I will try my best, and you guys will do the rest. I open up my heart for you and your family. Help me be who you want me to be. Help me love more. Help me not be afraid. Help me be bold and courageous. Give me the grace to sing even when people will hate me just because of the words I say. There is power in your name, Jesus! No lie can stand against us, I am made strong in Christ. For all things are possible with you, God. Holy Spirit- break through! Happy Spirit, break through – break in on us! Save us, Holy Trinity! Jesus, I love you! Have your way in me. Help me break into prayer when you find it an opportune time. Help our family on Earth all come home to you! xo,

~Amen!!!

 

Thank you for your love and mercy. I am grateful for this day. DB and I have fun plans to shop and go see the new Star Wars movie. Tonight we will mess around with the pedal board and use the loop/flange on Kashmir on Uke. Thank you for the free time to relax and enjoy our weekends. Thank you for a wonderful Advent and family gatherings this Christmas. Thank you for the blue sky and beautiful view outside our back yard. Thank you for all the birds, cranes, ducks and geese that are so fun to watch while I’m working. Thank you for our jobs and the funds to pay our bills. Thank you for blessing me with all this and so much more. You are amazing, Dad and I are so glad you and Jesus have a plan for saving us all here on planet earth. We need your help badly! Holy Spirit, we need a break through revival like none other! Come and heal our sick and broken hearted. Thank you that you are here with us! Thank you that you love us and will always take care of us. Pour your grace into our hearts, come Holy Spirit, enkindle my heart with the fire of your love.

 

Scriptures Dec 20th

Micah5: 1-4a

It says, “His greatness shall reach to the ends of the earth.”

Could you use little ole me in any way for this revealing and reaching out to your people? Would you like to have a tool like the Trinity App? JC care (we wouldn’t need Obama care anymore; it’s broken and your people need healing!) Food Multiplication feature, prayers in song for miracles- an app of your design, Lord. If you think it’s a good idea, just let me know. I’m open to changing jobs. Use Me, Lord. I would love to work full time for you. I don’t need much. But I do need free time, a studio space, and some start up money. So, if you would like to invest in Eternal Party People, Just know I am ready anytime. Maybe we could look into a jackpot win from the Hoosier Lottery? Could you use that avenue or something better? (Illinois isn’t paying their lotto winners since our state is about bankrupt!) Well, whatever you have in mind is fine with me. I’m just waiting on your lead. Your greatness will reach the ends of the Earth and every knee will bow to your Glorious Love and Kindness. Come Lord, Jesus!

 

Psalm 80

Show yourself and we shall be saved-

yes, you did show yourself but were rejected. Lord, thank you for saving us. Look down on us and take care of this vine, and protect what your right hand has planted. Give us new life, and let every person call upon your name. I am sorry you were rejected; help me bring your love to lost souls.

 

Hebrews 10:5-10

Behold, I come to do your will. By this “will”- we have been consecrated through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.

Thank God for your sacrifice, Jesus. Thank you Father for your wonderful plan of salvation! Please come soon and finish the work you have in mind and let me help you in any way you need.

 

Luke 1:39-45

Hail Mary, Full of Grace

Elizabeth knew that the savior was in Mary’s womb and she was blessed by the visit. John leapt inside Elizabeth when they first met here in this scripture. Thank God for Mary saying Yes! And thank you for giving her someone to share the wonderful news with.

 

Q1-Mom, I want to always say yes to Jesus. Could you help me stay true to my word, that I will always do what he asks of me? I can’t do this on my own, but with you and the Holy Spirit, I can do all things.

We are so glad that you say yes. You don’t know all that this entails. There will be many trials, but we will work with you and get you through it all. Just do your best. Don’t beat yourself up if you don’t get every single thing right. There is much mercy available for you. You have a good heart and good intentions; we can use that. We love you and we all are helping you: Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit, Angels, saints, and me… you are well equipped and ready for battle. It will be a glorious party and you will love your decision! Yay for the Yes! I will always be helping you, coordinating every step with all that you need. For all grace from God will flow through my fingers out to my children.

 

Q2-Dad, Thank you for the 7 again last night. I love you and I love your little hints that you give me to keep going on in faith. Just for asking’s sake: could I win the Powerball tonight?,…7!!! If you don’t want me to ask anymore or play it anymore, you will need to tell me. Otherwise, if not, I will keep hoping, keep playing, keep asking and praying for it. I am tenacious. I think you like that about me?

Hahahhahahah, Mar, I love you. It’s not Christmas yet…

 

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Q3-Jesus, when you come in glory, could I be near you and see your beautiful face always and for all eternity? I need to be with you. I love you. I long for your return.

Mar, you are my bride, of course you will be with me all eternity. I long to be with you and all the church and to enjoy the eternal party with my people!!!!

 

Q4-Holy Spirit, help me get closer to you so I can hear what God is saying to me. I really want to be an instrument in your hands. Holy Spirit, Happy Spirit, Will you please take over me – wash over me and fill me up with your powerful healing love so I can share it with my friends? My friend RW has CP. He needs your healing badly. He can no longer feed himself because of the progressing disease. I will visit him and I ask you to flow your healing power through my prayers for him. Heal him enough so that at least he can go back home feeding himself, able to drive his chair around and get back to Church to praise you for his healing. Let him sing and run and shout your praises to the world. Let him and his healing be a proof of your healing power and so he can bring many to know you and love you. By your miraculous power, through Jesus, you can do anything. Please heal R.

Mar, you need to pray for him. Visit him the next 2 weeks and pray for him. You will see the break through you seek if you believe, and have love in your heart for him and others that need your prayers. You will see breakthroughs. Keep the faith. Keep praying. We love R’s sense of humor and we desire his healing very much. It’s a spiritual battle. Prepare yourself and pray about this often. A great revival is coming soon. Many will be healed of all kinds of terrible diseases. Lucy is shaking and about to cry!!! He is very angry, too bad for him. He loses the battle… remember how the good book ends, Mar? He loses. We win. Amen? Amen!

 

Closing: Thank you you guys for your help and love and kindness! Please be with me this day and show me your way. Help me pray well and in the spirit when I go to meet with R. Please give me courage to pray for him in front of DB and anyone else in the room. Please heal R! Oh, and I’d love to win the lotto tonight. (I had to get that in again…)

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xo!!!  ~amen.

 

Thank you for a fun lunch date today with my dad. He is so fun to hang out with and joke around with. Thank you for so many things that you have given to us; our home, heat, food, clothes, comfy blankets and a Christmas tree just for starters… you spoil me, Daddy. Thank you for always taking such good care of me and for putting a loving family into my life. Thank you for my marriage and that we have survived all that Lucy threw into our relationship. Thank you for DB’s steadfast love and for hanging in there when things were difficult. Especially, thank you for him not giving up when I was so sick. He is my soulmate! Thank you for giving him to me for life. He’s my best friend and love of my life. Thank you, Dad, for picking him out for me. I don’t deserve him, but I will try to make up for all my past mistakes in our marriage and make up for it. Thank you- for giving us the gift of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior.

 

Scriptures Dec 19 2015

Judges 13:2-7,24-25a

God, you work in wondrous ways. You prepared Samson from before birth to be set aside for a good work for you. I wonder if you had a plan for me to do a good work for your Kingdom… wouldn’t it be wonderful to be set aside for such an awesome project. If you did, what could you have done to prepare me more for it? I wonder if my struggles with mental illness is hindering your plans for my assignment or helping me with it? Maybe I can be used to help usher in your Kingdom in spite of my struggles with mental illness? One can only hope.

 

Psalm 71

My mouth shall be filled with your praise, and I will sing your Glory! I depend on you, God. You give me all strength to endure and become victorious. Oh God, I will sing of your mercy and justice. I will proclaim your wondrous deeds! Help me have a voice that sounds pleasing and to bring joy and laughter to people sharing the love and joy of your love.

 

Luke 1:5-25

Zachariah didn’t believe the angel’s message that his wife would become pregnant. It was proven to him by taking away his speech! Lord, Help me to believe what you have in store for me to do for your Kingdom, help me have even more faith, to never quit, to always hope, and to always be grateful for the honor of serving you. Lord, if you send me an angel, I would be grateful, happy, and I would not doubt. But even though you may not send an angel, I will still be grateful, happy and I will not doubt but I would believe – I do believe. Help me not be confused and on the wrong agenda. Keep me focused on your work- on your kingdom come.

 

Q1-Dad, Since the bible says that there will be a war that will kill 1/3 of humankind, World War III, is it possible that we could pray it away and somehow change the prophesy so that this catastrophe does not come to pass?Mar, with God, anything’s possible. Don’t put me into a box. Ok? Believe for the best, pray and don’t worry about anything. I have it all under control and My Will is always done. Don’t think about such things, but only look to me for guidance. I will shine a light on your path to travel. Don’t look left or right. Follow me and I will lead you on. Forget the rest- don’t try to figure it out, don’t worry about a thing and know that I have you in the palm of my hand. I will protect you always. I love you, Mar.

 

Q2-Mom, I was wondering about the past and how many times I’ve come close to death or serious injury… do I have a maximum number of times when I can get help from your angels? I know I’ve kept them busy! I will try to be much more careful.

Yes, your driving used to be a little reckless and sometimes you still speed, but no- you won’t run out but NEVER test your angels. They love you. They will help you. But if you put it to the test, you will be surprised at the outcome and not be in very good shape. Your angels love you and you have many warring angels assigned also to protect you at all times. You don’t need to worry about terrorist attack where you are, or when you go out. If you knew the protection available and at your service, you would be astonished. You are much loved.

 

Q3-Jesus, are you excited that your birthday is coming up so soon? Only a few more days… I can’t wait to celebrate but honestly, I am having a wonderful Advent and preparing for your birthday is just as fun as your special day in a way. Help me have a safe, peaceful and joyous time with my family.

I love seeing the earth with joy, preparations with extra lights and gifts, but my heart goes out to the people that are in sorrow from lost love ones, and families that hate one another, war, starvation, and evil in the world…people that don’t know my Mercy and that that is the whole reason that I came… to share my mercy and love of the Father with the whole world. At Christmas, I mourn for those people that don’t know me or are in need. I am comforted by the love that many pour out at this time of year. It soothes my aching soul. I truly mourn the loss of my family members, the lost souls. Mar, would you help them come home to me?

Yes, Jesus, I will do whatever you ask of me, if only you give me the strength, courage, talent, and right words to speak/sing. I would do anything for you. Use me, Lord. Make me into your instrument of Love, Mercy and Peace. I adore you. Happy birthday (soon) You Reign! You are our savior, Lord and King.

 

Q4 Holy Spirit, I need you! Please help me grow in my relationship with you. I want you to empower me to know the will of God and then to do the will of God. Won’t you please take over everything? I am a willing vessel to be used by the Holy Trinity. Don’t let me mess up the plans God has for me. I really would love to start the next chapter… could you ask baby Jesus if it is our turn? This game is dragging on, yet I know not my time, but God’s perfect timing. Let’s turn the page and get this party going! I am so ready to step into the cockpit, 5,4,3,2,1 blast off… blast off… It’s a go …

You never cease to make me laugh, Mar! You catch the tiniest of details and catch our signals and hints that we plant in your walk. Kudos, Mar! Yes, soon we will be turning the page, taking off to the moon. Soon. Don’t worry. Enjoy each and every day! It’s all good! Each day is a gift, right?

 Right-o! I see that the jackpot is getting pretty big…

 

Closing Thoughts/Prayers;

Yes, it is getting pretty big, and I am ready if it is ok with God, I’m game for it! Let’s roll! Let’s get the eternal party-planning going! I am filled with hope and expectation… just like you ask us to do in the bible. I know I’m asking for something Huge. But God asked me to think God’s sized goals. Because I can do nothing by myself, BUT- with God, all things are possible! Jesus, you are in control. Just tell me my next step to take. You lead, I will follow. ~amen!

xo!

Thank you so much for your blessings. Thank you for our jobs and income that provides for all our needs. Thank you for family, love and laughter. Thank you for letting me have the luxury of having my house cleaned today. Thank you for the hard workers; please bless them and all people that are working such difficult jobs like this. Thank you for your forgiveness, love and patience with me. Thank you that you tell me not to give up- and that you are for me. If you are for me, then who or what can be against me? Thank you, Father for asking me to come to your Board Meetings. Please use me for your purposes and let me be your living enterprise. Lead me in the ways you have for me. Equip me and empower me with the Holy Spirit so that I can be successful in all things.

 

Shortcomings/Sin: Father, in the last day, I have really blown the boundaries of eating when hungry at a growl and stopping at a 5. Yesterday, I binged on foods I should not be eating. Forgive me for vandalizing your Temple, help me to restore it by following your lead. I am so sorry, help me to change. Lift me up so I can fly over the food’s temptation.

 

Scriptures for Tomorrow: Dec. 18th

Jeremiah 23:5-8

? I don’t know much about the Old Testament and its foreshadowing. So, I am not sure if this is speaking of the future in the New Jerusalem still to come. It says Israel shall dwell in security. I think this will be when Jesus returns. If so, if that is the meaning of this passage, then I say, “Come Lord Jesus, bring peace, security and freedom for your people.”

 

Psalm 72:

Amen, Justice shall flourish in his time, and fullness of peace forever. Jesus, only you can bring eternal peace. We really need you and your loving mercy to forgive us and set us free. Blessed be Jesus forever

 

Matthew 1:18-25

Thank God that Joseph was not afraid to take Mary as his wife when he found out she was pregnant. Thank God that the angel of The Lord came to him in a dream and told him that it was through the Holy Spirit that her Child has been conceived. Thank God Mary said “yes”! Help me to always say “yes” to whatever you have in mind for me to do. No matter the cost, I want to say “yes” to you and your plans. Please give me the insight and signs to follow your leading. Speak to me and share with me your plans- so I can dutifully work towards this assignment each day now and forever.

Have your way with me, Come Holy Spirit. Lead me on.

 

Q1- Ok, Dad, I have a question for you! How am I doing? Am I on the right track or have I gotten too far off the path you have for me?

Each step you take, I have blessed and each step you took was ordained to be. In the fullness of time and space; I know the plans I have for you and I know what you will do with them. I know all the past, present, and future steps you take, have taken and will tak-; by your own choosing. Let me just tell you that you are the right person for this assignment, you have done wonderfully and you are doing wonderfully and you will in the end do wonderfully. You fight the good fight. Holy Trinity is with you and you will ultimately be successful, victorious in your calling, and many will be appreciative. It’s ok to know that you will be loved by many people. Don’t worry what people will think. Only do as I lead you and your love of Jesus will win the battles -culminating in a mighty league of victorious armies of love. Love wins. It’s that simple. Thank you for helping with this cause. You will be empowered, equipped, and enlightened as needed. Keep the faith, Mar. We love you.

 

Q2- Mom, I need your help with this battle of the bulge. Could you intercede for me in regard to eating 0-5? I blew it yesterday and I don’t know what to do. I am getting bigger and only want to get smaller and healthier. Would you be so kind to work with me in this area? Will you coordinate and run this race with me?

Thank you for asking for my help. I would love to work with you, lead you in eating decisions and intercede on your behalf for forgiveness when you slip. You will become your God-Given size when you speak with me and allow me to lead you, help you and encourage you. I will give you the grace you need. You only need to ask each day for this grace. We will do this together. Your Dad, Jesus and Holy Spirit will also help you in anything you need with this life-change. You will melt down to your intended size. Don’t believe the lies that Lucy tells you, but believe that you will be victorious with our help in this area.

 

Q3-Jesus, Dr. W yesterday asked me if I thought you were married when you lived on earth. I told him that I didn’t know for sure, but that it was never mentioned in the scriptures that you were married. I said “All will be revealed.” (and laughed) but I would like to ask you this question. I know that the church is your bride. So, were you married and did you have any children?

Mar, the church is correct in this teaching. I never got married or had any children. I was too busy bringing my teaching of the Kingdom that I could not have time for a wife. I loved everyone and received love from my disciples, my mother, Mary and others. I am waiting for you and the Church to become my bride. You, my dear Mar, won’t believe what I am about to tell you. You will think it is your illness speaking. That’s ok, it’s just you and me here. I want you to now know that you will be my beloved in eternity. You have a special place in my heart. You will become, in a special way, my bride in eternity and we will have the whole church join in the wedding feast. I know you think this is your illness and grandiose thoughts right now. I know you are confused. That’s ok. All will be revealed. I love you.

 

Oh, My Jesus, Help me be worthy of your love. I am not fit to be your wife. I know the church is your bride… Make me pure and forgive me of all my sins. Please help me become who you would like me to be. I love you so much my heart is about to burst. I am so sorry for my sins that you took lashes for at your passion. I am so, so very sorry. Please forgive me. Please forget all that I’ve been and all that I’ve done to hurt your most pure and loving heart.

 

Q4-Holy Spirit, since I was just told about Jesus’ marriage proposal (By telling me that I will be his special bride… aren’t we all each special in his heart?) you have a lot of work to do! haha, I mean it! You have A LOT of work to do in me. I know I’ve come far in my walk with Jesus, but honestly, I am far from worthy and far from being any kind of bride to the only name all will bow to, my Jesus the Christ, my beloved. Help me, H.S, help me become a fit wife. Lead me to become who you want me to be for Him.

My friend, Mar, We do have a lot of work to do, and we have completed much work already. You are going to be just fine. Don’t panic. We will get this transformation in full gear. Keep doing the review each day and keep coming to these board meetings. (You missed yesterday, but we’ll let it slide this one time.) When you least want to come to our meeting, is when you need it the most. We really need you to commit to daily board meetings. This is our time with you and you will most definitely benefit from this time together. Here is where we can tell you what we need you to do. Here is where you will learn many things. We love you. You will be fine. You are doing great. Keep the faith, you will be transformed and you will be a fit instrument for our peace. Blessed be God Forever!

 

 Closing Thoughts/prayers: Thank you, Holy Trinity, for the work you are doing in me. Thank you, Mother for coordinating this work in me and for helping me, interceding for me and taking such good care of me. I don’t know what to say, except, may God’s will be done, Your Kingdom Come! On Earth as it is in Heaven! Amen and amen! Help me to be who you want me to be. Help me not to sin so much and help me continue to confess my mistakes and turn from them, learn from them, and become the saint you call me to be. (You call each person to be a saint, so I know I’m not special in this regard.) I love you, Dad. Thank you for this day. Help me enjoy myself this afternoon with my dad and doing the jingle bells for his drum gig. Help me keep time! haha, I love him. Please bless him and my mom with long life, good health, prosperity, peace, joy and lots of laughter. We always have a good time, together. Please bless our time when we are together. Please bless my marriage and help us with our daily struggles and needs. Help us get even closer than we are and lead us to much love, laughter, peace and harmony. I love you guys, you’re the best friends anyone could ever want. Help me share you with the world in song, trinity app, and by example. Help me be a more loving and better example. Please keep me in your love and protection.  ~Amen. xo!

Thank you for this gorgeous day! It’s sunny and even warm outside! Should be good traveling weather for Christmas! Thank you for mom and dad, DB, our families and all my friends. You have an amazing family around the world, Thank you for sharing them all with us. Thank you for being in control with everything: The economy, the government, world affairs; you make everything turn out for your good purposes. Thank you! Thank you for keeping me in your palm and for leading me in the way you need me to go. Thank you for helping me be who you want me to be. Thank you for your promises: that you’ve “got this”, that you are in control and there is nothing I need to worry about. Thank you that you’ve “Got everything under control” that this world will soon become heaven on earth with Jesus Christ ruling; I can’t wait! Please let it be in my lifetime and please allow me to offer myself for your service. If you have a job for me to do, I am eager to get started! You said it is going to be “more amazing than I could ever imagine.” Praise God for that word of hope! I say amen, and AMEN- So be it, Lord! Amen.

 

Shortcomings: Last night I went to reconciliation and confessed everything I could think of that has happened since December 5th. I have kept a record of my shortcomings to confess and I think it was pretty thorough. Thank you for your divine mercy- you rock, Dad! Thank you, Jesus! So since last night, I can think of a few things from already today: I was rushed around doing errands but I was polite, I just was not at peace in my inner being. Please help me to focus on you and on being patient. Also, I ate too much for lunch. Please forgive and help me to follow your cues for hunger/fullness.

 

Scriptures for December 17th:

Genesis 49:2, 8-10

? I’m not sure what the story is about. Maybe I could make it to Church in the morning to see what this is about…

 

Psalm 72

Amen! I love this psalm. Yes, All creation will proclaim his happiness! Come soon, Lord Jesus. You will defend the afflicted among the people and save the poor! You rule from sea to sea, justice true and trustworthy.

 

Matthew 1:1-17

Yes. Lord- you had been long awaited for your birth when you came as a baby. Now, I await your return for your glorious kingdom. Come soon, Jesus! We need you!

 

Q1-Jesus, you know what I’ve been though with the struggles I face everyday. Struggles with thoughts that seem true but very well could be thoughts stemming from mental illness. Please help me sort them out and to have strength to endure and press on.

Mar, your dad and I, our Mother and the Holy Spirit; all of us know what is going on. We will always provide you with the support, strenth, patience, wisdom for you to continue on your assignment. The Holy Spirit will EMPOWER you with strength to carry you onward. You are doing a great job. We know all that is happening to you and we promise that we will make it all work for good. You will be repaid for your efforts. In heaven, you will be restored completely. We love you. Hang in there.

 

Q2– Mom,thank you for your love. You are so good to me. Thank you for helping me with all that is going on. I trust in you and I offer all my prayers and good works up to your hands. Please distribute them to the people that most need them. Please remember my family and also my mission. Please help me to be who God wants me to be. Please form me into the person Jesus would like to have for a spouse.

Mar, I gladly accept your renewed consecration to Jesus through me. I will always remember to help you and listen to your prayers. You can count on me to distribute in the most perfect way all your deeds, prayers and actions to our Lord. I will make your offerings perfect and beautiful before I offer them up. You can count on me and also you can always count on the protection from your angels.

 

Q3-Holy Spirit, I love you. Thank you for being my best friend. Help me to know you better and to love you even more. Much more. Please help me to sing in tongues, and remember to spend time with you. Never leave me, Please.

Mar, I could never leave you. I am rooted firmly within your heart and mind and soul. I am empowering and uplifting your spirit at all times. I love you and thank you, Mar, for your friendship. We will have many, many, many wonderful times just up ahead. It’s going to be better than you could ever imagine!

 

Q4-Dad, I really want to thank you for this wonderful day. It is beautiful outside and it just reminds me that each day is a gift from you- a precious and glorious gift. Help me to always be grateful for each new day. You are so generous. Thank you for giving me this day. Thank you for you unfathomable goodness and your generosity is unending. I can’t thank you enough. I love you, Abba. Father God. Daddy. Pappacito! You rock!

Hahaha, you crack me up, Mar. I love you, too.

signed~Pappacito

 

Closing words: Thank you- you guys for another beautiful time together. Help me keep you alive in my heart and commune with you each moment in prayer and in your light, love, and presence. Please help my family and friends with all their intentions. Please bless all who are traveling this Christmas. God bless the plans he has for me and DB. Please bless our marriage. Thank you! xo,

~Mar

Thank you, Holy Trinity for your gift of love to the world. Thank you for saving us and giving us eternal life with you for the party of all time for all of eternity. Lord Jesus, you rock my world! My King, my love, my -everything… help me love your more! Help me to not hurt you anymore… help me to live a pure and loving life for your glory. Thank you for the gift of faith and the gift of being grafted into your family. Thank you, Dad for calling me your daughter. Thank you for Advent season, help me prepare for your coming as best as I can. Thank you for leading me in all things. Help me obey your lead and empower with your most Holy Spirit to do your will at all times. Help me lay down the sin of overeating and help me get to my God-Given natural healthy size and weight. Thank you for your help in all things. Thank you for friends and for my family. I love them so much. Thank you especially for DB. Lord, bless my marriage and give me the grace to love him better and more completely with words, deeds and prayers for him.

 

Shortcomings/areas of Sin in the last day: Lord, show me what areas you would like me to work on and become more aware of what you would like me to change. Help me focus on you and your works, your love, your will for my life in all areas; especially in the area of food consumption. Forgive me for not looking to you before I eat and to know when to stop. With your forgiveness and help in the future, one day at a time, I believe you can help me lose this stubborn weight problem that I have had my whole life. I am sorry for my gluttony and idol of food. Please forgive me and lead me in the right decisions with regard to what I eat. I offer myself, and my food to you as a sacrifice for your glory to show my love to you. Help me offer myself in this way to create a beautiful tabernacle for your most Holy Spirit to dwell in. Amen.

 

Scriptures: Dec 15th

Ponder/What am I thinking?

 

Zephaniah 3:1-2, 9-13

Trust in The Lord. Draw nearer to God.

I need not be ashamed of all my past deeds since I trust Jesus; God’s beloved son that He sent to free me of sin and wipe away all my tears. Serve God and help bring together a remnant of Israel. Live a life free of sin, speak no lies; no deceitful tongue; pasture the flocks and none will disturb us. We shall rest in The Lord, at peace and with joyful singing we will lead many to Jesus.

 

Psalm 34:

God hears my cry. Help me to always praise you and let my soul glorify you always. I look to Jesus that my face may not blush with shame. God hears my distress and saves me always. Trust in God. He is good always. He is close to me, a poor sinner that is brokenhearted looking at the world as it is. He saves me in my distress. He rescues me. I incur no guilt because I take refuge in Jesus’ Divine Mercy. Jesus, I Trust in You!

 

Matthew 2:28-32

To do the will of God is my life’s goal. I am renewed in my spirit for good works in Christ’s agenda. Help me do your will always. Help me lead others to believe in Him.

 

Q1-Dad, thank you that you are in divine time and have all things ordered for a specific day and hour. Will you help me continue to be faithful in knowing that if you are going to invest in EPP through the lottery, could you help me remember that “with God, Anything is Possible.” If this is not your will, please take this desire away from me, but if it is your desire that I continue to play, please give me the grace to be joyful every time I lose and give me the strength to continue to hope and believe and to not be to terribly disappointed when my numbers don’t come in. (Oh and by the way, just to remind you: my numbers are: …and 7 Just incase you forgot)

*** hahahha, Mar, you crack me up. I haven’t forgotten. You are in the palm of my hand. I’ve got this! Leave everything up to me. You are in a good spot and you are taking the right steps Don’t fret a thing, but enjoy every day of Advent and be happy and grateful that you are well taken care of always. I will equip you and Holy Spirit will empower you in all things. I will give you all you need: Strength, insights, love, protection, stamina and good thoughts. Don’t worry about a thing. I love and cherish you, Mar.

 

Q2-Jesus, I feel so sad that I have hurt you so much in the past. Help me to not do anything in the future that wounds you. Please forgive me for all the past thoughts that were harmful to your precious heart. Help me to catch each thought that is not in accordance with your will or thoughts against your sacred heart.

*** Mar, I love you. Your sins are forgiven. My heart is healed by your love. Nothing could ever separate my love from you. You are bathed in my forgiveness and mercy. Thank you for being so attentive to catch thoughts and hold them captive to my will. Holy Spirit will help you with this also.

 

Q3– Holy Spirit, thank you for all your help. Help me be who Jesus would like me to be. Will you help me be more loving towards DB?

*** Yes, Mar. I will help you in all things; especially in this area. DB needs your love and attention very much, especially now. I will give you ideas, but all you need to remember is to ask: What deed, word and prayer can I do for DB today? Be faithful to this, and you will see much growth and love increased by this method of giving yourself more fully to God’s will for your marriage.

 

Q4- Mom, help! I have so much need of spiritual growth that I need your help in sorting it all out. Will you coordinate my growth in Jesus, please? Will you send your spouse, the Wonderful Counselor, to help me with this? I’m feeling a little overwhelmed in my weaknesses and lack of love.

*** Mar, of course I will help you. We have made great strides together in just a few short months already. I will help you be who God wants you to be, by your desire for this- you make us all very happy. Stay sure and steadfast in pursuit of this goal. You will see amazing things in your future. Don’t grow weary, or faint. We are going to have a blast and many wonderful things are in store for you and DB.

 

Closing Prayer/thoughts: Again, thank you so much to all of you that are helping me. I can’t thank you enough! Thank you for this time together. Please help me to always come to these daily board meetings. It takes some time, but God will provide the time necessary. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Please be with UM and help him mentally. Please stop the progression of Alzheimer’s and restore his memory. Please be with C during this time and give her the Strength she needs; and help her with the legal battle. Please work in her life and stop the continuing harassment from the enemy. Please be with my cousin, A. Heal her husband, C with a new heart. Give them long life with much laughter with their baby daughter, Z. Please give my mom a successful eye surgery with quick recovery. Please give my dad a strong and renewed heart and all of his organs renewed. Please help my dad with all of his health issues, give him long life, healthy and prosperous, along with my whole family. xo,

Amen!

Thank you, God for a wonderful induction ceremony this morning after mass. I really appreciated that DB came along. Thank you for that gift. Thank you for family, especially for the wonderful parents you have given to me. Thank you for always being here for me no matter what is going on I know that you are always here for me. You are amazingly good and I am so grateful to know you all. Blessed Mother, I want to thank you for the gift of your love and protection. Also I can never thank you enough for giving us the gift of your son, Jesus! Thank you for saying Yes to Gabriel! Thank you, Dad, for your endless mercies! Thank you, Jesus, for washing me clean from my sins. Help me to sin no more and when I do sin, please help me recognize it and ask for forgiveness from these mistakes.

 

Shortcomings/Sin in last day: I had two thoughts of judgment today which I don’t where they came from. I only know that looking back, I feel badly that I did not hold captive those thoughts in the truth of your love: You love each person more than I could ever know. Help me catch these thoughts when they occur and delete them instantly and respond with love to that person. I love all my brothers and sisters; remind me who they are in Christ, help me love all people equally and with much of God’s love as possible.

 

Dec. 14th Scriptures:  

Numbers 24:2-7, 15-17a

“…eye is true, The utterance of one who hears what God says, and knows what the Most High knows, Of one who sees what the Almighty sees, enraptured, and with eyes unveiled… I behold him, though not near; A star shall advance from Jacob, and a staff shall rise from Israel.”

I am not sure what the context or what the story here is about… I only wish that I could be one who has eyes unveiled! I would like to know what the Most High knows. I would really like to know how much of these minutes are from me and what words here would be truly from God. I behold Him, though maybe more near than I know. Come, Lord Jesus! For my redemption draws near!

 

Psalm 25:

“Teach me your ways, O Lord…. for you are God my Savior!”

Remember me, Dad. Show me the way. Guide me to justice and teach me humility. (But please, don’t make me lose my sanity again- if at all possible.) Please teach me humility in a gentle way, in the best way you see fit, but please help me learn without too much of a battle. Give me wisdom and the grace of humility, long-suffering, patience, love, hope in all things, and joy unceasing.

 Matthew 21:23-27

God is speaking to me through this scripture that even Jesus had a hard time with people… I shouldn’t expect anything different. People may try to judge me unjustly, I only need to remember that I don’t have to answer everyone and every question. Remember that the Holy Spirit will help me get through difficult moments.

 

Q1– Dad, thank you for leading me to the Eucharistic Apostles of Divine Mercy. What an honor to be inducted to such a wonderful group of believers. Will you help me to glorify your mercy through daily making loving works of mercy for others?

Answer-I give you many, many acts of mercy to make right in your home with DBy. Offer up everything and do all good works to show your love to me. There are many opportunities for Deed of mercy, Word of Mercy, and Prayer as an act of mercy. Try to do one of each every day. You give me glory through your life in doing these loving acts for others. Pray and intercede for many. I always hear your prayers.

 

Q2-Jesus, I am so sorry that I finally made the connection of the Wine I take at Holy Communion is from the blood that you bled from lashes you bore for my sins. I am so sorry I took so long to figure this out in my spirit. (I knew it becomes the blood and I thought that was difficult to connect to the actual lashes you took from my sins.) I nearly cried today when I made that connection: the wine becomes blood I always knew, but that it was directly related to the sins I have committed against you. The lashes you took for me so that I don’t need to go to Hell- it’s just too much to bare. I’m sorry for not loving you enough; you are my savior! I love you. I am so sorry, Jesus Thank you, my God, my Savior, Thank you! You are so wonderful. I love you. I am so sorry that it took me so long to finally truly make this connection on a deeper level. It is real, your passion was real; those lashes -it was for us, so we won’t have to go to hell, but rather can be with you in Heaven eternally. Help me remember this always.

Answer– Mar, when you were talking with me to day after Holy Communion, you made me tear up also. I love you. Thank you for your appreciation. In doing so, each time you remember me at Communion, when you remember the lashes I bore and the blood that I shed, you will do much reparation. Reparation for the lukewarm souls that either ungratefully take my body and blood in communion, or for the people that don’t come to church anymore to partake in this holy celebration. I’m glad that you are so grateful and true to my love. It means a lot to me. I love you, mar.

 

Q3- Holy Spirit, thank you for making the bread and wine actually into Jesus’ blood and body. In this way, you allow me to have the most intimate connection to my Lord. He becomes a part of me. My body is intermingled with His body. My cells are built on His body, blood and spirit. This would be impossible if it weren’t for you, my dear friend. Thank you, Happy Spirit! You are so wonderful. Please help me to always have such reverence and remembrance of Jesus’ Passion at Holy Communion. I love you! Thank you for taking away my sins so I am able to partake in the body and blood of Jesus.

Answer- Mar, we love you. You are very welcome. It is true, you become one with God in the Holy Eucharist. You are right, and it is your salvation in an intimate and holy way. You are welcome- I love to be able to take away your sins in the confessional. I love to see my friends holy and pure, made righteous from confessing of sins. You are very lucky for this fullness of truth and tradition. You have wonderful Priests at St. M.

 

Q4- Mom, Could you help me remember to do these acts of mercy daily? I would like to do all 3 each and every day to show my love to God. Help me offer up any difficulties I come across and give me patience and long-suffering in joy and peace with Love for you and God.

Answer– Absolutely, I would love to help you. I will remind you and help you. I have an idea for you, you could put it into your to do list on your phone app. Have a reminder daily around 3pm and in that way, you won’t forget. ok? I love you, my daughter, mar, whom I love very much. You’re my chickie.

 

Closing Prayer: I love you guys more than I can say, more than I can even understand. Help me to love you more. Help me to know you better. Help me to show my love of you to my sisters and brothers through acts, words, prayer – acts of mercy for others in appreciation for all that you do for me. xo!

~Amen!

 

Thank you for all the blessings you have given me! Thank you for your unfathomable Divine Mercy! Thank you for a wonderful relaxing day listening to your word and getting clarity on prophetic scriptures. Thank you for a fun time with DB at the tennis center. Thank you for your peace, joy, and love! Thank you for a beautiful world. Thank you for all the people you have let me come to know and for your church. Thank you for never leaving me alone, especially when hard times hit! thank you thank you, thank you for your goodness! I love you!

Shortcomings/sin: Please forgive me for saying a word today that is not becoming of your daughter. I was joking around, it just came out. Forgive me, Jesus. Help me control what I say. In the future, I would like to not make mistakes like these; please help me curb my spontaneity and the words I speak.

 

Scriptures: Dec. 13th

What do I think God is trying to tell me?

 

Zephaniah 3;14-18

It is appropriate and worthy to sing and praise Jesus, prepare His return with rejoicing. He will sing joyfully over his children that are soon to come home to be with Him.

God wants me to know that I have no need to fear anything. He has overcome the evil one. He has risen, He will return soon! Hallelujah!!!

 

Psalm Is 12

Jesus is here in the midst. He is alive! He is very near to me. Rejoice, be glad and be thankful for his glorious achievement! Jesus Reigns! The earth is singing; Proclaim how great and exalted is His name! All around the world we sing with one voice: You Reign, Jesus Christ is Lord! ~Amen.

 

Philippians 4:4-7

Have no anxiety, Mar… None at all. In everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make my requests known to God. Then I will know His peace. I am so glad you are in control, Dad. I love that you take care of everything. Remind me not to worry. Thank you for reminding me to look to you for help in all things. You will guard my heart and my mind. Thank you, Dad!

 

Luke 3:10-18

Mar, I ask you to preach the good news in these last days to the people. You can make a difference for many people. Speak out when I ask you to preach my coming soon. Tell your friends that I come soon, and that we don’t want them to have to go through the terrible days of the tribulation! They can all come up to meet me along with you and the people that are born again. The ones left behind will have a terrible time under the antichrist. They will have a difficult decision to make: Me – eternal peace and joy or they can choose Lucy and eternal damnation. Difficult I say because they will be persecuted and suffer many things under the Antichrist. However, It’s going to be an amazing time for the people that come up to meet me at the rapture. Woe to the ones left behind. It will be so terrible for them. We have some ideas of how to help them, (hint trinity app) but still, they will wish that they would have made a better choice when they had the time to do it. (Parable of the 10 virgins: 5 were prepared, 5 were not ready and they missed out on the great wedding feast.)

 

Q1-Mom, I really want to be used for helping bring more people to be able to come up with me at the rapture. Will you help me see opportunities for this honor of sharing the good news? Will you line up opportunities for me each day?

Q2-Jesus, please be patient with me when I don’t speak up for you. Would you please give me courage and the right words at the right times- to speak of your Unfathomable Divine Mercy and God’s great goodness!

Q3-Dad, thank you for saying that you have work for me to do for helping usher in your Holy Kingdom! What should I do each day to prepare for the honor of working for you?

Q4-Holy Spirit, How can I cooperate more fully with you? Will you speak up when I don’t hear your small quiet voice. Also, will you give me the grace to follow your directions? Make me into someone you can use. Form into me your heart for souls.

 

Answer Q1-You can start in your home, and also around the people you meet in your daily schedule. Be a good example. Work on planning EPP, Inc. and Trinity App. Spend 30 minutes each day, if you can, to think and jot down ideas for the trinity app. You can put it onto your phone as you think of things and then email it to yourself to print and put into your notebook for EPP. It will be fun! I’ll help you with the grace of new ideas and people that can help you with it.

 

Answer Q2-I will give you opportunities to speak about my goodness. You mission will be through Shamrock Studios, Epp, Trinity App but you will also need to be used by me on a one to one basis for people I put into your life. You will walk where I lead you, only look to me and we will get there together. I will help you. Holy Spirit is hard at work in your life and you will have much help. You will be used. You are willing, only remain willing and all will work out for the best. Just remember, you only need to plant the seed. We will take care of the rest.

 

Answer Q3- Mar, your heart is big but not big enough for all that I have for you to do. Keep praying to be made into who I want you to be. I can work with that. Otherwise, without your renewed permission, my hands are tied. You have to ask for my help; I will change you to be like me. Keep asking for it.

 

Come Lord, Jesus- I give up my life to live for you. Help me be who you want me to be. Equip and empower me to be who you want me to be. Invest in EPP, Inc. if you see fit. I call out to you, my Lord. Make me into a transformed version more like you. Have your way with me. I surrender it all to you.

 

Answer Q4–Your heart is in the right place. Only you need to slow down, relax, and enjoy yourself. You will find much more peace and love for other people when you slow down. Jesus never rushed around. He had time for other people. Slow down and look around. You will have many opportunities for small and large gestures of love for your brothers and sisters. I will use you and I will continue to do a great transforming work in your life. Thank you for offering yourself, Mar. We appreciate it. You will have a large effect on many people.

 

All Glory to God! He can use even a wretch like me… Anything is possible with God! Your love makes me sing… but could you give me a voice that doesn’t create pain in the listener’s head? 🙂

 

Closing Thoughts/Prayers: Your love is amazing; I am so unworthy, Lord! Thank God you have a plan… a good and wonderful plan of redemption for your kids. Please help me bring many out of the tribulation and into your arms at the rapture. How do I express this to people? It’s confusing and hard to understand… but it’s so important! How do I convey your love and mercy? How to make them realize that the time is near… our time left is so little! Would you help me say the right things and when I pray for people could you help me with the wordings and empower from the Holy Spirit for your healing love to come through me. “Power Evangelism” will help many people come to you with trust. Please work your miracles through me and through others- all for your Glory, Your Kingdom. Heaven come down! My soul sings of your love! I love you!!! xo,

~amen.

Thank you for your gifts: thank you for music and YouTube videos. Thank you for DB, even though we don’t always get along, we love each other very much. Please bless our love and our marriage with your peace, joy and the love of God. Thank you for the fog this afternoon and last week. I love feeling your presence in the fog. Thank you for your unfathomable divine mercy. Thank you for my job and clients. Thank you for my dad helping me always in so many ways. Thank you for my mom, her love is truly unconditional and sweet.

My shortcomings are many, Lord. Please help me love people despite the unlovable actions of some people… help me be patient in longsuffering. Give me joy in offering up sufferings to you at the foot of the cross to help the lost souls in purgatory find their way to your heart. Forgive me for my impatience and lack of love and understanding. Help me be more patient… I’d like the patience of a saint to become my new personality… Ha! Truly only with God’s help would this miracle take place! Come Lord Jesus!

 

Dec. 12th Scriptures:

 Revelation 11:19a; 12:1-6a, 10ab

“Now have salvation and power come, and the Kingdom of our God and the authority of his Anointed.”

I was thinking about this question…when will His Final Coming to take His Kingship and rule for the 1000 years? Also, since Jesus came and gave us Salvation through his blood, and power has come to us with the authority of his anointed- why don’t we start using and demonstrating the power of His love? The power to heal and raise people from the dead… the power of creative miracles… to set us free from the bondage of illness and death. If we have authority by being anointed by Jesus, why don’t I pray more for others’ healing? God likes to work through his children, so since His love amazes me- I need to shout out how good God is! I need to proclaim it from the rooftops; His Kingdom Come! I am so impatient for His Kingdom to finally come… Dad, can I help usher in His Kingdom, to help prepare your children for His return?

 

Judith 13:18c, 19

You are the highest honor of our race! Mother Mary, you are above all women and all men on earth. (Jesus was man and God) You are the key to bringing our redemption to earth, help me do as you would do if you were alive today on Earth. What would you be doing? How would you be preparing for His return? What can you tell me to do that you would like to see me do for His Return?

 

Luke 1:26

When the angel Gabriel sent from God to give her the good news of her role to play in the redemption of all mankind, She responded may it be done to me according to your word.

I was thinking about how scary that must have been. She was around 14 or15 years old and would become pregnant – what would Joseph think? She must have been completely thrown off guard but had so much grace to respond in that manner. Mary, give me the grace to say YES in all things that God has for me to do, no matter the cost.

 

Q1-Mom, sometimes I really want to swear and maybe even smack DB out of frustration. My anger builds up and as he pushes my buttons, I can’t control my thoughts of extreme anger. Help. What should I do in these instances? I’ve gotten better in swearing much less and I haven’t acted out in violence… but I have the anger and the thoughts of extreme frustration. AUGH, what do I do?

 

Q2-Dad, I love you. Thank you for giving me small victories by your power in me. Thank you for sending the Holy Spirit for comfort and peace. Never once have you left me on my own. Even when I didn’t see it, looking back, I know you got me through everything. You are faithful in your love and protection. I never walked by myself. Help me never to forget that you are always with me, within me, loving and watching over my every step.

 

Q3– Jesus, you deserve a spouse that doesn’t swear or think violent thoughts of smacking her husband… How you save my soul! Your great love and forgiveness; my heart is bursting with love and appreciation to you! Please forgive me and forget my sinfulness. (Even the thoughts of swearing/cursing going on in my mind; not acting on it sometimes.) That is a small victory to not act on my thoughts, but I don’t want to even THINK swear words! Can you please empower me to be at peace at all times? I want your peace all the time, my King- my Prince of Peace; my Lord! Spare me some peace, my love? 🙂

 

Q4-Holy Spirit, thank you for helping me get through this last challenge today. Could you help me to keep my peace even when buttons are being pushed? What’s the trick? I feel like a switch was turned on and I became inflamed inside… the anger is so powerful. How do I diffuse the bomb more quickly? I fled the scene and opened the window for some relief from the heat being 79 degrees (DB wanted it hot- humm, to upset me on purpose?) I am so easily angered. Holy Spirit, help me get off myself. Self-focus at the mostest. Help me calm down when these anger flares occur. OK? Please?

 

Answer Q1–You are learning… you left the room in peace. You didn’t react in anger, you just peacefully left the room and opened the window, journaled the board meeting so we could help you. You didn’t go to food; a victory there! You didn’t raise your voice, you didn’t slam any doors, you didn’t swear (out loud) you didn’t take the tango. You simply dealt with it. Kudos, Mar! As for thinking thoughts of swearing or violence… that will come in time. You are gradually getting better. Look how far you’ve come since you first got married, or even 10 years ago. You are doing great. If you want to grow at a faster pace, keep coming to board meetings. Keep confessing. Keep asking for help. We are with you. We are all cheering for you. You did a great job tonight. Pray to me the next time this happens (and you know it will happen again) because this is your training ground. You are growing more than you think.

 

Answer Q2– I will never let you forget that I am here for you. I am in your heart. You are my temple. If you feel distant from me, call a board meeting! I will always be available for you. I love you, Mar.

 

Answer Q3–haha, yes, I can spare some peace for you… You crack me up, Mar. You are my beloved. I forgive and I also forget. Yes, I have much peace for you. You will be receiving this grace through my mother. Go to her for the grace of patience and long suffering love and don’t forget to offer it all up for lost souls, ok.

 

Answer Q4– Yes, Anger is a powerful emotion. You have that tendency so remember to pray to Mom. Blessed Mother will always give you the peace I have for you. She will give it to you if you rely on her help. The more you rely on her help and not your own efforts, the faster you will find your peace in these moments. So, hand it all over to Mary. Yo Mama in combat boots will take care of you and it will all work out for the best when you rely on her for everything. She is my spouse and I want all my graces to come to you through her loving hands. She will coordinate all graces. She has many to give you, so don’t forget to ask for them!

 

Closing Thoughts/Prayers: Thank you for your help. To know your love in me is priceless. You are all I need, Holy Trinity, Mom- I love you guys. You are my strength when I can’t go on. You carry me and hold me and take good care of me. It’s good to be the child of God! I’m spoiled by your love! Thank you for being with me on my every step. You make this journey one of many lessons but it is definitely a wonderful world. (Even when I’m not seeing it.) Thank you for being my strength when I am weak. Your love carries me to new waters in the light of your love.  xo!

~Amen

 

 

Thank you: For your forgiveness which I need daily. Thank you for forgiving me for complaining today to my dad and for a bad attitude while helping him with the drums. Thank you for another leading of your numbers; 7,1! I know I look for the littlest of signs, and may be creating much of it, but still, I will thank you. If you want me to stop playing the lottery, you may need to give me some very strong and clear signs. Otherwise, I will probably keep playing until I take my last breath. I hope I’m doing the right thing… oh well, it’s just a game. Thank you for your love and protection. Thank you for giving me your mother as my own.

Shortcomings: I am so sorry that I was cranky and complaining with dad today. I think I swore yesterday in a conversation with DB. Oh, yeah, it was last night while arguing over the news. I really lost my temper over something relating to the terrorists. Please forgive me and help me do better next time. Mother, help me be a better person; help me be the person you and God would want me to be.

 

Scriptures: Dec. 11th

What was I thinking about? What was I feeling? What was Jesus trying to say to me through the images and words of these passages?

Isaiah 48:17-19 You teach me what is for my good and lead me on the way I should go. You will never leave me to myself. I will listen to your commandments and my prosperity would be like a river. My Vindication like the waves of the sea.

You are so good to me. I want to be a better person, for you Lord. For your glory, I want to do your will.

 

Psalm 1:1-4, 6

Those who follow you, Lord, will have the light of life.

Thank you for leading me. Help me follow you more closely. I feel so inadequate to even offer myself for your service. Help me be worthy to be called your daughter, for I am not even worthy to be a slave of yours. You are amazing and wonderful – Lord, I pray you can use me, being that I am such a bad example of a Christian daughter of yours… I am impatient, self focused, rude at times and unloving. So many of your other children are better than me. Help me be a daughter you can be proud of. Cleanse me and create in me a new heart… a heart for you.

 

Matthew 11:16-19 .  The Son of Man came eating and drinking and they said, “Look, he is a glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners, But wisdom is vindicated by her works.”

I was thinking as I read the passage, that if people said that Jesus is a drunkard, who am I to think that people would say good things about me, and my behavior? No matter how “good” I try to be, some will say bad things about me. They absolutely will make up things and look down on me. If I try my best and ask for forgiveness from Jesus, all that should matter is what God thinks of me, and my behaviors. I will improve a little each day. Wisdom will slowly come to me more each day also. Keep doing a work of mercy each day. (Without complaining!!!)

 

Q1-Mom, I blew it again today. I tried to do a good deed for Dad… it started badly (phone was turned off accidentally and I missed his call) then it ended bad. (The tables were jammed and the exit had a wide drop and I couldn’t get the drums out the door easily.) I complained. I really didn’t want to be there. I didn’t want to do a good deed. I was tired and was unable to go to tennis because I was too tired. I would have loved to take a nap instead of drums and then go to the workout. Augh. I am not too good at this works of mercy thing. Help me, Mom! I really need some help here. Help me be less self-focused!

Q2- Holy Spirit, what can I do when I’m all frustrated about little things? It’s not your spirit at those times… will you please empower me to be more relaxed, calm, and loving?

Q3-Jesus, what do you think of me? How do you see me?

Q4-Dad, why do you put up with me?

 

Answer Q1–You will learn over time. As you do the self-review of shortcomings you will get better at patience and doing the things your heart really wants to do. You will see less of the ego taking over. I know you react to your dad in the way that he reacts to you… so it truly is a difficult thing to change. You can be the better person. Try not to follow in your Dad’s example… sometimes it’s not the best. lol.

 

Answer Q2–When you are tired, you make mistakes and behave badly, right? Well, why don’t you listen to your body. If you are tired, don’t go. Take a nap. Try not to commit to very much, say instead, I will try to go – I’ll let you know. When do you need to know by? Don’t commit. Take time for yourself and rest up. You have a much better chance of being loving if you are rested and not too heavily scheduled. I know you want to help your dad, but if you’re tired and really don’t have the time because of work, just tell him. Nobody expects you to do all the things you do. You put additional pressure on yourself. Don’t do that.

 

Answer Q3-What do I think of you and how do I see you? That is a good question, Mar. I see you as a sweet innocent bride -pure, fun-loving, radiant and shining. You have a huge heart and you don’t even know it. Dad chose you for me. You are my beloved. I see you in the light of eternity. I see you with me, in my arms, and laughing all the time with the sounds of a symphony. I love you to the end of time. I love you into the eternal time where there will be a wonderful wedding feast for you and me. We will throw an eternal party. Everyone will be there. I see you with me eternally. You make me happy. I love you. I love you to the Moon, through the universe and out to the multiple galaxies the parallel universes and back… I love you endlessly. xo!

 

Answer Q4– Hahahahahhah, Mar… if you only knew. If you only knew the things and the people I have to put up with… HA! My mercy is endless and my love deeper than the oceans. You are not so bad, my daughter. 🙂

I love you, Mar. Keep doing your best. We will all help you and cheer you on. Don’t give up. Run a good race.

 

Closing Thoughts/Prayers: I am in tears… I am so lucky! I love you guys so much and am so relieved to hear your thoughts. Thank you for telling me the beautiful hope that you have for me. Thank you for your love! I am not worthy. I’m not worthy it is true, but with you, I can hold my head up. You give me strength to go on. Help me improve. Help me with time management. Give me the courage to do your will. Help me know my next steps. Saints and Angels, please pray for me. Please be with C and give her strength. Please help M find a job. Please remember all the people on the St. M’s prayer lists… please hear all their intentions and help them out with their needs. Please help mom’s surgeon do a good job and let mom’s eyes heal up quickly after surgery. Please give my mom and dad long life, healthy and prosperous. Please help my marriage get stronger and more loving. Help me be a better wife, daughter and friend.  xo!

~Amen.