Thank you, Saint Bendadict for helping me feel free of the perceived evil intentions from the enemy through my loved ones. Thank you, Mother Mary, for your protection and care. Thank you, Holy Spirit for your peace and loving presence. Thank you, Jesus, for saving me from my enemies, from my own faults and for saving my eternal future so I will one day be with you all of eternity. I love you, God, Holy Trinity- you are my everything.

Thank you that I felt only love today from my family. Thank you for your care and loving heart for me. Thank you for the hugs and love I was able to receive from my honey, DB- my support, my best friend, my love, my heart. Thank you that he is so patient and understanding patience with me. He is a saint. That is true. I am sorry for all the negative things I have said in the past years that were harshly spoken against him. I am truly grateful that you found him for my life journey companion. You did good- Father! I am so glad I found your will in who to choose for my husband. I could not dream of a better friend and love of my life. I would never trade him for anything or anyone ever in this life or the life to come. Pleases protect him. Fill him with your peace and bless our marriage. Thank you so much, Jesus, for the miracle of our love for each other.

Thank you, God, for all that you are doing for me each day as I recover and get stronger. Thank you for the gift of medicine that works so well for my system. I am forever glad that I have doctors that care for me and are supporting my mental stability. Please help me help someone that may be in need of an understanding friend. Send me someone that I can pay it forward and help. I would like to be a friend to someone in need to repay you for your kindness. Show me what I can do. Help me be a blessing to others and keep my in the palm of your hand so I never fall on my own strength. Without you, Dad, I can do nothing. Without you, Jesus, I am lost and all alone in my sin. Without you, Holy Spirit, I am a wreck- I need your comfort and care each breath I take. Without you, Holy Trinity, I cannot breathe or lift my heart to your loving hands and my life means nothing without you.

Help me share your amazing love to the people I meet. Help me not be so socially awkward and help me not appear to be a “Bit@h” as I feel I mistakenly come off as being. I don’t know how to relate to people for some reason. I have lost my social skills and feel lost as to what to say to people when I speak. My brain goes into anxiety mode and I walk away half the time… I don’t know why I am so socially challenged now days. Is this some kind of spirit or am I just out of sync now that I have so much on my mind. I have such huge dreams and imaginations of a fantasy life of ShamRock Studios, miracles in song, giving to the poor and feeding, sheltering the homeless… is there something I need to be doing? I ask my self this each day and feel so lost as to what could I possibly do? Today, I only can get my work done, pray and journal. I should be writing songs, a novel, praying for people, and so much more!

Should I go back to VU to pray for people? I would like to practice it more and I need to pray for my family more. Especially my dad’s health. Lord, Please send your healing love to my dad and heal his cold and also strengthen his heart… or better yet- Lord, Jesus- please give my dad a new healthy and strong heart. Let his doctor tell him he no longer needs to wear the Defibulator vest! A creative miracle is what I am praying for, Jesus. Mother Mary- please intercedes for me and take my prayers to the Father in your special manner that you offer gifts to Dad. Please make my meager attempt at prayers into a beautiful bouquet of flowers that are placed on a golden platter with Golden Delicious apples, grapes and some of his favorite cheese and crackers. Ask him if he would accept my prayers – especially for my dad’s health renewed- and answer my prayer. I am so sorry for my sins. Since my last confession, Lord, I have sworn twice… the word you dislike most. Please for give me. I will try to control my tongue and anger. Mother, Please help me be the person Jesus would like me to be. Jesus, make me clean and purify my heart and thoughts so that I can better speak with the Father and so he will hear my prayers. Make me whole. Wash me clean so I have nothing between my and My Daddy. Dad, you are my rock. I love you!

Please hear my prayers. Please equip and empower me to be all that you are calling me to be. Help me know what that looks like. Show me the way to your heart and help me sing of your love. I long to sing… but have not much talent. Give me ideas for songs. Show me the whole song and create through me. Use me as an instrument of your peace. Help me shine your light to the world. It’s dark down here. Come soon, Lord Jesus. Help me prepare your way so that people won’t miss out on your return. Heaven come down. Love, flow through my life, and make me your living enterprise. I want to be that person. I want to make my dreams a reality. Help me shake these dreams into reality. Holy Spirit, possess my heart and work your miracles through my life.

I offer you my yes to whatever you have in store for me. That is all I can do is offer my little life, my little confused brain and my big heart for your will be done. Don’t let me think so much of myself. Show me what I can do each day to walk closer with you. Your light is so bright; help me wipe away the fog in my eyes. I want to see you clearly. Come, Lord Jesus, fill my heart and make me anew. Show me the way to my destiny. Don’t let me miss my destiny, Jesus. Please help me deal with what you have given me. This cross is great. But your love is bigger and that’s good enough for me. Cheers!

January 4, 2017

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On January 4, 2017

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2017-01-04 07:03pm

Saw PE at the Clinic

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Just a quick update on my appointment…Things are going well. I have a lot of good plans and hopes for 2017. My goals are fun and I am excited for new beginnings. We discussed many things. One of most importance that I would like to record here is that I am going to try to get over my paranoia when people touch me- shoulder, back, arms, hands, head, etc. I feel like a “hex” is going to make me ill from it. Yes, I know this is not rational and is very odd. I have no proof that it has caused any damage in past occurrences.

I want to be free of this torture. It is a kind of “terror” where nothing may happen, but I am afraid of the idea. It puts me into a sort of prison of my own making. I told DB we will try an experiment for 3 weeks. I will pray about this, journal, and try to be less sensitive. I will see if anything bad happens. I told DB that my head is a more sensitive area and to avoid that. I hope I overcome this dilemma. Hopefully this experiment will be successful. God, help me. Thank you, God, for an understanding and loving husband. He is my most blessed, faithful and fun partner in crime. Thank you for picking him for me. I am so happy that he is my best friend and that we love each other so much.

Thank you, Father, for all the blessings you have given me. I hope I can make you proud and glad for the life I offer to you. Help me be who you want me to be. Equip and empower me to be that person. I love you, dad. I would like to ask for your blessing on my experiment and that your will be done in all areas of my life.

Amen. <3

December 15, 2013

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On December 15, 2013

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Hi, Sorry it’s been about a week since we last met here on this Ipad, but you know

You are in my heart and on my mind all the time… you are so good to me! Thank

You for showing me your love each moment and really shown me so many

Blessings. My life is so blessed, I want to bless others and show them how much

You love them. When we were at Schnucks and prayed for the couple and also

For A… the love you show for your kids, really amazes me. Your heart is so

huge and your love is for each one of your kids in a unique and passionate way.

Your Kingdom come, Lord! I can’t believe that in a couple more drawings the jackpot could be 1 Billion… yes, that is with a “B” as in Billion! Wow, I could be set for a while with that… could do a lot of good with that… Feed hungry souls, a lot of trinity phones to give away and a lot of music making to boot. I’d love to be moving into the studio DT in January!

It’s a marathon and not a sprint… your will will be done in your

Timeframe. The joy of loving and the joy of giving are amazing. I want to be a part of your business. You have the most amazing heart… how can we wrap our small brains around your omnipotence, omnipresence, gentleness and greatness? I can not even come close to know you, but Lord, please help me grow in your love. I want to share your love with the world, one on one in any way you see fit.

I was talking with m&d the other day, and we were discussing technology and how you could use it to advance your kingdom. Dad was saying that you don’t work that way. How could he know your thoughts about that? Why wouldn’t you use technology as a tool to teach people how to pray and love others… to pour out your blessings on your kids in a new and fresh, global, and fun way? Why not heal the people with music, also? Sweet music. We can make it work! Eternal Party People, Inc.– EPP Trust — Eternal Party People Band, –Eternal Party People Foundation. Whatever you want… I want.

Oh, I have to tell you how much you made me laugh after the Hobbit yesterday…

When I was talking with DB and we had a great time discussing how we loved

that the Dragon’s Legion of armies, were depicted as stone characters, strong

creatures which were also dumb as Rocks!!! Ha! I love that! Yes, they may be

strong, but they certainly are not the smartest tool in the shed. Tools.

They are tools. I’m not afraid of them, they should be afraid of me! Because

Jesus is in me and I’m not afraid to use His authority to take back territory

for God. Healings, miracles, signs, wonders, deliverance and joy is HIS. He will

reign soon. He is coming back! We better get ready and start planning this

Eternal Party, eh?!!! We are all invited! The whole world is invited. So, don’t feel left out, anyone… you are cordially invited, so put on your party clothes… get set, get ready…

For the bash of your life… and this party will NEVER end! How kewl is that?

We’ll be back in the High Life again! Eden will return and we will take back what

Lucy stole from us all. Lucy is shakin’ in his boots, pooping his pants, cause he

knows what is coming soon! IT’s going to be a sight to see… back in the High Life

again! (Steve Winwood 🙂

I can not wait for Christmas! I love this time of year, so much fun with family,

friends, and time to just goof off. I pray that God’s will -will be done in our lives

here on Earth. I pray to be a part of planning the party for your kids, God.

Please make me worthy to be involved in your great plan. I love you and would

like to be used by you. If you would let me into your dreams and help make

some small contribution, I would be eternally grateful! You set my heart and

dreams on this, Lord. Please forgive me if I’ve let you down in the past. I know I

have been preparing for this time for a long time. Not just the last 5 years, not

just my lifetime, but many lifetimes. I have been born to be at your service, Lord.

Help me not be selfish, proud or lazy. Help me to be the servant and friend you

desire.

Continue to mold me into whatever you need me to be. I want to shine

for you. I want to earn a crown of your glory so I can place it at your feet when

we finally meet in heaven. Please bless my attempts to follow your lead. Please

help me be who you want me to be. Please equip me to complete the job to

exceed your expectations. With you, anything is possible. … don’t let me mess it up! I need your guidance, love, support, and I need to hear your voice to lead me

in the right direction. Each day, each hour, each minute… your gentle guidance and sometimes I will need you to speak loudly when I’m not paying attention.

Please help me to see the road… miles and miles ahead is not how you operate, I’ve found. You like to work in the fog… one step ahead at a time. That is ok… give me comfort when I feel lost. Please guide each step of mine. When I look back, to see how far I’ve come. Miles and miles behind with haze in front, but I can see how far I’ve come. Thank you for getting me through the maze this far. Don’t let me get too far off track, please. Guide each step with the assurance that your leading will not be difficult. It’s when I try to look too far ahead, then that is

where I get discouraged, right? I love you inside and out. I’ll follow you down any

road you ask of me. Just give me vision, courage, wisdom, strength, determination, integrity of spirit, love and patience. If you continue to help me, I will forever be grateful. I love you eternally. Jesus, you are amazing. You are the fire in my heart.

Your word and work make me alive with love and passion. You are the reason for

my laughter and my sorrow. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I will love you until

I die and then forever more. My heart is hanging out, on my sleeve waiting for

your fire to join mine. I love no other way. It’s all or nothing. I only want to

please you. Please don’t let me lose that fire. Passion for you and your

Kingdom… that is all I can think of. Your love crosses the universes through my

heart -waves of love, shining a light for my path to reach your light one day.

I miss you. I want to come home. Please don’t forget us down here. We need you. We need your love and light. Come invade our hearts and come home, Jesus. You are welcome here. You are needed here and we miss you. I want to hug you…

right now.