2017-05-28 12:14am
Help me love again…
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When I was young… free from fear… free from the pain of hatred in the world… I used to be so free in loving. I used to have no fear of anyone, especially Muslims. I loved all people, I loved all Muslims with no thoughts of them hating me…. now this hatred and fear has grown so much in the world. It is hard to escape the tendency to fear people when all you hear is the killings of Christians by terrorists. Please…help me be that girl without anxiety, without mental illness, without the confusion and failed memory thought processing.
I want to know what I know… feel what I feel. I don’t want to be numb anymore. I want to feel and to be free to love as in childhood. I don’t want to hate anyone… I don’t want to fear anyone and I certainly don’t want to harm anyone with words or lack of compassionate words backed by acts of love, kindness, mercy and giving of the light with a bit of laughter. Help me change. Help me love all my brothers and sisters- free of prejudice, free of anything except the pure love of Jesus towards each and every person on earth. Especially help me love and not fear the faithful people of the Muslim faith.
I believe you, God, have a lot for me to learn. I am open and am ready for your blessing of a miracle of healing for the world. We are ready for our world to be one… one love. One people who belong to you, Father. Help me share your love. Take away all that does not belong in my heart. Fill me with your love for my sisters and brothers. Help me be of service and make a difference in the world. I am so sorry that I have so far to go. I need a new heart. Take my fearful heart of stone and change it into one full of love. Help me love again, Lord.
I want to be of service. I have a purpose. Give me the words to share your love. As Nahko says, we are strong together and together we will overcome hatred and all evil in this world. Help us get over this mountain of hatred… show us the way. Help me understand my purpose. Give me what I need to make you proud. I am so very sorry for being persuaded to fear whole masses of people when it is truly only a very few of the many who are terrorists. It all can be done. I can’t wait to be at the Darkening of the Sun Festival in August. Please give us a safe and blessed trip. Help me learn much between now and then. Give me your heart for all souls, especially lost and hurting souls.
I love you, please don’t let me mess this plan of yours up. I need so much work and have so far to go… please don’t let me miss my destiny. Help me help you save souls… and I know I will fail if I don’t get this main key heart makeover to love without any fear. Give me stability and love with a pinch of laughter and my life will be one of service to the family business of saving souls, I love you, Dad. Jesus, teach me love. Holy Spirit, enable me to be filled with your spirit more and more each day. Fill me so full that your love will spill over to the whole world. I want to be a useful vessel. Please don’t give up on me. I am sorry I have been so brainwashed into the hatred of the world. Show me the way. Jesus, take my hand and lead me to your heart. Blessed Mother, please pray for me. Pray that my love will grow in leaps and bounds. Pray that fear will not be in my soul and my heart only has love for the entire world, especially any enemies that would like to inflict harm. Help me love, mom! Amen.